You call me a girl,
You call me a young woman,
You use she/her pronouns,
Hearing that, makes a little more of my soul die.
Oh you ask why?
It might because I'm a f***ing guy,
I may look like a girl but I'm not,
So quit being such a thot.
I am a male no matter what that paper says,
I came out to you and you throw me down,
You said I could trust you but you lied,
But I'm supposed to confide,
I come out as Trans and Pan,
But you refuse to call me a man,
I try to explain,
But all I can hear is you complain.
I'm getting the hair cut and the dye,
Maybe then you will see a guy,
Just in case I'm getting a binder,
Just so you can see the reminder.
I'm no longer your little girl,
Nor am I your daughter,
I am your Transgender son,
I am your little boy.
Jan 13, 2021
Jan 13, 2021 at 10:58 AM UTC
I wanna disappear,
I fear I'm not wanted here,
I feel the need to run and hide,
Those are the rules I abide,
My fears now set in stone,
I ended up alone,
I should have stayed hidden,
But I just had to play in the rain.
But hey who says thats a bad thing,
I'm now part of the single club!
Look at me now bub
You were right.
Oct 7, 2020
Oct 7, 2020 at 9:32 AM UTC
Who is this person I see in the mirror?
I can't identify their familiar face,
But I don't have her name,
She seems to stare into my soul.
She won't see much, it's really dark
I wish I could find out who she was,
But she is behind the mask.
Everyone seems to like her,
She is the loved one, the one everyone wants to be
Unlike me,
Who is this girl behind the mask?
I don't recognize her,
But yet she stares back to see my soul.
My dad seems to like her,
My boyfriend madly in love, head over heals
My family loves how she is,
But yet the don't see me.
She doesn't have scars, the big tummy
She is taller and so very cute,
Her smile is like the break of dawn in early spring,
But I no longer exist.
What do they like about her so much?
Oh yeah..
She is pretty, like a freshly bloomed water lily
She is cute an rather silly,
She is thin,
That makes all the boys grin!!
I don't exist,
Why does she stare back at me?
Why does she seem to mock me so?
Does anyone seem to know??
I guess not....
The girl in the mirror seems to have my face,
No wonder I'm a disgrace.....
They like her, not me
Austin wants to marry her!!
But bury me.
She is the girl everyone wants to see,
But all they get is me......
Aug 26, 2020
Aug 26, 2020 at 3:08 PM UTC
I don't recognize the people I see,
Everyone looks like a stranger to me,
I can't hear what they say, I can't read their lips
What do I do?
Normally I'd hide behind a mask, but at least you saw all of my face
I want to see your smiling faces,
To see the lil dimples in your cheeks, all your crooked an jagged teeth
But all I see is a mask,
Used to a mask was invisible, but now it is made of fabric
I don't like this, I feel like I can't breathe
Masks **** used to a mask signified sickness
It told others to stay away,
But now it says yeah come talk to me,
Why do we have to wear a mask?
What does it protect you from?
Oh thats right it's suppose to protect you from this virus,
But what if you have asthma? What are we to do?
We can't stay home all day, everyday
But we also can't breathe with the masks on,
Wearing with the masks don't do good, they mainly do bad
I used to know the people I saw in the halls, on the street
But now everyone looks like a stranger to me.
Aug 25, 2020
Aug 25, 2020 at 10:04 AM UTC
I know I've made you angry,
I can hear it in your tone,
I went to talk to you,
But you left me all alone,
I know I did bad, but trust me I'm trying
I don't like it when your mad,
Because it makes me sad,
I know hurting myself doesn't help,
But it's a way I cope,
I went to call you, but you called me a dope
I´m sorry it hurts you,
I´m sorry I messed up
I know you called me a f*ck up,
When you use those words it hurts,
Makes me wanna do it more,
Yes I´m behind the door,
I understand you hate me,
That is why I´m bleeding,
I know I will never be able to make you proud,
But that's no longer a worry,
No longer a problem,
Because its all over now......
