Aj20 - Hello Poetry

I have a question for you Something I need to know How do you truly Let yourself go Sink into your cover With a smile on your face How do you please Tell me this now How do you become happy When you only know to drown Smiling hurts My voice isn't used My eyes they rain All of the time How do you find happiness When you just want to die When you see the darkness So inviting So calm and peaceful How do you smile How do you heal How do you find A reason to stay

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Mar 14, 2016

Mar 14, 2016 at 1:19 AM UTC

How...

I have a question for you Something I need to know How do you truly Let yourself go Sink into your cover With a smile on your face How do you please Tell me this now How do you become happy When you only know to drown Smiling hurts My voice isn't used My eyes they rain All of the time How do you find happiness When you just want to die When you see the darkness So inviting So calm and peaceful How do you smile How do you heal How do you find A reason to stay

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Kisses can mean so many things So many different emotions come from them We all have the idea of a perfect kiss From the time we are young We look forward to that one perfect moment When time stops The world ceases to turn Our breathing hitches Our hearts flutter That kiss for me is different though I want to feel love in that kiss I want my body to become warm I want my mind to realize it's happiness and love coming from it Not just an action two people do God how badly I wish to be kissed

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Mar 10, 2016

Mar 10, 2016 at 7:34 PM UTC

A kiss

Kisses can mean so many things So many different emotions come from them We all have the idea of a perfect kiss From the time we are young We look forward to that one perfect moment When time stops The world ceases to turn Our breathing hitches Our hearts flutter That kiss for me is different though I want to feel love in that kiss I want my body to become warm I want my mind to realize it's happiness and love coming from it Not just an action two people do God how badly I wish to be kissed

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Come here child Don't be afraid I won't hurt you I just take the pain You've tried for so long To forgive and forget Its just too much at once In your little head The voices they creep The tics they ridicule The images inside Your amazing twisting mind All you ever say "why are you being so mean!? This who I am this is me" I'm here now so come with me We will take a walk in the summers breeze You won't cry not anymore You won't hide behind closed doors Its all alright Can't you see? Its better this way You're safe with me "Looking at the reapers face Knowing full well of his evil ways I take his hand He leads me down Down down down Deeper in the ground As I see the last of the light I picture the love of my life I whisper into the dark night I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being me" I can't do it Not on my own He said he's helping Helping me cope I won't have to worry I won't always cry I won't remember the pain inside I won't see your face In the dead of night Its just an illusion A trick in my mind I won't hear your voice I won't miss your lips I won't miss the way you held my hand Come here child Don't be afraid I won't hurt you I just take the pain You've tried for so long To forgive and forget Now it's all over Trust me my friend

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Mar 9, 2016

Mar 9, 2016 at 10:57 PM UTC

Nightmare

Come here child Don't be afraid I won't hurt you I just take the pain You've tried for so long To forgive and forget Its just too much at once In your little head The voices they creep The tics they ridicule The images inside Your amazing twisting mind All you ever say "why are you being so mean!? This who I am this is me" I'm here now so come with me We will take a walk in the summers breeze You won't cry not anymore You won't hide behind closed doors Its all alright Can't you see? Its better this way You're safe with me "Looking at the reapers face Knowing full well of his evil ways I take his hand He leads me down Down down down Deeper in the ground As I see the last of the light I picture the love of my life I whisper into the dark night I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being me" I can't do it Not on my own He said he's helping Helping me cope I won't have to worry I won't always cry I won't remember the pain inside I won't see your face In the dead of night Its just an illusion A trick in my mind I won't hear your voice I won't miss your lips I won't miss the way you held my hand Come here child Don't be afraid I won't hurt you I just take the pain You've tried for so long To forgive and forget Now it's all over Trust me my friend

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I always wanted to marry a beautiful girl Nighttime wedding under the stars I love the stars so much The way they shine so brightly Even though they have died I love to lay outside in the summer Spring or fall and look up At the stars shining above me Wondering how far are they all It would be a dream to be married underneath them It would be a dream to visit Ireland for a honey moon See my ancestors home Irish through and through That would a dream come true To see the world with my wife by my side To take my baby on journies far away Watch as my child grows up with two moms And know they have seen a variety of cultures I want a life worth living I dream of being okay Craving to be happy Dreaming of "One Day"

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Mar 9, 2016

Mar 9, 2016 at 1:56 PM UTC

One Day

I always wanted to marry a beautiful girl Nighttime wedding under the stars I love the stars so much The way they shine so brightly Even though they have died I love to lay outside in the summer Spring or fall and look up At the stars shining above me Wondering how far are they all It would be a dream to be married underneath them It would be a dream to visit Ireland for a honey moon See my ancestors home Irish through and through That would a dream come true To see the world with my wife by my side To take my baby on journies far away Watch as my child grows up with two moms And know they have seen a variety of cultures I want a life worth living I dream of being okay Craving to be happy Dreaming of "One Day"

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I'm so tired... I'm tired of sleepless nights In tired of hurting so badly I'm tired of crying every single day I'm tired of wanting to just cry I'm tired of the pain I'm tired of not saying I love you I'm tired of not sleeping next to you I'm tired of wanting to cut again I haven't in 2 years but I need a release I'm tired of wanting to drink every night I'm tired of not having you I'm so tired... It's all killing me Its all making it worse I just want it to go away I want it to stop I'm so ******* tired of the pain! Every broken piece of my heart finds a new way to break every **** day! I'm tired of it!!

