Memories
Frozen in time
Only 10 months with you
Your love
Very few pictures
Tons of text messages
This is all I’ve got
And nothing more
And there won’t be any more
This is all I’ve got
It’s all I’ve got
It’s not enough. Come back. Please?
Aug 3, 2020
Aug 3, 2020 at 2:24 AM UTC
I feel the guilt dripping down on my motionless body
I feel the shame being stabbed in my heart and being twisted multiple times so it‘s sure I can feel it repeatedly
I feel all at once and I become a statue
I feel the depressive thoughts being dropped right in the center of my head making it all filled with dark ashes transferring to grey clouds gradually
I feel the anger heating up under my room temperature flesh
I feel all at once and I become a statue
and I think about how all these feelings can disappear if you just hugged me
oh how I need your hugs when I feel all at once oh how I need your hugs to feel protective and safe
just one more time to have you by my side
I would do anything
sometimes I get to feel your love from the other side but that’s not enough most nights.
I feel all at once and I become a statue
Aug 2, 2020
Aug 2, 2020 at 12:26 AM UTC
when I lay, I wonder...
I shudder with terror...
!!!a future without you!!!
a giant heavy rock drops
right on my chest...
pressing pressure as I try to gasp for air
...sudden relief washes over me...
!.I’m feeling.!
It’s just for few seconds though...
.then I’m right back to NOT feeling.
I called this my silver lining.
Jul 26, 2020
Jul 26, 2020 at 2:22 AM UTC
I miss you with all my being
having you in my life was so freeing
I miss the looks we exchanged
I miss the love we held so close
I see lovers every where
parts of me suffocates
as I know I won’t feel that with you anymore
parts of me awaits
as I feel this might still be a bad dream
I miss you with all my being
not having you makes my life meaning
-/- less beyond anyone can imagine
Jul 19, 2020
Jul 19, 2020 at 1:13 PM UTC
My soul reeks of anger and hate. It’s the deadliest poisons I have drank since the day I was left alone. There may be love behind it all. Shall it arrive one day but can’t be today or any days for awhile.
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 8:21 PM UTC
I ask is it all real?
The
“what’s for meal?”
and
“how do you feel?”
should’ve been the questions not
if your death is real?
or
if your existence was real?
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 8:18 PM UTC
I taste the sorrow.
I taste the hate.
I taste the anger.
I taste the sorrow.
I taste the never ending aching
____I want to taste Death now___—__-__—
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 1:49 AM UTC
I beg of you
come back
I beg of you
this is a dream
I beg of you
If you love me
Come back
..................
One more night of you
Please. I beg of you.
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 1:43 AM UTC
since his passing, I feel nothing
life seems like it’s for nothing
so I started to flirt with Death
like: “psstt, I’m here waiting for you”
shutting my surroundings
I feel so alone in it all
my future is gone
my love is gone
my best friend is gone
my baby is gone
my everything is gone
I’m slipping away ever second
wishing for him back
.I’m alone.
I can taste death calling my name every second
It’s very soothing
I want to answer...
Maybe I get to see him...
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 12:09 AM UTC
baby I really need to feel your hue
at least in my dreams
I have been feeling heavy since your birthday
drained - weary - weak - weepy
.so alone that I can taste the void inside me.
thought friends of yours be a help but they injected a deeper void within my soul
a reminder they aren’t you
no one can ever be the way you were
...
wish you were here to hold me
wish you were here to adore me
wish you were here to love me
wish you were here to care for me
...
.visit me.please.come back to me.
living without you everyday is another stab right into my heart everyday
.the wound is getting wider and stronger.
.come back.
Jul 1, 2020
Jul 1, 2020 at 1:58 AM UTC