There will be gloomy days when
you will look back at your old self
and think about this one choice you made that
changed your life in many ways
You will think about the day you decided to leave
You left family and friends behind
hoping to find a better future on the other side
You were young and naïve
you were that quiet kid that
no one thought could ever leave
yet, on that September 6th 2013
holding hands with Fear and Hope
you boarded a plane that took you miles away
There will be gloomy days when
you will wonder why
on that day Fear didn’t pull you aside
and tell you that life
wasn’t going to be as bright on the other side
You will wonder why that quiet kid
had this strong need to leave
You will look back in sadness
and grieve the loss of those happy times you took for granted
You will be drinking the same coffee
mum used to make you on a Saturday morning
and you will be listening to those songs
dad used to play in the car on a Sunday afternoon
You will grieve what it feels like a loss
of those you have always loved
It’s on these days that you will feel alone the most
Inside your head it will be as dark as the sky
on a rainy winter afternoon
and your eyes will be as heavy as grey clouds
ready to let the rain pour down
It’s on these days that you will grieve the most
Though, they say there is always calm after a storm
and no matter how brief it can be
you will eventually find some peace
and it’s within this peace that
you will find the strength to remember that
not everything is as gloomy as it seems
It’s within this peace that
you will honour that quiet kid
who is no longer as quiet as they used to be
and it’s within this peace that
you will celebrate their new life as a fearless kid
Dec 25, 2018
Dec 25, 2018 at 8:49 AM UTC
I am the human. You are 12 God's with one mind. Do I need be the one that followed paths. I see all of them but am not scitzophrenic is that bad?
Worse is a curse opened by God himself that endures me such pain. Does he like being the sinner. It's painful I too feel it but I may ask one final payment.. a gift. If you all give me your power I will end what you have lived wise already knowing.
You want to go home.. and I've lived forever .... And I think that's why it's now showing.
Dec 22, 2018
Dec 22, 2018 at 2:24 AM UTC
Scarecrow stands in wait
watching cross fields of florets.
"Beware birds of black,
begone and don't come back.
For I am mighty scarecrow.
Standing guard catching breeze in hat."
StrawJack , intoned to crow brat.
Straw man stands in wait,
taking job seriously in straw abode.
With pride loving his Mother Earth,
he dances with wind in mirth.
He's Friend to all who bloom
and bells that croon.
Spending company with
passing clouds and moon.
Dec 19, 2018
Dec 19, 2018 at 10:56 AM UTC
Why do they test me ?
Call me names ?
They know i used to **** my thumb and bully everyone,
But now I'm going to church and reading symphonys for fun..
Why am I still picked on.. can't I change my name... What else can I do to cut this reflection off my face..
It's hard to face ..
Who I now, can I ever be better or look better then my heart... How do I give love without them running away once they see my face fits a path of war..
Dec 18, 2018
Dec 18, 2018 at 6:50 AM UTC
The light cast me away,
Where I found solice in the dark,
Speaking to mother I try my hardest to reemain brighest as I start.
Learning both sides that fight like it's not right to be one,
But Dark and light give me shape in a sun.
Something to see and believe it to be
Not yet my child time is of God's grant upon how youve been seen,
Moon hints are all around me,
I'm in the devil's son's house and they found me,
But I'm still the best,
One and the only,
I protect the son because devils don't want to know me,
Angels and lighters follow oh so closely,
I'm preparing for what's come but yet to be exposed to me,
A block they all see yet I'm just .... I'm just...
Dec 17, 2018
Dec 17, 2018 at 3:51 PM UTC
Interesting reads today,
Although so transparent I feel it's better to be looked through,
then looked at so one sided.
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 9:21 PM UTC
It's a annoying to repeat and only obtain others resistance. I'm finding happiness yet they are against it. Selfish acts are always appearing and plans in secret I always pretend I'm not hearing. Irratable and violent I can't no longer be. But they keep trying to justify the way I believe. Why can't I be happy from saving everyone I know. What am I the bomb but everyone says don't blow.
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 3:42 PM UTC
How do I win a game I've never played and always known, .... when opponents are family who have never seen me play ..??
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 2:44 AM UTC
My weakness of silver is slivers of Raze that shine upon me hiding my Ray's of sunshine shaping shady subtle realities,
Extreme extroverts case introvert is escaping and rubbing off in energy ****** people's thoughts because at the ending off all simple relations of makeup dna there is a difference of compatibility even through similarities there is something not as big as me,
I'll change the way I'm veiwed in quick flick like thanos rub of my fingertips, a curse now lifts here is the fresh wind of chills winter till heater kicks...
Sinners and saints that does not longer remain in suspense ,
My phrophets Alighn and discuss while I vent,
I huddle there crowds when and while spies touch my system of circumstance,
I'm after if and it won't let me go,
Someone tell me I'm living a life I don't control,
I feel my face get number when I write what they already know like a headache between my ears that has the squint of my soul leaning in as my head Auto piolets and all of what comes unfolds,
My left ear prepares but Rose like Alexander till Bars work Mexican slander like a backstab of a Kane a Uncle owns with the skin of a salamander ,
I'l am the right way of thinking .
I respect the master, but not one of planet and awhat emerge after.
There isn't a plant I put since I was born that wasn't for the current me to breathe and be the words typed in my stone with prints that marks didn't wip with a gift or way of reminder that you idiots call lies to divide and print Syfy tricks ,
Simply put im the "Devine invent",
White light, dark light simple upbeat running up and down water flow between my spine tap tap window and expect new experience daily when I present,
I just need years to learn while I stay present and silent,
I want hugs food and times with no violence and learning of true human habits, I'm done with the child feel like all who have had , and only choose what now they shall get,
I thought you was supposed to loose your best friend but it was just my own personal death,
Now I ressurect and fullfil my quest,
Most the time I wish I didn't have to waste my time on worthless text and script of simple relations to love through intense massive introductions of wasted ***
Chomosone is simple same
But I can't explain the feeling between my hands when I think of the appearing image because I'm always to big to help describe your living in the intervention
What else can I help the angel see with white horse she riding that I am the Lion ago arriving here I reside in a file of timing simentaniousky lining and placement arrivial of testing his energetic genetic execution is brilliant .
Don't be upset by your versions and read scriptures you fear the fact your involved only gives you chance at front hand vision to emerge as they already decided between good and evil at end,
Rule the marble in a simple version,
Happy to hear your finally understanding the inside man.
I will only be a better me and keep my problems of evidence in written sublte substance,
I work with building only my name to sustain substance a wonderful and spread info of how can with all the at lived transform so massivley like this fast enough to gain such attention and substance. .. on and on ******** constant speaking words only trying to forgive and forget. If only this sad string of live could be finally lived.
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 1:45 AM UTC
They must be talking again,
Asking how to connect spiritually in a way everything isn't rocky,
Human consumption and group therapy is worth the memorable experience of how to use God as a gift that only is welcomed when the days of reflect on Devine historys memories is affective in ways to heal society but abuses the rest of the month to weild swords against unhumanistic boards, and realities. ideas that fail towards world's against humanity is a factual source to pull from like wiki,
He's been able to research the facts so let's remove it's mystical matched anomaly.
All is and I've mixed "reflection" and am not the other reflector as I become both as one in morps between equalizing the pressure
Now as a middle man to world's I'm learning and retrieving pictures from all to become the accepted moral support of everyone with the sacrifice of only being nothing I was born of
Or born from just light shining bright holding all dreams and escapes that fullfill the death and transformation of all plus others and add some..
Triangle on my head &
Handgun!
Dec 15, 2018
Dec 15, 2018 at 9:29 PM UTC