Looking at the smiling faces
The happiness lost
in the old graying photos
forming into blank stares
rouge on cheeks
hinting the interest of
glossy lips
brightening tooth-filled smiles
perfectly manicured nails
glinting in the sun
lost in translation
from a life imprinted image
that could never wholly encapsulate
that one moment of
that one day
that now seems thousands upon thousands
of miles away
Dec 18, 2020
Dec 18, 2020 at 10:58 AM UTC
I always thought we were the perfect match.
But matches are meant
to ignite
and burn out.
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 8:17 PM UTC
your boots send shivers across ice as thin as paper
wisps of snow float through the air
you can't help but think
as the cracks in the ice circle around you like a web
about all the times you kept walking
when the people who loved you most cried your name out in vain
when you locked your eyes on the ground with your head down
no time wasted but no time spent well
you think of your ignorance
when you refused to let anyone help
you realize all the things you should've done
you feel the empty lurch of your stomach as the ice breaks
as you fall to a freezing death
thinking - if only
if only I had kept my head up high
if only I had smiled just that once
if only I hadn't pushed all my friends away
if only I had listened
if only I had read the sign that said,
'thin ice'
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 5:30 PM UTC
1 knife
2 hands
3 tears
4 regrets
5 wishes
6 people loved and lost
7 friends gone
8 souls circling
9 times I tried
the 10th time I will succeed
too many lives changed..
too many to count.
Nov 3, 2017
Nov 3, 2017 at 8:33 PM UTC
Is living a life worth living,
really living?
Meeting deadlines
expectations
a goal
making promises
that are always broken
never kept
sold like drugs on the black market
waking up each day
knowing that you won't meet that deadline
that you won't reach that goal
that you broke a promise
that you have failed.
So ask yourself
Did I meet that deadline?
Did I keep that promise?
Have I reached my goal?
Have I lived my life to the fullest?
Or have I gone beyond the limits?
How have I done this?
And how can I share this virtue with others?
Will I fail?
or will my life end up being everything I wanted it to be
And more.
Oct 22, 2017
Oct 22, 2017 at 6:25 PM UTC
The sweetness of her voice lingers
holding the room within her innocence
remembering the day years ago
when she sang the melodious tune
sharper and duller
louder and softer
captivating the entire room with her voice
all eyes transfixed upon the beauty standing tall
proudly daring the world to compete
an attempt to match
the stunning voice
I blink twice,
then again
the once glowing white floored stage
is scuffed and broken
the massive shiny circular tables
covered in white sheets
making the room look like a ghost's playhouse
then I remember
it was years ago
it feels like only minutes have passed
from the bellowing audience
and the dazzling acts
to the hurricane that ripped apart the roof
then to the debris scattered about the floor
no one had bothered to clean it up
then why should I?
Jul 28, 2017
Jul 28, 2017 at 11:10 AM UTC
And I run to you,
with aching legs
and an aching heart
I run into your arms
closing my eyes
In hopes as to never forget this moment
and with soft promises of tomorrow.
tiny whispers of "I love you"
silent prayers that this wouldn't be the last time
A kiss on my forehead
holding me close to your chest
tears in our eyes
sadness overflowing
onto the pine needles crunching beneath our bare feet
Delicate hands on soft cheeks
"I have to go.."
Sadness sparks again in your eyes
"I love you."
"I love you too."
We break away,
only to stare at each other for another minute
our hands and our eyes locked together
Whispers,
carried away by the wind
"Rem em mber m me e.."
And our hands part
We break our gaze
More tears.
I'd never seen you cry before.
That moment.
the one moment where you are at the point between sanity and insanity.
the worst moment
but the best
the one that seems to last forever
but is gone in the blink of an eye
The breaking moment
"I love you"
We both retreat back into the safety of the darkness
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 5:40 PM UTC
you stand in front of me
only slightly to the left
yours one of the many
the small candles lighting up in the darkness
encircling those who I've gotten closer with this summer
singing sweet songs of happiness
I force a smile onto my face
mirroring those around me
trying to hide the tears streaking down
my rosy cheeks
it feels like an eternity,
but it went by like the snap of a finger
and everyone walks away
retreating back into the darkness
the circle of candlelight breaking off
and heading in the other direction
a single candle slows,
letting the others slip ahead
You turn around,
the candle resting in your fragile hand
And I run to you
with aching legs
and an aching heart
I embrace you
praying to god
that I might see you again tomorrow
You kiss me on the top of my head
whispering, I love you
our matching brown eyes meet
twinkling by the fading candlelight
somewhere in my gut I knew
that I wouldn't see you
but somewhere in my heart
hoped that I would
Jul 25, 2017
Jul 25, 2017 at 7:57 PM UTC
And when I said, "I will miss you"
I didn't realize the depth or the meaning
until now.
Like claws against my face,
my tears burn into my porcelain skin
How could someone I knew for a few days
turn into an old and good friend?
Jul 25, 2017
Jul 25, 2017 at 7:26 PM UTC
your harsh words set my heart ablaze
following the flames that light up my darkened soul
for I am not one to be weakened by hate
but I am the master of truth, justice, candor
I may battle day by day
to send your stinging words away
for I wash my bruised skin again and again
scrubbing away the hurt left inside
from the remembrance of you
the resemblance, but also semblance
misleading, misjudging, misinterpreting
leading me away
into a dark hallway of misery
but holding clarity
sending my mind into a black hole of despair
a single light will shine.
the question is,
will you follow it?
Jun 18, 2017
Jun 18, 2017 at 1:16 PM UTC