I feel pain too easily
I feel love and cry for the easiest
I'm crying and dying on the inside
Sometimes out of sadness or maybe just anger
I want to punch a wall or maybe even just **** as a test
I wish to not feel anything anymore
For it would be way more easier
Where their is pain there is darkness
And where there is darkness their is dreadful hopeless silence
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 1:13 PM UTC
That faraway beauty which I have forever longed is with me
For even if we're separated you're presence is always near
The one person who calms me down
Brings a real smile upon my face and sees me for who I am
Is with me no matter how far away
You'll proably soon say that you'll be taking your leave but that's not true
Since in my heart you'll always remain true
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 1:11 PM UTC
I'm waiting for the day that you look over here once again
That day that our eyes met
I was forever changed
I couldn't explain it
I didn't understand it
I was flustered with emotions
I was filled with things that I never had felt before
I couldn't take it anymore
So I decided to find you
To bring you back to me
I didn't want to feel like this
But as soon as you came by my side I felt so much better
So I decided to keep waiting
Even if it's for a little
that I'm by your side
It's worth it because you know how to make me smile once again
Mar 6, 2018
Mar 6, 2018 at 10:22 AM UTC
Can I agree with you again?
Can I trust you, in letting you in again?
This should be all solved, right?
I just want to have a normal and happy life again
I want to wake up in the morning and not think about what happened last week
I want to have my motivation back
I want to be able to look you in the eyes and not doubt you again
Will everything go back?
Will this really work out?
Should I have just moved on?
Should I have just blocked you out of my life entirely?
I decided not to
I decided to live on and face the reality
I didn't just want to loose you, I didn't want to loose myself
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 1:34 PM UTC
You know that feeling when you can smile again and mean it?
It takes you over like a wave in motion
You get this feeling that everything is going to be alright
You feel that you can do anything now and that you're not limited by anyone
It's the best feeling of all, to finally feel a new
Like nothing has ever happened
And you're just about to start everything
You have complete control and nothing will stop you from completely starting a-new
Jan 8, 2018
Jan 8, 2018 at 9:36 AM UTC
I'm here standing at the edge of the cliff
Ready to jump and give in
I feel my hair flow in the wind
I'm no longer restless and I'm ready to end everything
I suddenly feel something inside me break
My heart was already broken so what is this feeling now?
I feel a pull from behind
It's taking me back
Farway from the end
To start new and fresh
I have been pulled away from the cliff but why?
A force that could stop me from giving up which I can't name
I didn't know a force like that could exist
A hope and a smile so great that could make me rethink everything
To make me think that I could still stay
Nov 20, 2017
Nov 20, 2017 at 2:09 PM UTC
What did I do to deserve a life like this?
I don't remember doing anything so wrong
Everyone around me is always so happy and cheerful but then I'm just left in the corner
Do I have to suffer in exchange of everyone's happiness?
Is that what's going on?
It would make more sense if it were that way
Nov 20, 2017
Nov 20, 2017 at 2:00 PM UTC
Why do I seem invisible to some people?
I'm right next to you so why am I not even minded?
I used to get stared at horribly but now I'm not even seen
I got these people that have known me for years behind me
What a relief? I wish.
They pretend they don't know me
I guess they feel I'm not needed
Which isn't really far from the truth
I'm useless
I'm hopeless
All my dreams have expired
All I have is a blank future to go towards
A dark blank future which will sooner or later be all filled with sadness to run into
These new "friends" that I have are not really "friends" are they? They all have their own plans, their friends that they have grown with
I'm just a stanger that gets told "hi" like once a day
Why ever would I mean anything to those people?
Im just here wasting some space that could be used another person that could be born and respected unlike me
If I have no values, no friends, and no people to go to then why don't I just leave?
I don't have anything to live for then I might as well give up
I gave up on my dreams along time ago, the sky will now forever be dark
I won't have anything to look forward to and forever my dream at finding someone that could be by my side will forever be buried and left from my mind
Nov 20, 2017
Nov 20, 2017 at 1:12 PM UTC
Where should I go now?
My feet can't move
But I'm not stuck
I'll make sure
To get out
Of this
Alright?
Nov 17, 2017
Nov 17, 2017 at 2:48 PM UTC
So when it did become right for someone to be the boss of everyone, cuz the way I see it, it's definitely not okay on any standards
Whatever I'm hopeless
Useless
But I bet if another person was there you wouldn't mind leaving me behind
I see the way you act towards other people
Treating them all special and me as a person who follows you who is miss royalty and I'm just the person who you think is always gonna be there for ya
Well guess what, I think not
I'm sick and tired of you're laziness
You always complain when something isn't right
I can't be myself at any level or you'll think I'm being rude and disrespect towards you
I have to smile all the time to make you think that I'm fine with my life
If I even tried to tell you what's wrong you would just look at me weirdly and not even listen
How did you even find me in the first place?
Can you like not, I'm tired and hate even being next to you but of course I can't say anything but oh well for now
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 12:43 PM UTC