
I found comfort in your arms.
I found security in your hands.
I found love in your eyes.
I found kindness in your heart.
I found intelligence in your words.
I found adventure in your mind.
I found persistence
I found relief
I found fun
I found sweetness
Softness
Motivation
Creativity
Wonder
Compassion
Thoughtfulness
You found the bottom of the bottle
over
and
over
and all was lost
Jun 15, 2017
Jun 15, 2017 at 11:48 PM UTC
You couldn't handle my need for order
for safety
for security
so I went with you, into your chaotic world
I was scared, but I trusted you.
You said you would be by my side
We would be together
Happy
Again.
but once I was out of my element
you dissipated into the noise
and
left
me
stuck
You said you would be back
and that I'll be safe
I haven't had a thought to myself without the noise of the world
The humming the the buzzing the the the YELLING
But I waited for you to return for good
I waited for you
I waited
I waited for so long.
You wouldn't stick around, but left me with empty promises of it
Every time I want to go back, you show your face again
and
give
me
hope
Hope that you would return for good so I'll feel safe, again.
I'm sorry dear, but it got too much.
You can keep your chaos, if that's what makes you happy
but I still don't feel safe
and I still hear the noise
and I still have hope
Jun 15, 2017
Jun 15, 2017 at 11:34 PM UTC
I helped you
You told me you're here too
I don't help for personal gain but
I'm hurting.
I'm hurting.
Please return the favor.
Please stop telling me to not be selfish.
All I asked was for some help.
I've listened to you talk about what's ailing you
I've helped you through it
You promised!
You promised you would be there for me!
But now that it's not about you, you don't care
You give me half hearted advice and change the subject to yourself
How you're hurting more, or how I'm too weak because you're hurting more and you're better than me
so I put my pain aside so you'll feel better for awhile
Jun 14, 2017
Jun 14, 2017 at 3:22 AM UTC
Drunken tears with lonely fears have felled upon my shoulder
I give you the means, the knowledge, the support to prevent the weekly trend
Yet it always comes down to you wanting to molder
Which is actually funny, in a not so funny way
You want to break the mold
You want to be known as bold
You figure you'll be young forever
Nothing will catch up
Until you're fitting another mold, one you didn't expect
Before you break the societal mold,
you have to break your own
Jun 14, 2017
Jun 14, 2017 at 12:33 AM UTC
You compared yourself to a bird and me a cage
I hold you back
"Don't leave, don't leave
You need not be free
I don't want to risk losing you
So stay here, please sing with me"
except
You are not a bird, and I am not a cage
I was your blanket on a cold night
I was the cast on your broken leg
I was the home cooked meal after months away from home
Just because I limited, held you back, because
I put the cork in your wine bottle after a glass too many
After days of intoxication
I asked you to consider kindness when you wanted vengeance
After a brief altercation
I pushed you to rest after days and days of exhaustion
After you snapped with agitation
I pull you away from self destruction, quiet enemies that bring corruption
You don't want care, you want an accomplice.
You don't want change on your own terms
You don't want change at all
The caged bird does not sing
So what's your excuse?
Jun 14, 2017
Jun 14, 2017 at 12:05 AM UTC
On a summer night so clear
I asked how much you hold me dear
You took my hand and got some sand
In a solo cup bright red
"Count every single grain" you said
I did.
I counted every grain, which took all day and night.
I counted them all and
you were gone
It turns out, a cup of sand is not a lot
Even if there were many little pieces
Love cannot be measured
To measure it would be a distraction.
Jun 13, 2017
Jun 13, 2017 at 11:38 PM UTC
We were dancing in perfect sync
We had an impeccable routine
We were perfect
I saw it
You saw it
Until I wasn't perfect
You wanted the same steps with someone else
You took my feet with you
Jun 13, 2017
Jun 13, 2017 at 10:48 PM UTC