Don’t wanna live, don’t wanna die
Don’t feel anything, yet I feel everything
So many things to do, but no drive to do them
The feelings come back as the blood slides down my wrist.
I have to life.
Not for me, but for others
I must get things done whether it takes me 5 minutes or 5 hours.
I say that I’m okay, but am I really?
Not seeing the point in anything
Laughing but not feeling happy
Smiling but wanting to cry
Hating myself and the world
But loving those around me too much to leave
I want to get help, yet I’m scared
How will they react if they hear the truth?
Will it get better?
Feb 13
Feb 13, 2026 at 1:43 AM UTC
I’m stuck.
But not in the here and now.
I’m stuck wishing or regretting the past
Or stuck worrying about the future
I’m stuck in the thoughts
I’m stuck feeling both nothing and everything
I’m stuck being hopeless
I’m stuck, I’m stuck, I’m stuck.
I’m stuck hoping things will change
I’m stuck fighting my brain
Stuck trying to survive another day.
I’m stuck exhausted
I’m stuck with my scars, a painful reminder
I’m stuck with myself.
Feb 13
Feb 13, 2026 at 1:37 AM UTC
I miss the old days
So happy and free
Not a care in the world
Just happy to be.
Not afraid of betrayal
Or even my thoughts.
I was a bird in the sky
Simply happy to fly.
Feb 13
Feb 13, 2026 at 1:32 AM UTC
Depression.
Seems like a darkness swallowing me.
A darkness that never seems to fade.
The emptiness in my body I’m not able to evade.
The hopeless days.
The hopeless nights.
Finding no light.
Maybe a good day, coming now and then.
But, there’s that pitch black darkness.
It’s right here again.
Feb 13
Feb 13, 2026 at 1:26 AM UTC
I was never afraid of the dark
At least not the way I am now
I'm afraid of the darkness surrounding me
Instead of the darkness around me
Instead of invisible monsters under my bed
I'm afraid of the raging monsters in my head
I don't fear the shadows creeping along the walls
I fear the unseen companion watching as I fall
The noises I hear aren't imaginary
They're the voices in my head
They're the voices of the world
The world is not 'cupcakes and rainbows' like they say
It's evil and dark unable to change
Really and truly that's when I knew
I'm no longer a child
I grew up, it's true
Dec 9, 2025
Dec 9, 2025 at 1:26 PM UTC
Wanting the world to change
It is not enough
What good is want when we're simply feeding the fire
We want change, but we don't want to change
What good will looking around at everyone else do
If we want change, we must be the change
We have to start our own path
The road less traveled
Lead others away from the scorching fire
before they get burnt
The easiest path will hurt more at the end
Be a leader.
Not a follower.
Dec 3, 2025
Dec 3, 2025 at 2:14 PM UTC
I see my forever
I see it in your eyes, the passionate, soft look
I see it in your smile, tender and mesmerized as you gaze right into my eyes
Your hugs, hesitant, yet loving; wanting
Your words, soft and sweet
Wanting to know my thoughts, my plans for the future.
I see my forever in you
Nov 7, 2025
Nov 7, 2025 at 5:31 PM UTC
Your smile
It lights up my world everytime it shines
The way you look at me, adoration twinkling like stars in your eyes
Wanting to say something but you say ‘someday.’
Your laugh, so full of joy and warmth
With that sound, I will never be cold, it’s a blanket warming me on a frigid day.
I’m scared, but I have to admit,
I’m falling in love with you
Nov 4, 2025
Nov 4, 2025 at 2:00 PM UTC
I feel as though the sun is trying to push its way through but just can’t seem to overtake the darkness that has surrounded me.
Sep 8, 2025
Sep 8, 2025 at 8:07 PM UTC
I want to disappear
Not necessarily end my life
Not disappear from others
But from myself
I want a moment to breathe
For my mind to say ‘It’s okay’ and truly mean it
To be able to walk down the hallway and not get overwhelmed
I want to disappear from the monsters in my mind
That makes every tomorrow not wanted
Sep 8, 2025
Sep 8, 2025 at 4:32 PM UTC