What you see
Is a confident woman
And everyday I have to remind myself I’m strong
that I am that person.
But deep inside I know,
I’m not.
I’m still that girl
That lonely girl afraid of being left
that girl terrified of rejection and abandonment
That girl yearning for a hug.
I want to be that woman.
You help me become her.
The inside slow fades.
Mar 15, 2023
Mar 15, 2023 at 5:09 PM UTC
Everything’s going to be okay
Because I love you
Because I’m here for you
Today might not be your best day
Tomorrow might not be okay
But that’s okay
Because I still love you
Because I’m still here for you
I know that’s not very logical
But that’s okay for me
Because I really do love you
Feb 15, 2023
Feb 15, 2023 at 5:31 PM UTC
It’s 1 am and all I can think about is you
How there’s so many adventures waiting
So many people for us to meet
Places we can visit
Moments for me to love you
There is so much waiting for us together
I’ve met my match and I can’t remember life before
It’s 1 am and I’m looking at rings
But I’m really thinking about our future
The steps we’ll take
The plans we’ll make
The new is waiting for us
Jan 31, 2023
Jan 31, 2023 at 7:54 PM UTC
Soothe
He didn’t know how he made the voices in my head be silent,
He didn’t realise his presence stopped the raging storm.
He didn’t see how the change engulfed me.
How in control i feel.
Your presence soothed my soul?
Your words hushed the wave and I’m not drowning?
When I breathe out it’s not from releasing unsaid words and thoughts.
My lungs can breathe deeply, freely.
He didn’t understand how he lifted that weight for me.
I feel so free.
Like a candle flickering all night long.
For once I don’t want to listen to her or me.
For once I want your presence to keep soothing me.
Jan 21, 2023
Jan 21, 2023 at 7:42 PM UTC
Love is stupid
Love makes you do stupid things
Sort your **** out Cupid
I don't want to jump of buildings
With the hope you'll catch me
That's stupid.
I don't want to walk through fire
To prove my love
That's stupid.
But if you asked me to jump off a building,
I would for you.
But if you asked me to walk through fire,
I would for you.
I know that's stupid but without you I'd be so blue
I would do anything because I need you.
I would do anything because I love you.
People in love do stupid things
Because love has their limbs on strings
Making them think they have wings
Making them think they're kings
But darling please don't misconstrue what I would do
Because the truth is, I would gladly do stupid things for you.
Jan 21, 2023
Jan 21, 2023 at 7:35 PM UTC
Near you
My books and poems don’t excite me
Neither does swimming in the endless sea
but the presence of you-
My brushes and paints are now lost on me
the pages that excited me are pale now
but when you’re nearby-
My words fall out all at once clumsily
but when you’re near me
my thoughts flutter around your mind
my words build an eloquent house around your sentences
art grows from my tips and all I want to do is paint your lips
My palette is static as my mind
but when you’re near me
the colours change their hue
Like the flying chaos of the world I am soothed by the presence of you
Jan 21, 2023
Jan 21, 2023 at 7:32 PM UTC
Home is your arms wrapped around me
And bringing me a sweet tea
Home is your silly little laugh
And where there’s a sleeping bison calf
Home is discussing the world at midnight
And planning our next flight
Home for me is around you
And feeling close to a little grey Blue
Home is being myself
With a love like yours that lets us be.
Jan 21, 2023
Jan 21, 2023 at 7:27 PM UTC
You don’t want to talk,
So quietly in the snow we walk
I have so much to say
But you’re just going to look away
You don’t want to talk
We reach a snowy crosswalk
That’s okay I say
But I can feel you pulling away
You don’t want to talk
The words feel stuck in my throat
We live in a democracy do I even get a vote?
The silence you’ve created
I warn you darling is gonna end up ill fated
You’ll wish we never dated.
You don’t want to talk
I’m mad you just sit there
Your miserable silence filling my air
I don’t mind shouting, **** it even fighting
But I assure you I will not survive in this silence
Tell me what’s wrong, walk me through the grey thoughts I see across your stupid face
Because I’m scared of this quiet place
You don’t want to talk
Unfinished thoughts and sad words in a tight lock
And I say that’s okay
But one day I’ll just walk away.
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 11:31 AM UTC
Darling mark,
you’ve had quite a year
(This is not a love poem, let’s be clear,
But i know I’ll blow you out the stratosphere so sit down and have a beer)
You’ve had it quite rough
And although you’re quite tough
You should have died once or twice
So listen to my advice
Don’t change you ****
You’re a half decent chap
You don’t pretend you’re something you’re not
It’s kinda why I mistakenly think you’re quite hot
And I’m certain Freud would have had a field day with you
Beyond reason I enjoyed hanging out at Waterloo
Everything seems nicer with you
so please push through
Listen closely, I’ll only say this once,
You’re kinda funny and you have a kind heart
So this Christmas I won’t ask for much,
And if you tell anyone about this, you’ll be walking with a crutch
please don’t change you ****
Sep 25, 2020
Sep 25, 2020 at 10:20 AM UTC
I want to claw open my stomach
I said no
I want my fist to smash through
I said no
I want to rip out this dark mass in my stomach
I said no
I want to slice out the feeling inside me
I think I said no enough
I didn’t fight
I didn’t move
I wanted to
I said no
When will these heavy thoughts leave my stomach
Because they’re dragging me further than I imagined
And i hope they pull me to a lake
Because I’ve always felt like drowning
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 4:10 AM UTC