she ignores me still,
the wonderous girl
who stole my heart.
she said...
she would love me forever,
no matter what.
she lied.
I am living proof,
that lies are believable
for I believed...
in her...
and in us.
she failed me,
and let me down,
when i needed her the most.
******* i needed her!
do not believe
that love is beautiful...
for it is false,
and indifferent,
and malignant.
i believed,
and look at me now...
telling all of this to you
strangers,
who don't care.
she lied, and i suffer.
she betrayed our promise,
and that is...
unforgivable.
need i say more?
Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 5:53 PM UTC
I stood in the sunshine and saw darkness everywhere.
All that could have been.
have you paid a heavy toll?
have you given it your all?
Are you unforgiven?
And all that could have been
Just wanted to make her proud
now i am an empty shell
left discarded
somewhere along the way, she left me feeling dead
And all that could have been
somewhere...
out the window, and across the valley
she runs free
farewell darling...
this is my final goodbye...
May 25, 2018
May 25, 2018 at 8:36 PM UTC
blood spilled
battles won
enemies vanquished
with you by my side
all was possible
but now...
you have been turned
corrupted
polluted
soiled
i did not believe
you could be so swayed
by lies and empty promises
is that what you wanted?
because thats all you have now
i hope it keeps you warm at night
because i won't
for you are not worthy
of even a shred of my love
you have made your bed
now live with it
you are not welcome here
anymore
May 24, 2018
May 24, 2018 at 10:48 PM UTC
all i have to give
is myself
as i am
wherever you are
know that i'm near
you will feel me
inside you
pulsing
breathing
desiring
without limits
and without boundaries
whenever you're alone
think of me
and i'll know it
as i have always known it
i am inside you
heart mind and soul
you belong to me now
i will not stumble
i will never get lost
i will be your guide
you are mine
and i am yours
now and forever
and everlasting
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 8:31 PM UTC
emergence from winter
the days grow longer
and my pain diminishes
once all was lost
but spring brings renewal
and hope
i have grown old
against my wishes
weary, worn and broken
we pick up the pieces
of what once was shattered
can we put it all back together?
i am so tired
yet my spirit soars
with renewed belief
i have wandered
and been so lost
i have strayed
but have found my path
it leads me to you
and the promise
of eternity
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 9:48 PM UTC
there was a time
when i climbed mountains
and now
am i afraid of heights?
there was a time
when blood flowed warm
and now
i shiver
not from aloft
but a maelstrom
of exhaustion
i thought i was strong
but i will crawl
i now live
on pure faith and belief
yet, i've never had faith
nourishment and sleep
elude me
my body must lack
in hope of the soul
i thought i was falling
and i cried out eternal
and a tiny hand
gave me strength
my body grows weak
my heart still beats
my eyes grow weary
to give all to sanity
i am pretending
to be so strong
when all i want
is to know
that someday
i will be whole
again
May 9, 2018
May 9, 2018 at 10:36 PM UTC
light mist and heavy clouds
it is fog that guides my way
rivers and mountains will remain
long after i am forgotten
for i erode too
sheltered in my quiet place
i think of myself
growing older, but more aware
i have done so much
i have done so little
i would give it all
to re-live one day
with you
late now, and night is deep and still
i think myself foolish
for even believing
you've taken notice
can you see through the fog?
am i left here to stumble?
blindly?
if that is my fate
i will not wear it well
i will erode
with the other forgotten
and dream of the time
when i was alive
Apr 28, 2018
Apr 28, 2018 at 8:05 PM UTC
bruised and battered
i weathered the storm
clinging to an island
in the ocean of you
tomorrow i may drown
and no one will know
i am forgotten
and forsaken
i am just floatsam
on the island
of indifference
here i will reside
for all eternal
gazing out to sea
from time to time
remembering
what could have been
Apr 28, 2018
Apr 28, 2018 at 6:37 PM UTC
there is only her
she who resides at the center of all that is
in all of the universes, there is her
stars and planets turn to dust
nubulae spin out of control
gods are born
worshipped
forgotten
and there is her
to know her takes infinity
to love her takes faith
risk is easy
failure is not
to live in that place
the periphery of her
invites demons
who will destroy your soul
in the blink of a planetary lifespan
and yet
it is worth all
to spend immortality
for a taste
of her sweetest treasure
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 6:42 PM UTC
there is a place
where he failed in quest
a place where his eyes
were devoid of hunger
though many have seen his sufferings
the moon is the color of blood
there is a place
where the ****** go
to be judged
very few make the journey
to struggle and return
angels choke on his devastation
there is a place
where the injured
go to suffer
body licked by flames
the soul was polluted
the apocalypse is nigh
there is a place
where renewed strength
simply wilts on touch
he bleeds for everything changed
inspiration may die
in a world devoid of dreaming
there is a place
where only time will tell
if hell is reserved for the weak
she sways unspoken solitude
from the thorns, he blooms
autumn, and a voice found
there is a place
where the broken live another day
time and space coalesce from dust
and in form and body there is hope
a broken viking's tortured soul
wars are not won by strength and courage
there is a place
reserved for the redeemed
thine sword grows heavy
and thine eyes will not drift
for every battle there is loss
scarred hands tell the story
there is a place
where he belongs
and that place
is in her arms
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 11:00 PM UTC