I couldn’t just give you half my heart
I had to give it all
I didn’t care if that meant I wouldn’t have anything for me as long as you didn’t fall
Oct 24, 2023
Oct 24, 2023 at 9:59 AM UTC
Pressure for perfection
more from me than from them
I don’t know that they would even bother if they knew my own mind is my worst critic
Stopping me in my tracks sometimes before ever even starting something new
Dragging me backwards without a moments notice
Why am I my biggest adversary ?
My mind a war zone
Where am supposed to find tranquility, serenity?
Then I remember your smile
Yours and mine combined
It can calm any reckless wave of anxiety
So greedily, I want to capture those moments
Freeze them forever in time and placidly encompass them in my embrace
Oct 24, 2023
Oct 24, 2023 at 9:54 AM UTC
Even the feeling of a void is amiss
I have gotten to the point beyond nothingness
How did it get this bad
Mar 1, 2021
Mar 1, 2021 at 11:47 AM UTC
I can't even remember how to be who I was before the pandemic
I miss that girl that was confident-ish
that was hopeful
that looked positively upon the world
that loved adventure and sunshine
I miss her laugh
her smile
I miss her eyes that used to sparkle not with tears but with joy
she was just starting to leave her chrysalis
she was just learning to use her wings
her wings along with her freedom were claimed
all she loved stolen by what felt like a deadly gust of wind
Now I've just built up the strength to regather those scattered pieces of myself
but I don't think I'll ever be that me again
Dec 28, 2020
Dec 28, 2020 at 8:56 AM UTC
Unaccomplished
Insufficient
Unworthy of being hired
Unloved
forgotten
Not worthy of being remembered
Silenced
A little too quiet
Not worthy of being heard
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 1:02 PM UTC
will you tell me what you're feeling
what you're thinking
why don't you speak to me when you're angry
what is going on in your head
why am I met with silence when I try to unlock your voice
it is what picks at my flesh the most
it is what speaks idiocy in my ear
telling me it's all going to disintegrate like it never existed
telling me just like everything else in my life
this will turn into nothing
Sep 10, 2020
Sep 10, 2020 at 3:51 PM UTC
You are such a sweetheart
I'm a cold-hearted *****
I think we are perfect
Jul 6, 2020
Jul 6, 2020 at 6:29 PM UTC
Now I have too much silence
too much peace
not enough pace
I think it is foolish to want a little trouble
but right now I'm floating on motionless water
with no storm cloud in sight
and I hate the stillness of it all
Jul 6, 2020
Jul 6, 2020 at 6:16 PM UTC
I envy how the rain can just wash away what it pleases
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 2:54 PM UTC
All I ever wanted was stability
somewhere I could be safe
not afraid
but the universe has chewed up every bit of familiarity I held like a heartbeat
and made it flatline
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 5:17 PM UTC