You came to live inside my house,
crossing the threshold that does not say 'Welcome'
You made your bed,
and now you will not wake up
"When will you leave?"
But you don't hear me,
and the sun has gone away.
Mar 18, 2023
Mar 18, 2023 at 3:56 PM UTC
How many times
can i write
the exact same thing
In so many words,
before
they mean nothing
at all
The underlying message,
always the same.
I’m losing
the war inside my mind.
Dec 17, 2020
Dec 17, 2020 at 10:31 PM UTC
I had never expected roses
or the tenderness
reserved for
lovers
But I never anticipated
rough hands
that pushed and pulled,
an unwanted pain
deep inside
my body
Hot water not hot enough
to scrub your touch
away
Bruises like hickeys,
i can feel you
pushing
inside
Your hot breath in my ear
asking if I liked it
A broken yes
sounds like a moan
but I’m crying
You think it’s from ecstasy
I’m shaking,
you go faster
thinking I’m having fun
You like it
being bigger than me
being stronger
I’m afraid
your bigger
your stronger
When it was over
you told me I was lucky
“Most girls don’t ****** when they first lose their virginity”
A shaky smile, on my mascara streaked face
skin crawling, my shaking legs
near collapse
Fear
The hot water is cold
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 12:06 AM UTC
This aching
inside
it eats me
Even when there
is nothing left
It eats away at the nothingness
until I am nothing
Oct 11, 2020
Oct 11, 2020 at 11:35 PM UTC
There are no words
to describe the way I can feel
so empty
so full
In this one body
It feels like
there is no limit to it all
No limbo
Only free space
for this hole inside of me
To grow
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 10:04 PM UTC
Making love, you don't
care about blood, it is sweet –
that I am your prey.
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 10:31 PM UTC
And by making an enemy of my body,
I found true peace
In destroying it.
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 7:50 PM UTC
To feel my heart shatter
in the very center of my chest,
pain so strong
I fall to my knees.
The void, he laughs in my face.
“no, just this once. let it stay,”
I begged.
Only a second, I felt nothing again.
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 7:49 PM UTC
My soul spoke volumes as it cried through my chest.
Nothing would be so pure,
so painful.
Nothing like hearing
the soul speak
after years of silence.
Hurt.
Screaming it begged,
to be set free,
“please, let me go.”
Aug 17, 2020
Aug 17, 2020 at 2:44 PM UTC
And to hear you scream
that I’m not the same
to my crumbling
face
Destroys me.
Jul 20, 2020
Jul 20, 2020 at 8:25 PM UTC