Alex_UwU - Hello Poetry

I feel stupid Am I even human Just want to go to bed Sometimes I wish I was dead I think of all the ways I can die Maybe it would help if I can just cry But these tears are trapped So I just have to adapt Because im too scared to commit the crime Shouldn’t I just end it when Im in my prime I want to but I just can’t I try to hype my self up and chant “It will all be better once you leave” The only goal I set in life, and that I can’t even achieve Why can’t I do it I am done with all this **** Society takes ahold of everyone's mind And makes them all blind Am I the only one that can see See how none of us are actually free Everyone lives peacefully in all the lies If I didn’t have eyes Maybe I would be happy But the cards I was dealt with was ****** None of these standards do any good Makes people want to get rid Get rid of everything And you have to wonder why teenagers are always upset and cling Its because they are trying to stay strong Some of them don’t know if they are going to last long We fight on Wondering if we want to see another dawn I’m sorry, but I don’t want to Maybe if you knew Knew how bad it was And why I always need gauze You would help ….oh….sorry…..your busy…. Goodbye….

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Sep 25, 2020

Sep 25, 2020 at 12:27 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

Jambalaya

I feel stupid Am I even human Just want to go to bed Sometimes I wish I was dead I think of all the ways I can die Maybe it would help if I can just cry But these tears are trapped So I just have to adapt Because im too scared to commit the crime Shouldn’t I just end it when Im in my prime I want to but I just can’t I try to hype my self up and chant “It will all be better once you leave” The only goal I set in life, and that I can’t even achieve Why can’t I do it I am done with all this **** Society takes ahold of everyone's mind And makes them all blind Am I the only one that can see See how none of us are actually free Everyone lives peacefully in all the lies If I didn’t have eyes Maybe I would be happy But the cards I was dealt with was ****** None of these standards do any good Makes people want to get rid Get rid of everything And you have to wonder why teenagers are always upset and cling Its because they are trying to stay strong Some of them don’t know if they are going to last long We fight on Wondering if we want to see another dawn I’m sorry, but I don’t want to Maybe if you knew Knew how bad it was And why I always need gauze You would help ….oh….sorry…..your busy…. Goodbye….

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Love is a fuzzy feeling, it makes you happy And it's all sappy Love makes you feel whole And closes the hole The hole gets filled easily So everyone goes on peacefully There are many kinds of love And all of them will keep you above Above the crashing waves of loneliness and despair Does anyone have any love to spare? I gave all mine away And couldn’t help but pray Hoping someone will return my feelings I thought they would, because they are human beings But everyone rejected me “Just count to three You will be okay” I couldn’t help but say I held onto the last of my love I shove It goes deeper and deeper I repeat in my head that this is a keeper I prepare to keep it with me forever I thought I was being clever That way I would never get hurt again And I became wary of men Then I met her And in a blur It started to rise I tried to tell myself lies So I wouldn't be able to feel But I ended up falling head over heal I realized that I really did love her So I gave up my control and let my feelings stir I became her friend And my heart started to mend I kept my distance for I knew she didn’t feel the same But then I thought she liked me too, what a shame Turns out she likes someone else My heart melts I saw all the signs But turns out they were different kinds Now I feel stupid I would never get the attention of cupid She deserves better I would never be able to get her All I can do now And I vow I will keep her happy Even if I feel ****** I will help her succeed And stay freed So she can find someone who is enough And makes her feel loved

