I moved far away
To try and better myself
But what is the point?
Oct 1, 2016
Oct 1, 2016 at 9:29 PM UTC
My choices
My life
I put them before you
Before your life!
You aren't here
I ended your life
Before it had even begun
I'm sorry
The only words I have
Sad
Regret
You're my child
You always will be
Even though you
Will never be born
I love you my child
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016 at 3:31 PM UTC
I'm learning
learning to be free
learning to love myself
learning to live
I'm living
living my life
living without you
living with love
I'm loving
loving my life
loving myself
loving you
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 6:50 AM UTC
How can I live here?
One day I will escape
Maybe today or tomorrow
Every experience matters
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 6:35 AM UTC
I was never able to accept
The position was was in
At eighteen I am stupid
I left myself vulnerable.
In under 4 months
You were gone
The hardest decision I made
A choice, a life
The trust of my friends
broken
The secret out.
I was stupid.
I took a pill,
it was over,
But my pain
My regret
You will always be
on my mind
in my heart
on my conscience
You are a reminder
of my power
my choices
my mistakes.
I have to accept
You were me
I was you
A life never lived.
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 6:14 AM UTC
My father's love
Is like a
guiding star
That shines brighter
Through my
darkest hours
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 4:06 PM UTC
Find me a window,
Find me a door,
Find me a corner
To hide in
I need to escape
This unfortunate life
My house, a building
Not a home
My sister's are my rock
Parents.
Well what can I say?
ENEMIES
What is a family,
When there's no love?
It's emotional
It's my stability,
Well maybe not.
When can I escape?
Without any money
I can only hide
Hidings what I'm good at.
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 3:13 PM UTC
Who can I really trust?
Well I thought it was you but
No
Just like her
you tell the my story
My secrets
My feelings
Manipulative
Two-faced
It's a shame you hold the title
Father
Twisting every single word
I spill my heart out
She knows
What I tell you in confidence
I'm unaware if it's
You or her that stirs
this hatred so much
Mother and father
Divorced but will always be
Partners when it comes the the
Spilling of My secrets
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015 at 4:21 PM UTC
This tear stained pillow
Means nothing
The heartache and misery
Mean nothing
You build me up
You break me down
You tear our family apart
What is this?
A dream?
NO
This is the reality
I feel nothing inside
My head hurts
My heart breaks
I feel nothing anymore
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 7:06 PM UTC
Any assistance for me,
The mild, meek, ugly me?
When will I be...
What I see...
In all those magazines.
A guy like you,
A girl like me...
Naa never going to be
I know what you want.
You want the "perfect" girl,
With the perfect smile.
A girl, skinny and tall
What am I?
All I see is rolls of fat
A short, ugly waste
Have your princess
The girl you want
Please just leave me be, in peace
Without assistance, you or us
You had your choice of me and her
The perfect or just me
Plain old boring me
Apr 29, 2015
Apr 29, 2015 at 9:58 AM UTC