my facade slowly being torn
delicately ripping little by little
letting darkness seep through
lovingly caressing my soul
tugging on it, pulling me back halting me,
paralysing me
until I cave, and I am finally drained
Jul 15, 2021
Jul 15, 2021 at 1:52 PM UTC
The wind caresses my skin
I blush at the gesture
The wind clings my clothes to me
I hide myself subtly
The wind whips my hair away from my face
I feel exposed
The wind pushes me away
I don’t resist
The wind gives me goosebumps
My heart drops slightly
The wind throws sand at my face
It blinds me from its actions
The wind becomes dangerous
But I still love the wind
Jun 23, 2021
Jun 23, 2021 at 8:49 AM UTC
When I think of the future
See my life
It’s pitch black
No direction
No light
But everyone else
They see a shining path
One so hard to miss
But when you’re blinded
By darkness
You miss everything
Jun 23, 2021
Jun 23, 2021 at 8:19 AM UTC
My back against concrete
My eyes searching the night sky
My eyes stinging and wet
Everything is numb
I don’t feel anything anymore
But I feel everything all at once
I don’t know who I am anymore
I don’t know what I want
And it’s terrifying
Handing the reigns over to fate
Trusting it with your whole being
But I can’t do that
I won’t do that
I will ruin it
Jun 23, 2021
Jun 23, 2021 at 8:14 AM UTC
I was staring at my ceiling
questioning the reason for my existence
my arms were stinging
my head was heavy
my heart was numb
so I decided
I didn't want to feel like this anymore
I wanted to test my limit
to see if my body could take it
so I did
I swallowed one after the other
laughing
music deafening my ears
tears were spilling against my will
by 10 I thought to myself
how did it get to this?
I thought I was getting better
but no
I wasn't
so I kept going
by 20 regret skimmed my body
but my urge to be free was stronger
I pushed forward
more and more
my sister then caught my eye
a picture of all my baby sisters
in front of their lifeless one
filled my mind
and I broke
I broke unlike ever before
I stopped at 35
not any more or less
I don't wish for them to see that
to ruin them like that
I would never
I could never
I stared back up to the ceiling
And let the darkness take over
Only this was one I would wake from
Jun 12, 2021
Jun 12, 2021 at 1:08 PM UTC