Tiny tiny toes I let go
How could I survive be alone.
A walking pacemakers what I am swinging my arms as my head ticks and forgetting where I am.
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 12:23 AM UTC
I don't see a future reality.
Why are you looking at me.
Hold me in the dark,
but shelter me as you scar my heart.
Ask me who you are to me I'll tell you what you'll only be
You don't feel the same to me.
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 12:18 AM UTC
Late to run late to hide late to hold my own.
Late to turn back change my mind and leave it all behind.
I done you wrong like so many else said sorry said goodbye can't rewind.
Birdies flutter on the ceiling before you fly to the sky.
I just wanna find my way
You clever with he words you say
But if I go out I'll go out too far, way to far i'll lose my grip as I find the thr pain suffocating myself.
Lose the fight that's left.
Will the bitter be more than sweet if I use only my two feet to heal myself from this grip you have on me.
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 12:08 AM UTC
Little broken girl jumped in too deep
didn't test the water with her toes now pain as she walks on her own feet but it must be me how can this be look at you so broken you like this makes me weak
The hear you say you just want the pain to be over maybe evenly to end
I did this, not you?
We?
What's wrong!?
Drowning and drowning each day as everything persists.
Please I'll do anything to make this better just tell me what it is?
Maybe I'm crazy I hate my mind lemme leave you and this world behind
I'll cause no more pain or feel it in return don't keep me in a box nor a urn.
I wanna be in the stars *** these days they are the only thing that makes me forget
But these snow clouds snow so hard I only see a white abis
So take me away on the clouds..that abis that looks as if it's light.
Slam my head a little harder so I don't have to use the knife.
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 10:44 AM UTC
Soft gentle touch
Kind and ready heart
Eyes that only speak kindness
Firm unyielding grip
Crude and hurtful words
Eyes that prey after the ignorance of the witty
Time and time again
Effort only to be destroyed by temptation and the release of bokedness from her past only to make the future worsen.
Better of alone she says. Better off free.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 10:34 AM UTC
This period of time which hasn’t consisted of a lot
A few kisses and visits along with the forget me nots.
Just one month can explain what all may happen in a year
Even tho it wasn’t perfect ”I still love you..” is all I want to hear
You almost left me once and that was just after a couple of weeks don’t let me down now I will surely grow so very much weak.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 10:33 AM UTC
Downing in her tears
That monster makes them come alive the nightmares become fears.
One day it won’t be enough you’ll say sorry baby I am not happy any more it’s not enough and I’ll let you go because I love you that much
This life would become hell just existing would then be too much. I hate this routine and the distance even more but living these tough days make me realize there’s no other person I’d do it for.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 10:33 AM UTC
Constant fear is who I am
Fear of losing you
Fear of betrayal
Fear of you leaving me lonlier than that of which I already am
Who am is hurt
Hurt when you go out and experience the things I don’t get to
Hurt when you leave me to go away for college
Hurt when reminders tell me how horrible I once was
Hurt when I’m laying in bed alone at night wishing I didn’t exist.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 10:32 AM UTC
I wish I had a compass that led me straight to you
It’d always tell me where you were that way when my heart gets heavy I’d make my way through
You are my survival the only thing I need led to
my beat when my heart stops pumping
You make me brand new
I’ll always need you forever
You are the only one I love
so hopelessly endlessly infactuated I’ll never get enough
Call me crazy call me needy call me lame
because you make me feel that way
but I’m a servant for love at your feet
I live to hear you say my name
It doesn’t matter the day
where I’m at or where you are
Id run to you in a heart beat no matter how far
you’re all I need and want
without Id be so lost so handsome you best believe me I am certain you are the one.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 10:19 AM UTC
Us on a beach as you brush the sand of my feet you're so good me.
This must me a dream because I've wished for a moment like this all my life.
A perfect man beyond handsome beyond sweet and me as his loving wife.
This, you, us, more than I could have ever asked for I'd move heaven and earth to make you happy its you I only adore.
What a ride this has been one I will never get off of, you my dear are an inexpiable stellar love.
Mar 14, 2018
Mar 14, 2018 at 8:26 PM UTC