Lips traveling down my neck
Sensation firing through my spine
Like a breeze on a crisp night.
Fingers combing their way through my hair
Forcing my head back
Accepting every touch
Feeling the tickle
Of every single nerve
Launching and exploding
Like a firework show.
Maybe,
Just for tonight
We absorb and relish in the desire.
Maybe tomorrow,
We can take on complicated.
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 5:17 PM UTC
Silence seen
Is screaming hidden.
Tucked away
In a private unlit place
Designed to destroy
Impure thoughts like a virus.
Yet not far out of reach
Purposeful,
To release built up tension
Like disturbed carbonation from a can.
Excitement
Seeping
Every unguarded
Tormented region
Slowly
Disentangles
Just the thought
Provokes uproar
In mind and body
May 3, 2020
May 3, 2020 at 1:35 PM UTC
Well hello there baby blue.
How did you get here?
Where did you come from?
You are clearly far from home.
I’m sure your momma misses you.
Im sorry I don’t know where you belong.
But I might know a safe place for you.
Sure, I’d take you in.
I certainly have enough love, space, and time to give.
However,
This other place is best.
Hey there baby blue,
Don’t you look warm.
I see you’ve met your momma.
You’re welcome.
May 2, 2020
May 2, 2020 at 6:03 PM UTC
They say my effortless humor brings tears to the eyes and pain to the cheeks
They say my wit and wisdom is an advanced force well beyond my years
They say my eyes are deeply mesmerizing and my smile is infectious
I say I’m a clown with dark agony hiding under the paint
I say basic knowledge taunts me behind disguised doors
I say my body is absorbing destruction and I am to blame
Confused souls
Setting off conflicting sparks in my brain
They do not know why I am
I do not know who I am
May 2, 2020
May 2, 2020 at 3:49 AM UTC
Bonds formed among tragedy
Never welcomed
Always unfair
Remarkable in an unexpected way
Life should have turned out different
Many tears have been shed
Bargaining that idea
To any being that would listen
Mothers need not worry
Raised almost methodically
Equipped with pieces the other needs
What was stolen
Replaced by an entity with no label
Resembling a sisterhood
Apr 29, 2020
Apr 29, 2020 at 1:53 AM UTC
Taunting me...
Mocking me...
Ripping away my emotions,
Like clockwork,
As if possession was never really mine.
Always testing my wavering sanity,
Or possibly even my questionable worthiness.
Using maniacal unpredictability to ensure complete drainage of hope from this body,
A shell,
that I’m convinced is nothing more than a broken well trained slave.
The remnants of skin and bones before me,
Now controlled,
By this viscous evil force,
Laughing through my veins.
Breaking free just to assert dominance.
Oxygen as an accomplice,
Pigments the hue that provokes me.
Victim to manipulation,
Red fuels my rage.
Curious...
Was this imprisonment foretold,
Or am I to blame?
Apr 28, 2020
Apr 28, 2020 at 8:15 AM UTC
Confession is necessary,
For this should no longer bother.
In times of fear and uncertainty,
Introverts everywhere are thriving.
Though I miss the ones who surround me,
Daily 9 to 5.
The air now fills my lungs with inspiration,
Life has more sustenance.
Culture has been introduced.
Reading supplies adventure.
Hobbies create fulfillment.
Learning requires time.
Before...none of this touched me,
Lost in the scattered monotony.
Not wanting to deprive my nerves,
My hope contradicts the masses.
I feel guilty and selfish,
Absorbing it while I can.
Apr 28, 2020
Apr 28, 2020 at 12:25 AM UTC
Staring into those onyx eyes
They pull me in
Simply captivate me
The longer I gaze
More seems to reveal
Unconditional love glares
Reminding me of the why
With no words spoken
Fear and anxiety sweat from the corners
Comfort needed through presence
Purpose restored
Joy illuminates brightly toward me
Life makes sense
Even for just a moment
Look beyond
Find everything
Right in front of you
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 10:15 PM UTC
I feed off of your emotionless nature
I’m busting at the seams
One is not meant to hold it all
Mine growing as yours remain to be seen
It’s too much, It’s tormenting me
It will soon explode and make you suffer
Swirling inside of me
Rage, confusion, and longing causing me to regurgitate
Leaving a mess no one can understand or piece together
Dig deep
Offer some relief
To calm this storm
So we may have a chance
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 1:30 PM UTC
Sometimes I close my eyes
I see you smiling, crying, laughing
It’s as if you are in the room with me
Happiness and fulfillment swallows me
Imagination filters through moments
Milestones for you and me
By your side always, without convincing
Purpose has given me insight
Eyes can’t seal forever
Fantasy must come to an end
Realization sets in that it was all pretend
Heartache shatters me
Thoughts of you keep me going
One day it will be real
There is no other option
The void must be filled by more than just thinking of you
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 1:28 PM UTC