Tick-tock
On the clock
What's the time?
If you like Piña Colodas
And getting drunk in the rain
If you're not into yoga
If you have half a brain
If you like making love at midnight
How does the rest go?
This is silly
Get me out of here
Get me out of here
Out of here
What else?
Now what?
I dunno
I'm just rereading what I've already written
I'm cold
That's better
If you like making love at midnight
Tapioca
Wham bam thank you ma'am
I wonder if anyone ever reads this far
I wouldn't
I get bored too easily
Most of these thoughts start with I
Which is sort of narcissistic, isn't it?
Self-centered
But it's my own mind, and I would rather say I than you
Because you makes me feel like I'm someone else looking in
You make me feel like I'm someone else
I miss you
We haven't talked in a long time
And I know it's my fault
And I know you miss me too
But every now and then it hits me
Like you were always supposed to be my person
Even that is silly
I don't know why I ever thought something like that
And now I'm writing about you
I wonder if you would like that
Or if you'd write it off and look at me with those eyes
The thought scares me
I loved you
I really do think you were the first one
I mean, it's not like there weren't people before you
But no one ever made me feel like this for this long
I normally show no remorse
It's an awful habit
I miss you
I miss you a lot
I'm tired
And kind of cold still
Whatever
This is so weird
It's like I can't even form thoughts normally because I'm writing, or, I guess, typing them down
So I guess if I post this it'll be as vulnerable as it gets, huh?
I mean, no one else can dictate what I say in my mind
And it's up to me to use my thoughts carefully
I don't know
I mean, what's the harm, really?
Jan 18
Jan 18, 2026 at 10:57 PM UTC
I stand still. Legs give.
Hands shake.
Someone is leading me into a crowded hallway.
I just want to go home; I just want to feel at home.
Is it a person? The doors blur by.
Is it brown eyes? A laugh I hate? Pale skin? A voice I hallucinate?
Is it blue eyes? Trust? History? Half-awake truths? A lifetime guarantee?
Is it age? Wrinkles? A parochial comment? Gifts? Expectations?
Is it my childhood house? My current house?
Is it the mountains? The city?
Is it real? Tangible? Obtainable?
Is it comfort? Contentment?
Is it love? Lost? Gone?
Is it him? Her? Me?
Am I home; am I home?
Oct 9, 2024
Oct 9, 2024 at 10:25 PM UTC
Iridescent, black-iron fence
Clay dust
Hesitant spider's web, pulled by the wind
Charred oak
Rotted, frayed, abandoned mutt harness
Trepidant cool beneath the shade
Ivory paper glowing in
a sun's generous exposure
Retired stadium lights;
a boundary
Shards of stained glass
Vile, buzzing flies (can't they be hungry, too?)
Pale half-moon,
unforgiving hard earth
Serrations of grass
A thousand neon leaves
Inescapable chill
Pair of house wrens, tumbling to the dirt
hastening away before a greeting can be uttered
Cross-hatch benches; no spectators
Simple plucked clover
Asymmetrical gate
Impatient pen tapping
Barking dog
Pretty boy sitting alone:
are you as curious as I am?
I wander, fumbling my skin against anything that might give
When did this start to fade?
Why can I only find it on assignment?
I lose the senses I had as a child, to be replaced with this cursed apathy
I can't shake
The dog barks again
Can they feel it, too?
"45, good play."
"Alright guys, let's head back."
But the mineral clay persists in the grooves of my skin just as it does in the fibers of this page
Who can take that away?
Writing is immortalizing, so let me keep
this filth; let me absorb it, and maybe
it will find its way back
to where I've wanted to be
for so long
Jul 3, 2024
Jul 3, 2024 at 3:15 AM UTC
I wish I could explain away my feelings to you, but they're trapped inside this maze and
every turn is a dead-end that leads to another, the sunlight fades to shroud the ground in something I can't understand and
I'm sorry I can't find my way back out, I'm sorry I can't find the center; the heart, it's surrounded by briars and the thicket grows thicker the longer we wander and
I catch a glimpse of the iron gate in the moonlight and
your sorrow follows me straight back into the labyrinth
Feb 18, 2024
Feb 18, 2024 at 11:32 PM UTC
I wonder if he understands that he doesn't just cross my mind, but instead runs laps around the inside.
Nov 19, 2023
Nov 19, 2023 at 9:13 PM UTC
Life is hard and it’s rough, if you’re Christian that’s *****
I’ll be sentenced to hell ‘fore I pass Religious History
My actions are sins, so I’m forced to behave
Yeah, if my Dad heard this he’d roll over in his grave
My girl friends must be lovers, call in the saints
The teachers send home a list of complaints
“They were caught selling care and a recharged new vape”
Yeah, the stalls don’t lock so I couldn’t escape
And the graffiti is beautiful cause it can’t be erased
Rap by a girl must be a ****** crime
Guess I’ll have to call it Shakespearean rhyme
“Shut your mouth ***** you’re better off as a mime”
If there’s a wait for your opinion then I’ll burn down the line
Click on the ad for my astronomical sign
Hear about my future for a 1,000,000.99
Look for good music but oh wait, it’s AI
People on YouTube apologize and cry
“I didn’t groom minors, no, sorry, that’s a lie”
21 is still the legal age to drink
Kids at 18 in the army were thrown in the clink
3 years of difference between drunk and drowning,
Deep into misery the children will sink
The Government was built to work for me
But my food and water comes with a fee
You can't work until you're sixteen
Then how will the kids that are homeless eat?
History classes are taught to repeat
Nov 8, 2023
Nov 8, 2023 at 12:06 AM UTC
Growing up, you would fall in love with whoever sat to your left.
I sat beside the window, so I fell in love with the world, instead.
Oct 18, 2023
Oct 18, 2023 at 8:52 PM UTC
my heart’s so fragile;
i’m afraid to give it away,
all that’s left of me is
a sarcastic personality,
and even that is
starting to fade.
Jul 31, 2023
Jul 31, 2023 at 10:30 PM UTC
When did solitude become a weakness?
Are people so similar to wolves that a pack is mandatory to be appreciated?
I'm not a lone wolf. I'm a lone sheep. Noticed by the herd and attempted to be wrangled in but always straying regardless. You can send your sheepdog at me to nip at my heels until I come running back but I will always
drift
away
again.
Jul 20, 2023
Jul 20, 2023 at 1:22 AM UTC
There was an old, wooden bed frame.
Sturdy, faded, and carved with spirals that chipped away through time. It was held by 4 posts. It steadied the slumber of generations of dreamers.
Old lovers that spent their nights curled within each other, waiting for the worst of a storm to pass. Their safety was incubated through the deafening waves of nature.
Young lovers who struggled against poverty and desperation, striving to make ends meet. They allowed themselves to give each other reassurance.
Children who were naive but happy, battling their bedtimes with restless kicking and giggling, despite their exhaustion. They grew, and soon there was only room for one at a time.
A teenage son drowning his thoughts in music, battling his demons as his youth was escaping. His fears grew too large to be contained in a bed frame.
A teenage daughter healing her past transgressions, collapsing into the bed and pleading for her past to stop chasing her. Her mind was focusing on understanding the future.
She tossed the old bed frame out, and was given an iron one to replace it.
The old, wooden bed frame squeaked when you sat on it. It was stained. It was worn down. There were scars on the wood. Nails stuck out from under the original baseboards.
There were scars on the wood.
There were scars on the wood, and the wood was scarred, and so was everyone who ever laid in it.
There was an old, wooden bed frame, that was bought brand new.
Now, there are scars in the wood.
Jun 16, 2023
Jun 16, 2023 at 10:51 PM UTC