Memories
Frozen in time
Only 10 months with you
Your love
Very few pictures
Tons of text messages
This is all I’ve got
And nothing more
And there won’t be any more
This is all I’ve got
It’s all I’ve got
It’s not enough. Come back. Please?
Aug 3, 2020
Aug 3, 2020 at 2:24 AM UTC
I feel the guilt dripping down on my motionless body
I feel the shame being stabbed in my heart and being twisted multiple times so it‘s sure I can feel it repeatedly
I feel all at once and I become a statue
I feel the depressive thoughts being dropped right in the center of my head making it all filled with dark ashes transferring to grey clouds gradually
I feel the anger heating up under my room temperature flesh
I feel all at once and I become a statue
and I think about how all these feelings can disappear if you just hugged me
oh how I need your hugs when I feel all at once oh how I need your hugs to feel protective and safe
just one more time to have you by my side
I would do anything
sometimes I get to feel your love from the other side but that’s not enough most nights.
I feel all at once and I become a statue
Aug 2, 2020
Aug 2, 2020 at 12:26 AM UTC
when I lay, I wonder...
I shudder with terror...
!!!a future without you!!!
a giant heavy rock drops
right on my chest...
pressing pressure as I try to gasp for air
...sudden relief washes over me...
!.I’m feeling.!
It’s just for few seconds though...
.then I’m right back to NOT feeling.
I called this my silver lining.
Jul 26, 2020
Jul 26, 2020 at 2:22 AM UTC
I wish I wrote Poems
When I was in love,
At least then, I would've remembered
How It felt like.
Jul 24, 2020
Jul 24, 2020 at 7:25 PM UTC
We all want it
But we haven't got any
Having it makes you free
Or else you're a slave to society
If you have some
You can go around the world
If you have a lot
The world goes around you
What good are you,
O'penniless pauper
In a society full of money
And devoid of love
Jul 24, 2020
Jul 24, 2020 at 7:24 PM UTC
I miss you with all my being
having you in my life was so freeing
I miss the looks we exchanged
I miss the love we held so close
I see lovers every where
parts of me suffocates
as I know I won’t feel that with you anymore
parts of me awaits
as I feel this might still be a bad dream
I miss you with all my being
not having you makes my life meaning
-/- less beyond anyone can imagine
Jul 19, 2020
Jul 19, 2020 at 1:13 PM UTC
At Nights, I take My Loneliness
and Add to it, a Tear or Two.
Throw in some Emptiness.
Mix them up, till I'm Blue.
Keep them under Cover.
Near to My Broken Dreams.
Then sail My Boat of Sorrow,
on Waves of the Silver Streams.
I could always feel it happening,
when Loneliness was Around.
My Feet which were once steady,
kept sinking in the Ground.
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 8:31 PM UTC
I am afraid
the feeling of
loneliness
will never leave
my chest
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 8:30 PM UTC
Three, four, five, six
Episodes in a row.
Me, more, ice, chips,
Can't do this anymore.
I check my phone - no messages
I moan and groan - bad premises
I'm all alone - mood perished
Carried by a small stream to the vast sea of apathy,
And i can't swim
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 8:29 PM UTC