Bonbon29 - Hello Poetry

Can you do me a favor? can you kindly stop talking to me Your rude and inappropriate comments need to stop im tired of allowing you to get away with the way you talk down to me simply because i feel sorry for you You know, being that you’re a new father and all i can only imagine what its like for you at home Your wife’s giving all her attention to the baby the sleepless nights no recognition for your hard work it must feel like you’ve lost your sense of control in your own home and what better way to regain that power than to belittle those with a lesser ranking than you and even more so, those that you feel like you can get away with talking to, like the way you do to me. i remember one of the first times you said something to me. I was new to the department, and things weren’t exactly in my favor considering i was filling a mans shoes while he was away on vacation. A strong, hard working man who knows the ins and outs of being a stocker. Hell, if he really wanted to i wouldn’t doubt his ability to re stock the entire department by himself This wasn’t an equal opportunists position. I physically did not have the strength to meet the demands that this position so heavily weighed on every employee. No wonder they place all the females in clothing department, its the lightest department by weight of merchandize. and who better to give the tedious workings of folding clothes to than someone who already bears the responsibility to day in and day out inside their own home. So, here you come along, and rather than helping me to play catch up while i build the physical strength to keep up and critique the skills that are required to make my work presentable and worth noticing, you continued to put me down for being the weakest link. I brushed it off Directed my frustration towards simply just doing a better job than the day before. One day at a time, id tell myself. Things will get easier. I can go back to that same position today and clearly note the improvements that I’ve surpassed within my own expectations. If we are to be fair, i owe in part, some of that success to my ability to translate your snooty comments into something pro active and constructive. If i had just spoken up then, maybe it wouldn’t have gotten as far as its gotten today. Maybe just maybe, if i had the courage to stand up for all of the things that you represent. All the things that reminds me of a dark past of being taking advantage of without the power or consciousness to say otherwise. Maybe - just maybe .. but just like that night that still strikes me into paralysis, i become stiffened as your words take advantage of me, only this time i’m awake to feel every jab. Just like that night, those around me are misguided by your ability to a likable person. They don’t question who you are and what you're capable of, because how could you? You are a hard working manager, you make people laugh, and you clearly have a way with your words. Imagine if this had been 2008, when i was still deeply broken and unable to rationalize between what is true, and what you want me to believe is true. Imagine, if i had not yet invested so many years into growing my self worth, my self esteem. Unable to look at myself in the mirror and realize that i have so much to live for and that the exact person that i am today is exactly enough to be whoever i want to be. I would already be dead. My soul would have suffocated and be rotting away inside of me. I would be a walking zombie. Any self esteem would have been re programed into self doubt and hatred towards myself for not being liked by someone who should be encouraging me to be better. But im not that person. Unfortunately, you only get ***** once. After that it's just an attack on the body you once thought was you. I am no longer this body, and your words cannot hurt the foundation that I’ve constructed, literally, from the ground up. I am much more than that. I am everything that you fail to see because you’re so busy being demoralized by your own darkness that feeds your mind into thinking that you’re not good enough. It spills out of you and spreads like a disease to others that don’t have the proper vaccinations to resist it. Just know, that you’ll fall way before i even begin to feel weak. You’ll slowly begin to cave in, and your walls will crush you to the bottom. To the cold hard rock bottom. And then, only then - you can come talk to me.

