If only you knew,
that I brace myself
each time you exhale.
With no warning,
I open my heart
with an attempt to
comprehend the
kaleidoscope of emotion
that will begin to pour out
from the depths of your heart,
leaving no chance of escape in sight;
inevitably consuming mine.
Forcing me to confront
all of the things
that I struggle
to keep buried.
Jan 16, 2023
Jan 16, 2023 at 11:07 PM UTC
What does not **** me;
fuels me.
What knocks me down;
helps me get back up.
What breaks my heart;
is also the glue putting it back together.
All of my troubles;
are keys to my solutions.
a.n.p
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 10:29 PM UTC
If only the people
that we care about
stayed as consistent
as the pain
in our hearts.
a.n.p
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 10:26 PM UTC
I like to think
that i am not alone.
That if i needed;
someone would be there.
That my call would get answered
or my love reciprocated.
But i know make believe
is for children;
not the lost souls
who are just
lonely.
a.n.p
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 10:24 PM UTC
Sometimes what is required
is more than i can give.
For i have already given
all that i have.
Everything that i feel
is not always what is there.
It’s gravitational; undeniable.
Like the moon & the tide.
That not even the strongest
of currents
could bring me back.
a.n.p
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 10:22 PM UTC
it is wrong of me
to say that I don't know death.
that I don't understand it
or know how it happens.
it is wrong of me to say
that I don't know death;
when I have been killed
far more than
once.
a.n.p
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019 at 2:38 PM UTC
when I was just a girl,
still young & new to this world
i had envisioned,
what my life would soon be like.
the things that i would think of
they did not seem to be elusive
but to my friends,
they were exclusive
along with the rest of the world.
since that moment i've been searching
scouring the earth for just one thing
to again make myself feel whole.
to fill the empty in my heart
& find some light to spark the dark
but it seems that i've been looking,
in places i don't belong.
my soul does not know
how it feels to have a home
to be somewhere,
where you're meant to exist.
i hope that i'm not always lost
that one day i'll no longer have to walk
through hell & back
just to feel alive.
a.n.p
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 3:10 PM UTC
if you could feel
just one thing.
something.
anything.
what would you do in order to feel it?
what would you sacrifice to find it?
is losing your mind worth it?
Losing yourself?
if you're looking for something,
try looking within yourself first.
a.n.p
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 4:15 PM UTC
you may not
find everything
that you have
been looking for.
if the only thing
that you
have found
so far is
yourself;
you're already halfway there.
a.n.p
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 4:13 PM UTC
I love sleeping,
really I do.
Something is so tempting about the dark.
When no one can see you,
& there's a thin line between
the shining stars & your scars.
I will always cherish the moments
when your body is quiet
but,
your mind is loud.
As I wake up, each morning my mind resets.
Thinking things are different,
the sun clouds my vision.
That's the dark I loathe.
The one that makes you think today is better.
I was just dreaming.
a.n.p
Apr 5, 2019
Apr 5, 2019 at 3:37 PM UTC