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Sep 25, 2020

Sep 25, 2020 at 12:26 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

Love

Love is a fuzzy feeling, it makes you happy And it's all sappy Love makes you feel whole And closes the hole The hole gets filled easily So everyone goes on peacefully There are many kinds of love And all of them will keep you above Above the crashing waves of loneliness and despair Does anyone have any love to spare? I gave all mine away And couldn’t help but pray Hoping someone will return my feelings I thought they would, because they are human beings But everyone rejected me “Just count to three You will be okay” I couldn’t help but say I held onto the last of my love I shove It goes deeper and deeper I repeat in my head that this is a keeper I prepare to keep it with me forever I thought I was being clever That way I would never get hurt again And I became wary of men Then I met her And in a blur It started to rise I tried to tell myself lies So I wouldn't be able to feel But I ended up falling head over heal I realized that I really did love her So I gave up my control and let my feelings stir I became her friend And my heart started to mend I kept my distance for I knew she didn’t feel the same But then I thought she liked me too, what a shame Turns out she likes someone else My heart melts I saw all the signs But turns out they were different kinds Now I feel stupid I would never get the attention of cupid She deserves better I would never be able to get her All I can do now And I vow I will keep her happy Even if I feel ****** I will help her succeed And stay freed So she can find someone who is enough And makes her feel loved

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As I look back I see how everything was toxic I guess I have always known And while we are on the topic I gotta ask, are you still on your throne Your throne made of lies Your throne covered in deception So go ahead and take off your disguise And lay down your weapon ….oh wait I should cut it out For it wasn’t objects that put me in this state You used people and all you had to give was a little pout Your army didn’t have guns But they had power So every shuns And bullies me to where I want to cower The hits and words How sharp their tongues were They fought in herds My thoughts in a stir We were so close But the moment you became popular Its like your heart froze And I became a foreigner All those secrets I told you Now everyone knows I can't help but feel blue I guess we are both at our all time lows So I wish you luck And just know I am not stuck Turns out I am the only one that can grow

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Sep 10, 2020

Sep 10, 2020 at 12:26 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

You Are Toxic

As I look back I see how everything was toxic I guess I have always known And while we are on the topic I gotta ask, are you still on your throne Your throne made of lies Your throne covered in deception So go ahead and take off your disguise And lay down your weapon ….oh wait I should cut it out For it wasn’t objects that put me in this state You used people and all you had to give was a little pout Your army didn’t have guns But they had power So every shuns And bullies me to where I want to cower The hits and words How sharp their tongues were They fought in herds My thoughts in a stir We were so close But the moment you became popular Its like your heart froze And I became a foreigner All those secrets I told you Now everyone knows I can't help but feel blue I guess we are both at our all time lows So I wish you luck And just know I am not stuck Turns out I am the only one that can grow

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Once upon a time When I was in my prime Happiness was all I felt Now everyday I have to deal with a belt My skin used to be fair Now nowhere is bare Discoloration and lines Hurt of all kinds They have become my comfort But also make me suffer I press them down And tears rise making me drown Pain slowly recedes and leaves a slight sting But I don’t care and continue to cling The pain reminds me that I am still alive As I can’t help but want to survive So I battle on And fight to see another dawn At least I am not bleak And I may be a freak But I will just keep going Even if it's just me and my colors that keep growing

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Sep 4, 2020

Sep 4, 2020 at 2:08 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

A Piece Of Art

Once upon a time When I was in my prime Happiness was all I felt Now everyday I have to deal with a belt My skin used to be fair Now nowhere is bare Discoloration and lines Hurt of all kinds They have become my comfort But also make me suffer I press them down And tears rise making me drown Pain slowly recedes and leaves a slight sting But I don’t care and continue to cling The pain reminds me that I am still alive As I can’t help but want to survive So I battle on And fight to see another dawn At least I am not bleak And I may be a freak But I will just keep going Even if it's just me and my colors that keep growing

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My breath is shaky I'm going crazy I can hear the pounding of drums But it's actually my heart that runs My body won’t stop I whimper and drop Curling into a ball My back presses up against the wall Trying to hold it in I try to grin But before I can cover my mouth A sob escapes and from there it all goes south My mind goes clear Only one thought had to appear Without thinking And after an hour of drinking My fingers graze something cold I move my body to unfold Now my fingers wrap around Feeling like i'm going to drown I slide it across my skin And it makes lines that are nice and thin Over and over, more and more I hear a sound and realize its the front door My mind registers the sound But my body is still bound The thump of someone coming near And I won’t be able to stop I fear The handle to my door turns As the blood dripping from my arm burns My mom walks inside I don’t even try to hide My eyes start to slowly close She looks at me and she froze I give her a weak smile “Don’t worry mom, I love you and I will see you in a while” I say as I try to speak soft Blood drips down my chin after I have coughed She snaps out of her haze And says her of so famous phrase “How could you do this to me” I can’t help to glance at my arm and what do I see My blood falling from my fingertips And I can’t stop the words that fall out of my lips “Im sorry Im not the one you wanted, My whole life I have been haunted I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused I wish I could have put life on pause I do not belong here So let me disappear I love you And please do not follow me through” My words shake at the end As I welcome the darkness like an old friend

