I looked at you as though you were my everything
As if you were the oxygen i had been deprived of while drowning
The person i would stand by even when the world around us was burning
I would happily watch you soar across the sky and oceans flying
But when you looked at me
Talked to me
You saw her
The girl who clearly wasn't me
Prettier, cuter, better
Everything i wish i was but failed to be
And when we're together
I can feel you thinking if only things worked out with her
And i don't blame you when she's the ultimate daydream
I will never be enough for you it would seem
You would've been better off without me
And though it would fracture my heart into jagged shards of glass
Seeing you happier makes it worth it
Even when it's me i hope you look for in every room the way you look for her
I'm a shadow compared to the angel she is
Anyone would choose the sunlight of heaven over the darkness of the night sky
Oh what i wouldn't give for that to be a lie
21h ago
Jun 5, 2026 at 10:37 AM UTC
It's midnight, and i'm looking at the stars
Next to the fading remnants of you
Thinking of you, and hoping that maybe you'd think of me too
The stars glitter like the rhinestones on that dress you loved to wear
The crescent moon shines like molten silver, like that pendant you never left home without
The wind breezes through the trees, reminding me of how it used to blow through your hair and leave it even messier than it was before
As i lie on the grassy meadows, i remember how you and i danced under the velvety sunset together
Promising that we'd still stay together until the end
It was all a lie, a fantasy i let myself indulge in, the ecstasy bursting like fireworks in my once empty and forlorn world
I let myself believe that I could see our perfect future
Where are you now?
Watching me from above?
I imagine you, gazing on helpless as i slowly decay
Being so close to you physically, but a lifetime apart
Wishing that someday I wouldn't have to suffer by being so far away
Because only you can heal my heart
However, now the sparks have fizzled out and bled
Leaving me to rest upon the stone with your name entombed
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 10:02 AM UTC
Take me back
take me back to when i didn't know you
to a time when i was fragile, but not broken
crying but not slowly withering away
when my tears weren't enough to drown me
when my heart didn't feel as hollow
when my dreams couldn't trap me
when roses didn't remind me of blood and betrayal
when i was immune to all the memories
when every single song couldn't convince me that we were oh so obviously meant to be
when dying didn't feel as easy
but now look at what i've been reduced to
a phantom in the wind
hoping for the one thing i wished would never happen
the fact that i loved you
feels like poison
paralyzing me and leaving me with nothing but an echo of what could've been
Apr 16
Apr 16, 2026 at 9:52 AM UTC
I still remember that day
yes, that day
with the sun painting streaks of golden into the sky
with the trees rustling, leaves gliding and flowers blooming
but nothing failed to captivate me more than you
eyes sparkling rainbow like a kaleidoscope, hair messed up and laughing wildly
i can't forget that laugh
oh how i wish i could
it haunts me more than i would ever care to admit
especially moments like these
on a day just like that day
where i'm not the person you're laughing at right now
i would give anything to still be the person you laugh with like that
but now any spark of a future we could've had is too far gone to be reignited
and i'm left alone, revisiting my memories of us together
foolish
for thinking that i believed that you could've been mine forever
Apr 15
Apr 15, 2026 at 9:41 AM UTC
I miss you like the sun and the moon miss each other
separated eternally
never to touch
save for a solar eclipse
even then
how can i bear to be without you beside me?
the night - the obstacle course through which our love must be proven
will i be able to face it, without knowing if you would face it for me?
maybe we weren't meant to be
but would the stars have aligned themselves so if that were the case?
fate, chance, luck
you and i meeting
like two galaxies colliding
a new constellation bejeweled
you entrancing me into not being able to escape your orbit
even when the entire heavens seem to forbid it
will you shine your rays onto me?
distill every drop of light for me?
insignificant as i might be
slowly burning away
barely able to see you anymore
fading from memory
reduced to nothing but blistering radiations
if what i meant to you was true
remember me
and know that no matter what, i would die for you
all over
until one day we'd finally be able to feel again
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 11:16 AM UTC
You asked me what my favorite color was
and i looked into your eyes
blue as the Antarctic
deep as the Pacific
just as cold and sharp as icicles
just like the hypothermia freezing me into place
just like a hailstorm destroying an innocent plant
and i continue to stare
stare at the swirling currents dragging me further
at the bottomless void of aquamarine coming closer every minute
and i dream that it has me within its embrace
gently caressing me into sleep
the kind of sleep that never ends
reminiscent to the agony you put me under
gravitating me closer
strangling me tighter
swallowed by the surging waves of the winter ocean
my last breath fading like a memory that never began
as you watch me slowly, golden in the sun
while i sink once and for all
never to return
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 11:15 AM UTC
You were the sun in my world
Your light in which i glowed
But i never imagined that you would ever set
bright blue skies now murky and bleak, shrouded with fog and mist
when was the last time we kissed?
lightning, hurricanes and thunder
when was the last the last time we held each other?
unrelenting snow and ice
was everything we once had enough of a price?
now without you it's forever going to be night
maybe in another universe, you were right
I'm better off without you
But i never realized that when you leave
you would take all your warmth and go
leaving me on the other side all alone
shivering
and twice as cold
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 11:14 AM UTC