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Jan 25, 2019

Jan 25, 2019 at 1:49 PM UTC

Bonbon29

You only get ***** once

Can you do me a favor? can you kindly stop talking to me Your rude and inappropriate comments need to stop im tired of allowing you to get away with the way you talk down to me simply because i feel sorry for you You know, being that you’re a new father and all i can only imagine what its like for you at home Your wife’s giving all her attention to the baby the sleepless nights no recognition for your hard work it must feel like you’ve lost your sense of control in your own home and what better way to regain that power than to belittle those with a lesser ranking than you and even more so, those that you feel like you can get away with talking to, like the way you do to me. i remember one of the first times you said something to me. I was new to the department, and things weren’t exactly in my favor considering i was filling a mans shoes while he was away on vacation. A strong, hard working man who knows the ins and outs of being a stocker. Hell, if he really wanted to i wouldn’t doubt his ability to re stock the entire department by himself This wasn’t an equal opportunists position. I physically did not have the strength to meet the demands that this position so heavily weighed on every employee. No wonder they place all the females in clothing department, its the lightest department by weight of merchandize. and who better to give the tedious workings of folding clothes to than someone who already bears the responsibility to day in and day out inside their own home. So, here you come along, and rather than helping me to play catch up while i build the physical strength to keep up and critique the skills that are required to make my work presentable and worth noticing, you continued to put me down for being the weakest link. I brushed it off Directed my frustration towards simply just doing a better job than the day before. One day at a time, id tell myself. Things will get easier. I can go back to that same position today and clearly note the improvements that I’ve surpassed within my own expectations. If we are to be fair, i owe in part, some of that success to my ability to translate your snooty comments into something pro active and constructive. If i had just spoken up then, maybe it wouldn’t have gotten as far as its gotten today. Maybe just maybe, if i had the courage to stand up for all of the things that you represent. All the things that reminds me of a dark past of being taking advantage of without the power or consciousness to say otherwise. Maybe - just maybe .. but just like that night that still strikes me into paralysis, i become stiffened as your words take advantage of me, only this time i’m awake to feel every jab. Just like that night, those around me are misguided by your ability to a likable person. They don’t question who you are and what you're capable of, because how could you? You are a hard working manager, you make people laugh, and you clearly have a way with your words. Imagine if this had been 2008, when i was still deeply broken and unable to rationalize between what is true, and what you want me to believe is true. Imagine, if i had not yet invested so many years into growing my self worth, my self esteem. Unable to look at myself in the mirror and realize that i have so much to live for and that the exact person that i am today is exactly enough to be whoever i want to be. I would already be dead. My soul would have suffocated and be rotting away inside of me. I would be a walking zombie. Any self esteem would have been re programed into self doubt and hatred towards myself for not being liked by someone who should be encouraging me to be better. But im not that person. Unfortunately, you only get ***** once. After that it's just an attack on the body you once thought was you. I am no longer this body, and your words cannot hurt the foundation that I’ve constructed, literally, from the ground up. I am much more than that. I am everything that you fail to see because you’re so busy being demoralized by your own darkness that feeds your mind into thinking that you’re not good enough. It spills out of you and spreads like a disease to others that don’t have the proper vaccinations to resist it. Just know, that you’ll fall way before i even begin to feel weak. You’ll slowly begin to cave in, and your walls will crush you to the bottom. To the cold hard rock bottom. And then, only then - you can come talk to me.

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My future was a fog Misguided interpretations of Success and happiness Unfulfilled dreams My life was not what it seemed A gap between the seams The bridge, missing in between One day i came across a string Held it in my hands, felt my heart begin to sing Pulled it all together, The seams and in between Tied a knot at the end, Nothing would prepare me for this. What i had seen, forever, i had missed It was you, my love Frozen in time, with just one kiss. I had found happiness, Found success in your bliss. Now life had meaning You and me, forever. I had visions and dreams That were once clear, not ever The fog had lifted I'll let go, never. Let's take on this world You and me, together.

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Jul 19, 2018

Jul 19, 2018 at 9:00 AM UTC

Bonbon29

It seams together

My future was a fog Misguided interpretations of Success and happiness Unfulfilled dreams My life was not what it seemed A gap between the seams The bridge, missing in between One day i came across a string Held it in my hands, felt my heart begin to sing Pulled it all together, The seams and in between Tied a knot at the end, Nothing would prepare me for this. What i had seen, forever, i had missed It was you, my love Frozen in time, with just one kiss. I had found happiness, Found success in your bliss. Now life had meaning You and me, forever. I had visions and dreams That were once clear, not ever The fog had lifted I'll let go, never. Let's take on this world You and me, together.

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oh hello there lover! so lovely to read your words the love you feel for me; so unheard the love i feel for you; my lonely heart is cured. you keep me safe when im away, your soul i taste through music through laughter through joy, and thereafter forever filling my heart with love forever the woman that ive been dreaming of.

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Jul 9, 2018

Jul 9, 2018 at 8:54 PM UTC

Bonbon29

forever at last

oh hello there lover! so lovely to read your words the love you feel for me; so unheard the love i feel for you; my lonely heart is cured. you keep me safe when im away, your soul i taste through music through laughter through joy, and thereafter forever filling my heart with love forever the woman that ive been dreaming of.

