I don't think I deserve happiness , just pain and anguish .
Jul 8, 2020
Jul 8, 2020 at 6:43 PM UTC
I can't wait to get home
To get back to you
You the source of my joy
I can't wait to get home
To fully embrace you
You with your skin so smooth
I can't wait to get home
To kiss you
You with your lips so lush
I can't wait to get home
To make love to you
With your chest so full
Sep 2, 2019
Sep 2, 2019 at 1:28 PM UTC
What a year what a year
Another day another tear
Nothing seems to be clear
All I know is fear
Fear of what others think of me
Fear of what I will be
Fear of what others see
My heart free of glee
May 26, 2019
May 26, 2019 at 4:22 PM UTC
My chi be telling me there will be better days
I sit down wondering if I will see another day
Do I even deserve another day?
Imagine getting ***** and clamoring for your rapists approval
Why don’t I just blow my head off like Hemingway?
Then see the old man at the end of the tunnel
I wonder what he would say
Probably tell me how I wasted all my talents
Maybe remind me of how I was a disgrace to my parents
Probably get Dante to lead me to inferno
Or would I finally find peace
My chi comes back and screams as I swallow the pill
May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 12:56 PM UTC
Run down the stairs of despair
A fast descent
Nothing has ever been clearer
My will and hope bent
Death the final chapter
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 6:30 PM UTC
Once an addict always an addict
Addicted to the pain
Tearing my skin
Watch me deflect emotions
Ignore my feelings
Neglect those I love
Burn my soul on the stove
Where is that pin
Watch me stab it in
Screaming, crying, laughing
Smiling and dying
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 6:25 PM UTC