You wanted to know the real me
So I introduced you to my depression
You wanted to know why
So I introduced you to my obsession
You wanted to know how to fix it
So I introduced you to the drugs
You wanted to know the feeling
So I introduced you to the plugs
Now we self destruct together
And it’s all my fault
Too many introductions
Now you’re falling apart
I’m sorry that I caused this
I can never get to close
dragged you into my darkness
Now we take the same dose
Dec 12, 2020
Dec 12, 2020 at 2:48 PM UTC
I know the drugs are killing me
Maybe that's why I take them
Hoping one day
They'll set me free
Dec 12, 2020
Dec 12, 2020 at 2:42 PM UTC
Dear God,
I'm sorry I don't believe
I really want to
That feeling of comfort
That feeling of relief
Believing that things will be ok
Even when everything is burning around you
I've been burning for some time now
With no answers from above
And a flood of calls from below
I'm sorry I don't believe
But how could I
Dec 6, 2020
Dec 6, 2020 at 10:57 PM UTC
I started using again
Relapsing to relax
Filling my cold empty vessel
With a warm flood of emotion
Dec 6, 2020
Dec 6, 2020 at 10:40 PM UTC
I walk around this room
With the devil on both shoulders
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 12:05 PM UTC
I stopped taking meds today
Letting my mind run free
Moving too fast
And I can’t catch up
These voices control me
Running circles around my vessel
Taunting me
Screaming at me
Killing me
Is this was pure insanity feels like
An uncontrollable explosion of infinite stimuli
Endless torment with no solution
I need to wake up from this nightmare
before one day I don’t wake up
Jun 1, 2019
Jun 1, 2019 at 3:53 PM UTC
I tried to **** myself once
With a bottle of pills
And a mind full of voices
Swallowing two dozen
Everything was blurry
My vision was gone
But my mind was clear
I saw everything I loved
I saw everything I hated
I was face to face with every insecurity
And at the same time
Engulfed in self love
Jun 1, 2019
Jun 1, 2019 at 2:00 PM UTC