It creeps inside me
All day, all night
I crawl up close to my bedside
He’s all that I see
Face pale, soul fright
I do fear now this time he died
I just want to be
His guide, true sight
I’m Death, though I can give him life
Walking beside me
In death, no sight
Upon my faithful steed, We ride
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 12:15 PM UTC
My legs are shaking
I’m overflowing with tears
Please take me home
My body filling with fears
I wake from nightmares
Shattered memories, past years
I lay silently beside him
His body presses near
Suddenly I’m breathless
My whole body switches gears
My heart drops pace
My eyes now dry and clear
The panic subsides
The moment I know he’s right here…
Feb 27
Feb 27, 2026 at 8:14 PM UTC
It hurts the most
when you try to speak
And they don’t want to hear you out
They focus too much
on the words you say
And don’t even really listen
There’s no compassion
A hostile reaction
A personal attack on their ego
It’s hard to speak
authentically
When words are met with anger
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 8:00 PM UTC
Neuroticism at an all-time high
Stuck here dreaming about days gone by
I wallow and wonder what if I’m all wrong?
Seeing you is like hearing my favourite song
I once spoke to you
through the universe
Sang my heart out
screaming every verse
Not that I can sing
but I hoped you’d hear
My soul aching
to finally have you here
It took so much grieving
Ultimate heartbreak
Cutting you off
was my biggest mistake
I’m tired of running
Of trying to hide
I cannot deny
what I feel inside
I could be all wrong
but it feels so right
For weeks I’ve been
staying up all night
I’m drowning in regret
For leaving you
At this point
Not sure what I should do
Careful words,
trying to be cautious
Breaking hearts
Just makes me nauseous
I’ve never love’d the way I do
Whenever I am with you
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 6:12 PM UTC
It was all fake love and despair.
Self loathing and lies
shared between one another.
Nothing worth holding on to.
Physically they were there.
Just not for you, it would never be forever.
They didn’t even care about you.
They would have settled for another.
But you were easy prey, a simple tool.
They held on to you tightly.
Their intentions were never pure.
What they did was made you a fool.
They led you on with what might be.
They wanted drugs not your company.
Feb 24, 2021
Feb 24, 2021 at 10:56 PM UTC
Picking at my scabs until the blood begins to pour
All these things I tell myself to keep from picking more
But I can't even stop my chronic compulsions
To tear apart all my horrific revulsion's
I'm sick of being the one that's always gotta stay strong
Weary and tired of hiding the truth of what's going on
Inside my brain
Inside my mind
I am not one of your kind
Nothing I say will express my inner workings
There's no sentences, paragraphs or eloquent clever wording
Not a word to explain the things I want to say
Yet I'm thinking endlessly of it every ******* day
Go **** yourself you filthy *****
You think I only want your ****
I've got deeper things to bide my empty wasted time
Then always ******* and ******* at the drop of a dime
You'll never know the reasons why I cry alone
Or that I cry at all when I'm alone at home
Because I know you'll never really give a ****
But that just seems to be my bad luck
Aug 16, 2018
Aug 16, 2018 at 6:23 PM UTC
Everyday I want to die,
but here I am staying alive...
And why?
Why not just die?
Give up on everything I know?
Forget about all the things I have to show?
All for one selfish wish I have,
to end my life,
to erase my past?
I'm not alive 'cause I want to be alive,
I keep breathing, you keep me here.
Just because I love you,
because you love me,
You made me love me.
But you don't want me.
Aug 16, 2018
Aug 16, 2018 at 6:22 PM UTC
I'm just trying to figure this life out
not sure what I'm hiding from
just know I'm scared to show
my heart
sometimes..
I lay in bed staring at the walls
constantly daydreaming
I don't know what to believe in
life has no meaning
I didn't want to fall this far
even though I keep climbing
my hands are getting weak
from all the stress…
I don't know how long I've got left
barely holding on
but his smile keeps my
lonely heart beating
th-thud,
th-thud,
th-thud,
like a beating drum.
I look over into his hazel eyes
and my worry just dies
I take another deep breath
and exhale slow
and soft
Something in this moment
showing me the way I need to go
I can't lose hope.
Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 9:16 PM UTC
Honey,
I'm too vulnerable.
I don't even know who I am today,
or who I was yesterday.
Even if I tried to,
I'm far from ready
to let anyone get close to me.
If I were to let somebody in,
I know I wouldn't treat them right.
I can barely treat myself right most days.
Let me learn how to be
the best of me
before you start thinking
about interfering.
None of you really had a chance anyways...
I'm not worth your time,
unless you need a friend.
I'm still dead.
Mar 17, 2018
Mar 17, 2018 at 11:09 AM UTC
Teach me how to focus
My mind is always spun
I try so hard to listen
I've forgotten what I've done
I never change
I'm always changing
I don't know who I am
Inside this shell of something fleshy
Just morphing once again
One day I'll be a butterfly
Or so I say to me
Perhaps I won't
Just wait and see
Consistent I shall be
But until then
I'm just a mess
No way to concentrate
Just on my way
Pay no mind
One day I will break free
Mar 6, 2018
Mar 6, 2018 at 12:39 AM UTC