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Sep 4, 2020

Sep 4, 2020 at 2:08 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

Goodbye Life

My breath is shaky I'm going crazy I can hear the pounding of drums But it's actually my heart that runs My body won’t stop I whimper and drop Curling into a ball My back presses up against the wall Trying to hold it in I try to grin But before I can cover my mouth A sob escapes and from there it all goes south My mind goes clear Only one thought had to appear Without thinking And after an hour of drinking My fingers graze something cold I move my body to unfold Now my fingers wrap around Feeling like i'm going to drown I slide it across my skin And it makes lines that are nice and thin Over and over, more and more I hear a sound and realize its the front door My mind registers the sound But my body is still bound The thump of someone coming near And I won’t be able to stop I fear The handle to my door turns As the blood dripping from my arm burns My mom walks inside I don’t even try to hide My eyes start to slowly close She looks at me and she froze I give her a weak smile “Don’t worry mom, I love you and I will see you in a while” I say as I try to speak soft Blood drips down my chin after I have coughed She snaps out of her haze And says her of so famous phrase “How could you do this to me” I can’t help to glance at my arm and what do I see My blood falling from my fingertips And I can’t stop the words that fall out of my lips “Im sorry Im not the one you wanted, My whole life I have been haunted I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused I wish I could have put life on pause I do not belong here So let me disappear I love you And please do not follow me through” My words shake at the end As I welcome the darkness like an old friend

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Who is the puppeteer? They are already here They have taken over They drove her I N S A N E You can fight but it will all be in vain The strings are already attached Our will has been snatched Now we have to wait See the next to take the bait W H O I S T H A T ? Its the one in the silk hat The one that is responsible He is unstoppable He made our doom There is no room We are stuffed in our suits I can see the roots Its the darkness I don’t want to be heartless M Y G R A S P I S S L I P P I N G My blood is dripping Every time I move My skin gains another groove I watch behind bars It’s just me and my scars My actions are not my own And in this darkness I wait alone Please someone notice Before the people closest A R E K I L L E D . . . HA I WOULD BE THRILLED PREPARE TO DIE Go ahead and cry Say your goodbyes Come on and act wise These are your last moments Didn’t you see all the omens I am your fate I cannot wait I want to taste your blood It pools in my mouth like a flood I want more You drop to the floor Turns out you were the next victim Oh how you tricked them As I peer down at your body You were not just a somebody On top of your head...I look at… T H E S I L K H A T

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Sep 4, 2020

Sep 4, 2020 at 2:07 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

Animatronic

Who is the puppeteer? They are already here They have taken over They drove her I N S A N E You can fight but it will all be in vain The strings are already attached Our will has been snatched Now we have to wait See the next to take the bait W H O I S T H A T ? Its the one in the silk hat The one that is responsible He is unstoppable He made our doom There is no room We are stuffed in our suits I can see the roots Its the darkness I don’t want to be heartless M Y G R A S P I S S L I P P I N G My blood is dripping Every time I move My skin gains another groove I watch behind bars It’s just me and my scars My actions are not my own And in this darkness I wait alone Please someone notice Before the people closest A R E K I L L E D . . . HA I WOULD BE THRILLED PREPARE TO DIE Go ahead and cry Say your goodbyes Come on and act wise These are your last moments Didn’t you see all the omens I am your fate I cannot wait I want to taste your blood It pools in my mouth like a flood I want more You drop to the floor Turns out you were the next victim Oh how you tricked them As I peer down at your body You were not just a somebody On top of your head...I look at… T H E S I L K H A T

