You call me a girl,
You call me a young woman,
You use she/her pronouns,
Hearing that, makes a little more of my soul die.
Oh you ask why?
It might because I'm a f***ing guy,
I may look like a girl but I'm not,
So quit being such a thot.
I am a male no matter what that paper says,
I came out to you and you throw me down,
You said I could trust you but you lied,
But I'm supposed to confide,
I come out as Trans and Pan,
But you refuse to call me a man,
I try to explain,
But all I can hear is you complain.
I'm getting the hair cut and the dye,
Maybe then you will see a guy,
Just in case I'm getting a binder,
Just so you can see the reminder.
I'm no longer your little girl,
Nor am I your daughter,
I am your Transgender son,
I am your little boy.
Jan 13, 2021
Jan 13, 2021 at 10:58 AM UTC
I wanna disappear,
I fear I'm not wanted here,
I feel the need to run and hide,
Those are the rules I abide,
My fears now set in stone,
I ended up alone,
I should have stayed hidden,
But I just had to play in the rain.
But hey who says thats a bad thing,
I'm now part of the single club!
Look at me now bub
You were right.
Oct 7, 2020
Oct 7, 2020 at 9:32 AM UTC
Who is this person I see in the mirror?
I can't identify their familiar face,
But I don't have her name,
She seems to stare into my soul.
She won't see much, it's really dark
I wish I could find out who she was,
But she is behind the mask.
Everyone seems to like her,
She is the loved one, the one everyone wants to be
Unlike me,
Who is this girl behind the mask?
I don't recognize her,
But yet she stares back to see my soul.
My dad seems to like her,
My boyfriend madly in love, head over heals
My family loves how she is,
But yet the don't see me.
She doesn't have scars, the big tummy
She is taller and so very cute,
Her smile is like the break of dawn in early spring,
But I no longer exist.
What do they like about her so much?
Oh yeah..
She is pretty, like a freshly bloomed water lily
She is cute an rather silly,
She is thin,
That makes all the boys grin!!
I don't exist,
Why does she stare back at me?
Why does she seem to mock me so?
Does anyone seem to know??
I guess not....
The girl in the mirror seems to have my face,
No wonder I'm a disgrace.....
They like her, not me
Austin wants to marry her!!
But bury me.
She is the girl everyone wants to see,
But all they get is me......
Aug 26, 2020
Aug 26, 2020 at 3:08 PM UTC
I don't recognize the people I see,
Everyone looks like a stranger to me,
I can't hear what they say, I can't read their lips
What do I do?
Normally I'd hide behind a mask, but at least you saw all of my face
I want to see your smiling faces,
To see the lil dimples in your cheeks, all your crooked an jagged teeth
But all I see is a mask,
Used to a mask was invisible, but now it is made of fabric
I don't like this, I feel like I can't breathe
Masks **** used to a mask signified sickness
It told others to stay away,
But now it says yeah come talk to me,
Why do we have to wear a mask?
What does it protect you from?
Oh thats right it's suppose to protect you from this virus,
But what if you have asthma? What are we to do?
We can't stay home all day, everyday
But we also can't breathe with the masks on,
Wearing with the masks don't do good, they mainly do bad
I used to know the people I saw in the halls, on the street
But now everyone looks like a stranger to me.
Aug 25, 2020
Aug 25, 2020 at 10:04 AM UTC
another day
I swallow my tears
all I want to do is scream
set me free
what must I do
to erase all my mistakes
I don't want to remember all my regrets
what must I do
I want to start over
every time I lie
I can feel the truth behind me
Jul 28, 2020
Jul 28, 2020 at 8:58 PM UTC
you are beautiful
you're insane
you are the most broken person I've met
a hurricane
a violent rain
I'm cursed to stay by your side
all the bad in my life
starts inside you
you're a disaster
chaotic
painful
two faced
liar
I can never trust you
you play mind games
I believed I loved you
now it feels fake
the knives you carry on your back
are yours
I made a mistake
I stepped into your life
now trapped inside your reflection
I've become your shadow
you're horrific
a piece of art
from a distance
I can admire you
you are
you are
you are
all
Feb 28, 2020
Feb 28, 2020 at 11:56 AM UTC
I know I've made you angry,
I can hear it in your tone,
I went to talk to you,
But you left me all alone,
I know I did bad, but trust me I'm trying
I don't like it when your mad,
Because it makes me sad,
I know hurting myself doesn't help,
But it's a way I cope,
I went to call you, but you called me a dope
I´m sorry it hurts you,
I´m sorry I messed up
I know you called me a f*ck up,
When you use those words it hurts,
Makes me wanna do it more,
Yes I´m behind the door,
I understand you hate me,
That is why I´m bleeding,
I know I will never be able to make you proud,
But that's no longer a worry,
No longer a problem,
Because its all over now......
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 11:44 AM UTC
maybe I'm your worst friend
maybe
I don't deserve you
I forgot your birthday
don't know your mom's name
haven't seen you in ages
we talk in simple sentences
I know
I'm your worst friend
if you leave
I deserved it
you're too nice
I'd never take advantage
maybe I hold on because you're all I have
you're my best friend
you deserve better
Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 11:25 AM UTC