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Talking. Texting. Selfies. Unspoken words translated by tiny emotional icons living above my keyboard Every second is doubled Every day feels like a year "Don't get googly eyed," i joke But little does she know, that message is for me. How could i resist the presence of you? You're a grand teacher of the art of self love. Let me make myself comfortable as you sing to me the joy behind the pain The truth behind the struggle The love that never stops giving You are special, and i have to be gentle Because when something is fragile Most certainty it holds value And you, You must be handled with care You must be slowly unraveled Every single piece Every single layer Slow hands, curious hands, hold you close Electrical connections Distracted thoughts What did you say? Pardon my lack of listening skills I'm finding it hard to focus on two things at once The words that you speak And the words you keep in your heart I'm listening to what your not saying The glow that fills up the conversational platter that feeds my soul Go ahead, keep singing. These ears could never grow old of the tune that you sing

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May 9, 2018

May 9, 2018 at 2:59 PM UTC

Bonbon29

speaking between the lines

Talking. Texting. Selfies. Unspoken words translated by tiny emotional icons living above my keyboard Every second is doubled Every day feels like a year "Don't get googly eyed," i joke But little does she know, that message is for me. How could i resist the presence of you? You're a grand teacher of the art of self love. Let me make myself comfortable as you sing to me the joy behind the pain The truth behind the struggle The love that never stops giving You are special, and i have to be gentle Because when something is fragile Most certainty it holds value And you, You must be handled with care You must be slowly unraveled Every single piece Every single layer Slow hands, curious hands, hold you close Electrical connections Distracted thoughts What did you say? Pardon my lack of listening skills I'm finding it hard to focus on two things at once The words that you speak And the words you keep in your heart I'm listening to what your not saying The glow that fills up the conversational platter that feeds my soul Go ahead, keep singing. These ears could never grow old of the tune that you sing

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A woman A mother A human of immeasurable depth A being of nurturing love and compassion Could i? If i could be so lucky, should i? Do i have what it takes to take you on Do i know what it takes, to go beyond ? The arches of your doorway The shallows of your darkest corners To keep you sturdy, To keep you growing in strength. Do i have what it takes, to go the length ? "Welcome", you said, "to my open door policy" "If you have any questions, I'll open up, probably." "But if you choose to know me, be weary of this, My journey has had pain, but also, unspeakable bliss I'm too familiar of the suffering behind the sting of a kiss Try and break down these open doors And my presence, you'll be forced to miss." After taking it in, and giving it some thought My mind still wonders, my decisions still caught So much more to you, to learn So many more emotions to churn Let's take it slow, let our fires burn. I'm coming inside now sweet girl, your trust, I'll earn.

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Apr 28, 2018

Apr 28, 2018 at 10:29 AM UTC

Bonbon29

You're not too much

A woman A mother A human of immeasurable depth A being of nurturing love and compassion Could i? If i could be so lucky, should i? Do i have what it takes to take you on Do i know what it takes, to go beyond ? The arches of your doorway The shallows of your darkest corners To keep you sturdy, To keep you growing in strength. Do i have what it takes, to go the length ? "Welcome", you said, "to my open door policy" "If you have any questions, I'll open up, probably." "But if you choose to know me, be weary of this, My journey has had pain, but also, unspeakable bliss I'm too familiar of the suffering behind the sting of a kiss Try and break down these open doors And my presence, you'll be forced to miss." After taking it in, and giving it some thought My mind still wonders, my decisions still caught So much more to you, to learn So many more emotions to churn Let's take it slow, let our fires burn. I'm coming inside now sweet girl, your trust, I'll earn.

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Inspiration was found in the most unlikely of places a party full of women. Looking for lust, leaving no traces. Inspiration snuck in through those soft brown eyes they showed me your world, made me feel so alive We lived through each other for just a few short days inspiration took over you showed me the way. When it was all done, and we both had to go inspiration stayed within me, inspiration helped me grow you were the taste that i needed to savor you were the one, that would give my life flavor Now when i leave to start my next adventure i carry you with me, Through you, i venture.

