Transcend Mode
. I did it in the pool one hot night. I floated with a noodle under my knees. I had earplugs in, and it was clear and moonless. I listened to my heart beat. I listened to the stars. I scared myself at one point. My eyes were unblinking. And I remembered when I had last felt like that.
Have you ever heard of massage being transcendent, as a modality? I looked transcendent up, it means go beyond.
I think there is a threshold of intensity that overwhelmes my conscious self. I thought of it as a test, how far can I go.
At that time I felt less and less like myself. The word is irritated. Skin crawling. I was hiding my tremor because I was scared of the unknown. I couldn't hide it from you
I left my body. I don't have good words, the experience I reconnected with in the pool. I'm not sure how much of this existed only in my head, that I wanted that experience.
So, anyway, the last appointment was transcendent.
Jan 28, 2017
Jan 28, 2017 at 2:20 AM UTC
Childhood dreams, detailed and cherished,
Youthful ideals, concepts of destiny
Slowly discarded, cast aside
Off-course, anti-catharsis
Devolved in a simmering cauldron
Of so-called detritus
Mid-life-fucked-up-crisis
Perception's considerable door
Care-fully cleaned
Care-freely swung
On silent hinges at dawn
Approaching dusk, against the jamb
Corroded, dust-caked-cobweb ports
Psychic day-to-day crap
Hope crawls through filament drawn tight
Contrived devices, filters and screens
Oozing in, despite the ever-contracting slits
The cocoon we have descended into
A spark, an entity detects the tiniest crack
Strikes the door, shattering, dissolving sub-conscious
To delight, cosmos, ethereal, infinite
Jul 16, 2014
Jul 16, 2014 at 12:16 PM UTC
Starlight
floating
on a hot
summer night
Photons
escape
from a
coronal
mass
ejection
The speed
is incredible
Warp 1,
671
million
miles per hour
the C in e=mc^2
Celerity
Jul 9, 2014
Jul 9, 2014 at 2:42 PM UTC
Methinks thy critique 'as been
a rite of passage
to cherish!
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 12:48 AM UTC
Stumble upon the edge
betwixt cold despair
and a smile
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 12:16 AM UTC
a feeling,
nervous
a sensation,
restless
then two years ago
my leg started
I couldn't even see
it stopped before I looked
it got a little stronger
one day I saw it
move on its own
more insistent
I stopped it by looking
like intimidation
but it was just gaining
determination
one doctor, two
it was on a roll
It took concentration
to gain control
diagnosis after
exams and test
just a description
tre mor per sis tent
then my arm and hand
drugs prescribed
one, two three, more
to no solution I embibed
if I'm busy there's no room
for it to succeed
it just takes advantage
when my brain is freed
sleep is the worst
or just trying to read
it has taken the ability
to relax and be me
and then there's attention
people can't help to see
I don't, I can't hide it
cause it is not me
Jun 25, 2014
Jun 25, 2014 at 12:19 AM UTC
Rain removes chalk art from a sidewalk
Thoughts are removed from my mind
Energy concentrates in my hands
My soul yearns for peace
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 10:15 PM UTC
I try and fail
at certain things
while others come
with ease
a soul that is
tormented by
lost op
portunities
Jun 22, 2014
Jun 22, 2014 at 12:20 AM UTC
The natural frequencies
of a being
cause resonances
throughout
the ether of life
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 10:45 PM UTC
Rounding the outcrop
the cougar was leaving
big tail making lazy circles
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 9:40 PM UTC