she accepted people’s bad behavior,
because she thought,
they went through difficult things.
yet, she invalidated her own feelings,
even if she knew what she went through.
Apr 20, 2021
Apr 20, 2021 at 8:46 AM UTC
call it what you will
i know i can create life
with just this thought
alone
Apr 20, 2021
Apr 20, 2021 at 8:46 AM UTC
You're not lost, just because you didn't trust today
I see you here, yet your thoughts are drifting away ...
You rake the leaves, with your bare hands,
You try to see, where your future stands.
You're not lost, just because you need a break,
I see you smile, while trying to hide your heartache
You collect the dirt, under your fingernails,
As you walk barefoot and cover your trails.
I still see you, underneath the falling leaves,
I hear your voice say "thank you" and "please"
I see your true smile, glowing in your eyes,
You're the only reason, my soul survives.
Oct 1, 2020
Oct 1, 2020 at 6:12 AM UTC
If a man needs you to believe a lie,
He will often say, "trust me."
If a man needs you to believe the truth,
He will speak it.
Oct 1, 2020
Oct 1, 2020 at 6:11 AM UTC
Putting up Big Walls?
Yes! A cage? Yes!
Big walls! A Cage!
I was living, for years.
I was too shy to face those eyes,
too afraid to be judge,
to be unseen,
to be unworthy.
I am Scared.
Scared to do mistakes,
Scared to face a lot of people,
Scared to watch those judgmental acts,
eyes,
voice,
So for years,
I just decided
to stay in my cage.
I am just scared of the world.
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:04 AM UTC
It was a lonely night,
Hearing those rain drops at the roof,
As i decided to scroll a facebook page,
"Maria"
Going to her older post,
Older post
Older post
Till I reach this letter of her,
Dear Z,
Here's the line.
I'm drawing this 'cause I badly need one:
To remind me that you'll never be mine,
'Cause I fear that loving someone so much will destroy me.
For me to always remember how you give your time to me but you're texting with her simultaneously.
To mark my words, that I will leave this place, this city where I met you; and
To remember how I pictured you on your wedding day with her,
You couldn't just be happier.
Chasing you,
Maria.
Never I know,
That was an old letter of her
to my boyfriend.
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 1:28 AM UTC
Dear diary. May 12 . Friday.
"Gettin' up was the first mistake I made today
Maybe if I'd stayed in bed I wouldn't hurt this way
For now I'll have to face the world admit that we're all through
And begin my first day without you."
I wake up today with dry tears and punch of eyebags.
Scrolling my phone. And here again, i received a text from him saying "im tired" i cant help but burst tears again. So i decided to off my social media's. And to be brave to blocked him to avoid bursting my tears again. Cause i know, you will never come back again and i cant do anything but to see you walking away.
Diary, now, i have to fixed my things. Cause ill be leaving far away today with a heavy heart.
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 1:24 AM UTC
You cut out my eyes.
You fed me with lies.
And now I can never see again.
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 11:13 PM UTC
I wish I were made of stone
So your words would never hurt me
I wish I were cold as ice
Then maybe I wouldn't be lonely
I wish I were made of steel
So my strength would never waver
If only I could turn back the clock
To a time when I felt safer
But I'm only flesh and bone
And your words have left me bleeding
My heart is torn apart
It's a wonder it's still beating
You made up your mind
Given me your final answer
What we shared is in the past
Time to write a brand new chapter
I will fix my broken heart
Some how piece it back together
It may never be the same
It'll bare this scar forever
But I'll be strong, I'll be alright
Though I'm not as hard as steel
And I can't turn back the clock
In time....my heart will heal
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 11:11 PM UTC