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 11:44 AM UTC
The space within seems endless,
You just seem to be drifting, gliding, floating
Hell one might say your flying, sliding, riding your eternal waves,
The space within feels like an empty gorge,
Like the grand canyon can't be filled,
The space within can be dark but most are bright,
Those people shut out their light,
Our rainbows are hidden by the rain,
But no one says that's humane,
The space within is like a galaxy,
Endless and beautiful,
The dark empty chasm in your heart,
Will be filled with sunshine, even in your darkest hour
Because even the space within becomes lonely, secretly wanting a friend
You hear your heart beat, Thump, Thump, Thump
The space within grows forever darker, your light fading out
The thumping of your heart grows forever louder,
The space within now seems to be filled now,
Is that a light shining?
The space within seems to be brighter now...
Look at that, your glowing bright
I'm glad you could embrace your light,
The space within is brighter now!
Jan 15, 2020
Jan 15, 2020 at 9:06 AM UTC
Rain falls in the dark night,
The person she seeks falls out of sight,
Her heart aches and moans for more,
But she hears it's not what she looks for,
She acts out but still...
Nothing,
She wonders if he will ever do...
Something,
She yells and screams while kicking a lot,
Hoping she won't get shot!
She wonders if he will ever punish her,
But it seems like he never will,
She hopes for spankies...
or just a little spat,
And yet she receives nothing,
So she hides that side of her away...
So that he'll stay!
Nov 23, 2019
Nov 23, 2019 at 4:50 PM UTC
It doesn't matter how you feel on the inside,
You are always told that your worthless, a **** up,
You are told to give up.
No one ever wants to listen to your pain,
They always push you away,
They make you feel like you have worth, then turn around and your worthless,
Just give up....
If you just hide you will be fine,
No one will ever hear you wine,
You thought they cared,
You were wrong,
All they say is...
Just give up, your a worthless c*nt
Why does life have to be this way?
What happen to the people who swore they'd stay?
They gave up on you.....
They told you that NO one cared,
They want you to shoot up, throw up
Man just give up.
Give up on your dreams they say, give up on life
Who the hell cares that he banged your wife,
No one will love you the way she did,
But man just give up.
You think on that thought,
It flies through your mind,
But then you stand up and cry.
You say to your family that this is "Goodbye"
Then you grab that knife...
But before you end it you think again,
That thought you just had made you grin,
You think of your friends and then your family,
You cry some more then drag the blade,
But you forget that it was homemade ,
You try again and again but nothing works.
Your heart hurts an all you hear is " give up"
But you wipe your face,
Then go downstairs,
You see your family sitting their,
They look at you with bright smiles!
Hunny why won't you stay for a while?
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 4:11 PM UTC
You don't see me,
I'm in the dark,
I'm in the darkest part of your mind,
You try to run an hide,
I'm like a blood hound,
I pray on the weak,
Help is the one thing that you seek,
I trick you into thinking your alone,
DON'T YOU DARE PICK UP YOUR PHONE,
YOU are a prisoner to my games,
I'm sooo glad you feel this way!
Oct 30, 2019
Oct 30, 2019 at 11:36 AM UTC
My heart breaks more an more each an everyday,
I always have you on my mind,
I try to keep my head held high,
But all I can say is goodbye....
My heart aches when I hear your name,
When someone mentions you all I can do is cry,
I need you more an more as the weeks pass,
I miss you more than words can say,
You were my best friend an now your gone,
I know i have to be strong,
I'm not the strong one anymore,
I have broken, shattered
I know you want my head held high but I just can't move,
My heart has broken into a million pieces,
I don't know what to do,
I try to stay strong but I'm weak,
You would tell me to stay strong,
You would tell me I could do it,
But I can't I'm done trying,
I'm done with all this pain,
I'm done with not being heard,
My pain cries out every night,
My pain grows stronger with each sunrise and sunset,
My pain hurts everyone around me,
I'm sorry I'm no longer strong, I'm sorry I can't be your hero
I'm just a no good zero,
I have hoped for the pain to go away,
I have prayed for this to disappear,
But that isn't what you hear,
I'm sorry that this is goodbye,
I just can't deal with everyone else's pain
Oct 28, 2019
Oct 28, 2019 at 11:18 AM UTC