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Apr 4, 2018

Apr 4, 2018 at 12:29 PM UTC

Bonbon29

Found you in Palm Springs

Inspiration was found in the most unlikely of places a party full of women. Looking for lust, leaving no traces. Inspiration snuck in through those soft brown eyes they showed me your world, made me feel so alive We lived through each other for just a few short days inspiration took over you showed me the way. When it was all done, and we both had to go inspiration stayed within me, inspiration helped me grow you were the taste that i needed to savor you were the one, that would give my life flavor Now when i leave to start my next adventure i carry you with me, Through you, i venture.

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i am who i am when my mind isn’t taking control when everything is unknown and understood at the same time when the calm of the storm hits and your frozen in time when the 8 ball knows the answer to every question This is where the trees go to let go of their confessions where the plants, flowers, and nature in itself, combine all expressions Where they stand beautifully at ease gliding so effortlessly with the calls from the earth, and its leaves telling them exactly where to go glide effortlessly, my loves in case you didn’t know let the earth take control and your aura, let it glow

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Mar 20, 2018

Mar 20, 2018 at 10:33 PM UTC

Bonbon29

who am i

i am who i am when my mind isn’t taking control when everything is unknown and understood at the same time when the calm of the storm hits and your frozen in time when the 8 ball knows the answer to every question This is where the trees go to let go of their confessions where the plants, flowers, and nature in itself, combine all expressions Where they stand beautifully at ease gliding so effortlessly with the calls from the earth, and its leaves telling them exactly where to go glide effortlessly, my loves in case you didn’t know let the earth take control and your aura, let it glow

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Moving seemed to me, the most real Seeing that there's nothing here for me Except, this pull i just started to feel The one where me and you are, we. Each other's hearts, we steal It'll drive you crazy Opening up, based on a belief Your heart shattered, you can't find relief You can't be mad Because Words were never spoken It was all sparks that left my heart broken So I'll say goodbye from a distance Where you won't see me cry See you in another life, sweet girl Where maybe then, we could try

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Mar 16, 2018

Mar 16, 2018 at 2:07 AM UTC

Bonbon29

setting sail

Moving seemed to me, the most real Seeing that there's nothing here for me Except, this pull i just started to feel The one where me and you are, we. Each other's hearts, we steal It'll drive you crazy Opening up, based on a belief Your heart shattered, you can't find relief You can't be mad Because Words were never spoken It was all sparks that left my heart broken So I'll say goodbye from a distance Where you won't see me cry See you in another life, sweet girl Where maybe then, we could try

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Why is it that, the concept of love is so hard for me to comprehend ? Rushed love, forced love; lust love from beginning to the end I see you, real love i want you, real love i crave you, desire you, my deepest strongest feelings for you love but you live the life i did and you’ll never get to understand it; love your mind will be separate from your heart, and ; love. All you’ll know is suffering, and hating all that represents; love.

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Mar 10, 2018

Mar 10, 2018 at 10:17 PM UTC

Bonbon29

Lost in the Translation

Why is it that, the concept of love is so hard for me to comprehend ? Rushed love, forced love; lust love from beginning to the end I see you, real love i want you, real love i crave you, desire you, my deepest strongest feelings for you love but you live the life i did and you’ll never get to understand it; love your mind will be separate from your heart, and ; love. All you’ll know is suffering, and hating all that represents; love.

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The wheel keeps turning, and the chains never give. You've seen life a thousand times, but nows the time to live You love.. and you cry You hate.. and you wonder why Why all these times and now I'm just learning. This love in our souls, forever instilled forever yearning. I know love, and I know where to find it You see, you took the path most traveled and the truth, you can't find it. The trees and wind could tell you so much But the gap inside you has torn you too much Reach within my friend, the path is you. You pave the road, with good intentions too.

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Feb 23, 2018

Feb 23, 2018 at 2:48 PM UTC

Bonbon29

finding forever

The wheel keeps turning, and the chains never give. You've seen life a thousand times, but nows the time to live You love.. and you cry You hate.. and you wonder why Why all these times and now I'm just learning. This love in our souls, forever instilled forever yearning. I know love, and I know where to find it You see, you took the path most traveled and the truth, you can't find it. The trees and wind could tell you so much But the gap inside you has torn you too much Reach within my friend, the path is you. You pave the road, with good intentions too.

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