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Mar 8, 2016

Mar 8, 2016 at 12:12 AM UTC

Tired

I'm so tired... I'm tired of sleepless nights In tired of hurting so badly I'm tired of crying every single day I'm tired of wanting to just cry I'm tired of the pain I'm tired of not saying I love you I'm tired of not sleeping next to you I'm tired of wanting to cut again I haven't in 2 years but I need a release I'm tired of wanting to drink every night I'm tired of not having you I'm so tired... It's all killing me Its all making it worse I just want it to go away I want it to stop I'm so ******* tired of the pain! Every broken piece of my heart finds a new way to break every **** day! I'm tired of it!!

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Depression hits when you least expect it You can't stop it You can't put it off Its like your personal hell It grabs a hold with a grip of death It doesn't plan on letting go It makes you think Makes you remember All the things you tried to forget forever Its like a disease Its feeling like you're nothing Useless Worthless waste of air A souless body empty shell Walking around like a zombie You can't sleep You can't eat You can't even muster a real smile Your laugh is hollow Your voice breaks You lay in bed Under your blanket Music up too loud Trying to silence your thoughts It doesn't help Nothing seems to help No one seems to understand I don't talk I don't sleep Don't know how to smile anymore I don't remember happiness

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Mar 7, 2016

Mar 7, 2016 at 9:49 PM UTC

Untitled

Depression hits when you least expect it You can't stop it You can't put it off Its like your personal hell It grabs a hold with a grip of death It doesn't plan on letting go It makes you think Makes you remember All the things you tried to forget forever Its like a disease Its feeling like you're nothing Useless Worthless waste of air A souless body empty shell Walking around like a zombie You can't sleep You can't eat You can't even muster a real smile Your laugh is hollow Your voice breaks You lay in bed Under your blanket Music up too loud Trying to silence your thoughts It doesn't help Nothing seems to help No one seems to understand I don't talk I don't sleep Don't know how to smile anymore I don't remember happiness

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I want so bad to feel your lips on mine again I want to feel your lips move against mine Feel your hands pull me closer and touch my face I need it.. I need to feel your touch again I need to be wrapped in your arms when it's cold I need the random hugs from behind and the surprise kisses I wish I could feel that again

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Mar 7, 2016

Mar 7, 2016 at 8:21 PM UTC

Cravings

I want so bad to feel your lips on mine again I want to feel your lips move against mine Feel your hands pull me closer and touch my face I need it.. I need to feel your touch again I need to be wrapped in your arms when it's cold I need the random hugs from behind and the surprise kisses I wish I could feel that again

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I steal glances of you when you aren't looking I say I love you only when I know you can't hear me I cuddle with you and say how beautiful you are I play with your hair and let you fall asleep in my arms I can only do these things when I'm asleep Because you are no longer with me I die each day missing you Holding on to our memories Wishing it to be a lie Wishing it wasn't like this You got me to where I am today I was able to feel love because of you I was able to feel beautiful I saw the light in the sun I felt the calmness of the moon I saw stars in your eyes as youd look at me I miss you every single day that I am here and you're not.

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Mar 7, 2016

Mar 7, 2016 at 4:29 PM UTC

Untitled

I steal glances of you when you aren't looking I say I love you only when I know you can't hear me I cuddle with you and say how beautiful you are I play with your hair and let you fall asleep in my arms I can only do these things when I'm asleep Because you are no longer with me I die each day missing you Holding on to our memories Wishing it to be a lie Wishing it wasn't like this You got me to where I am today I was able to feel love because of you I was able to feel beautiful I saw the light in the sun I felt the calmness of the moon I saw stars in your eyes as youd look at me I miss you every single day that I am here and you're not.

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I want to curl up and cry But I have to try and be strong I can't show I'm weak or hurting I want the darkness I want the silence I want the voices to cease But of course they bring violence I want to sit still I don't like the tics I want to look someone in the eye And not worry about the hit I want to be normal In my own way of course I want to be freed from my mental disorders

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Mar 7, 2016

Mar 7, 2016 at 3:26 PM UTC

Slight insight

I want to curl up and cry But I have to try and be strong I can't show I'm weak or hurting I want the darkness I want the silence I want the voices to cease But of course they bring violence I want to sit still I don't like the tics I want to look someone in the eye And not worry about the hit I want to be normal In my own way of course I want to be freed from my mental disorders

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Have you ever physically felt a heartbreak? Have you ever drowned in your own tears? Have you ever cried so hard your head feels like it's going to explode? Have you ever wanted to die so your forget the memories? Have you ever loved so strongly and cared so deeply, that when it's gone, you feel an immense amount of pain? Have you ever wanted to be loved and wanted? Have you ever taken pill after pill hoping you might not come down? Have you tried to silence your pain? Have you tried to silence your mind? Have you ever woken up and just said I'm done? Have you ever?

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Mar 7, 2016

Mar 7, 2016 at 3:20 PM UTC

I have

Have you ever physically felt a heartbreak? Have you ever drowned in your own tears? Have you ever cried so hard your head feels like it's going to explode? Have you ever wanted to die so your forget the memories? Have you ever loved so strongly and cared so deeply, that when it's gone, you feel an immense amount of pain? Have you ever wanted to be loved and wanted? Have you ever taken pill after pill hoping you might not come down? Have you tried to silence your pain? Have you tried to silence your mind? Have you ever woken up and just said I'm done? Have you ever?

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