if life is a highway,
miles of straight road
then do yourself a favor
and take a wrong turn
go down winding country roads,
not knowing where each next turn
will take you down
what adventures lies at every bend
so go forth, not knowing where to go
drive through cities you'll never see again
see ocean waves lapping in the middle of the town
walk down streets stained with torrent rain
lose yourself in the hearts of lovers
find yourself in the minds of strangers
make dumb mistakes, and make them again
move out just to find yourself back where you started
be vulnerable to people you've just met
tell stories to people you don't know
write novels that will never be read
live through experiences only you will ever know
if death is permanent
then life's beauty must
be found in fleeting moments
not endless permanence
you'll forget the miles of road
on highways you've seen a thousand times
but you'll never forget
the wrong turn you took once
May 17, 2021
May 17, 2021 at 12:33 PM UTC
some nights, when the air is cool
i think of grabbing my keys and a jacket
running to the car and hopping behind the wheel
turn the ignition and drive out west
drive through open roads and rice paddies
streetlights flashing through the windowpanes
wind whistling, whispering sweet nothings
no radio, just the engine and the road
end up in a place to start anew
a city where no one knows my name
where i can walk out my door
and become anyone i want to be
spend my days reading everything and nothing
fall in love with strangers i see across the bar
walk down romantic streets on my own
create a new life far from my past lives
out west, i'd disappear into the crowd
like wisps of cigarette smoke
lingering in the air for a second
before vanishing forever
May 14, 2021
May 14, 2021 at 1:52 PM UTC
some days i feel invisible
unseen, unconcerned, unpresent
as if i'd be gone tomorrow
merely a shadow of a memory
and no one would be any wiser
there are days where i turn off my phone
for a few hours, telling myself i'm looking for peace of mind
telling myself i'm looking to be by myself
but all i think about is what messages
will find me when i turn my phone back on
to no one's surprise
there rarely are any messages
there rarely are any questions
any 'where'd you go?'
any 'i miss you'
i think i already am invisible
but a good kind of invisible
invisibility that isn't there because no one cares
but because everyone thinks i'm alright
everyone thinks i'm doing okay
some days, i wish i wasn't that good kind of invisible
May 12, 2021
May 12, 2021 at 1:39 PM UTC
i told you when we last met
that i'd be there
a face among the crowd
a stranger at your favorite concert
that i'd be cheering you on
in silence, in solitude
no loud screams, no big scenes
just a reassuring pair of eyes across the room
i know your nervous tics
i know your secret fears
and i'd be there watching every night
as you conquered them all
and if we were lucky
maybe we'd get a chance to catch up
talk about your dreams again
before the road took you away again
i know you're just one call away
but now that you've moved
i gotta move on
and i'll see you
when all the music dies down
May 11, 2021
May 11, 2021 at 4:29 PM UTC
if you're awake
and you're looking up at the night blue
i hope you'll find the peace
i'm looking for too
im talking to thin air
hoping the winds catch my words
saying "i'll see you tomorrow"
when we both know that's not true
maybe one day
far from now
we'll wind up at the coffeeshop
down the street
we'll trade mundane stories
you'll show me a scar
you got from scraping
your hand on the cutting board
i'll tell you about
my accident
when my sister's fish
accidentally died of the cold
over the buzz of the grinder
the warmth of the cup
the bustle of the street outside
our fingers barely touching
one day soon
we'll make it through
May 11, 2021
May 11, 2021 at 4:16 PM UTC