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A car drives down the road And it’s carrying a heavy load HELP ME The road is life My dear cruel wife The car is me On the count of three WHERE AM I I am no longer in control Because I sold my soul Now someone else is driving I CAN’T MOVE And they are thriving I am locked I’m being blocked I can’t get out I TRY TO SHOUT…. Nothing I try pushing The darkness I CAN’T SEE Oh how the harshness Squeezes my lung Please I am too young I DON’T WANT TO DIE My breath is trapped My lips are chapped HELP ME A coldness slowly engulfs me WHY All I can do is plea PLEASE, I’M SCARED I let out a final scream FIND ME As this all feels like a dream... And I finally realize….. I’M IN THE TRUNK

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Sep 4, 2020

Sep 4, 2020 at 2:06 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

I’m in the trunk

A car drives down the road And it’s carrying a heavy load HELP ME The road is life My dear cruel wife The car is me On the count of three WHERE AM I I am no longer in control Because I sold my soul Now someone else is driving I CAN’T MOVE And they are thriving I am locked I’m being blocked I can’t get out I TRY TO SHOUT…. Nothing I try pushing The darkness I CAN’T SEE Oh how the harshness Squeezes my lung Please I am too young I DON’T WANT TO DIE My breath is trapped My lips are chapped HELP ME A coldness slowly engulfs me WHY All I can do is plea PLEASE, I’M SCARED I let out a final scream FIND ME As this all feels like a dream... And I finally realize….. I’M IN THE TRUNK

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You have to smile at school You’re a fool Put on a smile at home You will never leave your dome Smile at work Cruel fate will greet you with a smirk JUST SMILE No! That is not my style I can feel the bile Running up my throat So go and make a note I’m not your toy I’m all out of joy LEAVE ME ALONE Let it be known No more of your **** How about you just quit I’m never going to find someone like you Jeez take a clue That’s the whole point I feel like I’m at gunpoint My head is pounding I should have listened to the sounding All the red flags Looking at my bags I’m able to walk away I won’t stay Never looking back Being back on track It’s finally my life ..sigh...maybe I should take a knife NO! Don’t think about them They were not men You’re fine Stay inline Just take a deep breath You escaped death….. LEAVE ME ALONE Let it be known No more of your **** How about you just quit I’m never going to find someone like you Jeez take a clue That’s the whole point I feel like I’m at gunpoint You don’t need them All of your problems, they were the stem Now you are free You are the only one with a key You make the decisions Make all your visions Come true Look how far you grew…. LEAVE ME ALONE GET OFF YOUR THRONE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE STOP I HEAR YOUR GROAN LEAVE ME ALONE I WILL NOT BE OWNED JUST LEAVE ME ALONE… I feel like a clone…. Please…….. ….Leave me alone….

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Sep 4, 2020

Sep 4, 2020 at 2:01 PM UTC

Alex_UwU

Leave Me Alone

You have to smile at school You’re a fool Put on a smile at home You will never leave your dome Smile at work Cruel fate will greet you with a smirk JUST SMILE No! That is not my style I can feel the bile Running up my throat So go and make a note I’m not your toy I’m all out of joy LEAVE ME ALONE Let it be known No more of your **** How about you just quit I’m never going to find someone like you Jeez take a clue That’s the whole point I feel like I’m at gunpoint My head is pounding I should have listened to the sounding All the red flags Looking at my bags I’m able to walk away I won’t stay Never looking back Being back on track It’s finally my life ..sigh...maybe I should take a knife NO! Don’t think about them They were not men You’re fine Stay inline Just take a deep breath You escaped death….. LEAVE ME ALONE Let it be known No more of your **** How about you just quit I’m never going to find someone like you Jeez take a clue That’s the whole point I feel like I’m at gunpoint You don’t need them All of your problems, they were the stem Now you are free You are the only one with a key You make the decisions Make all your visions Come true Look how far you grew…. LEAVE ME ALONE GET OFF YOUR THRONE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE STOP I HEAR YOUR GROAN LEAVE ME ALONE I WILL NOT BE OWNED JUST LEAVE ME ALONE… I feel like a clone…. Please…….. ….Leave me alone….

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