I have a question for you
Something I need to know
How do you truly
Let yourself go
Sink into your cover
With a smile on your face
How do you please
Tell me this now
How do you become happy
When you only know to drown
Smiling hurts
My voice isn't used
My eyes they rain
All of the time
How do you find happiness
When you just want to die
When you see the darkness
So inviting
So calm and peaceful
How do you smile
How do you heal
How do you find
A reason to stay
Mar 14, 2016
Mar 14, 2016 at 1:19 AM UTC
Kisses can mean so many things
So many different emotions come from them
We all have the idea of a perfect kiss
From the time we are young
We look forward to that one perfect moment
When time stops
The world ceases to turn
Our breathing hitches
Our hearts flutter
That kiss for me is different though
I want to feel love in that kiss
I want my body to become warm
I want my mind to realize it's happiness and love coming from it
Not just an action two people do
God how badly I wish to be kissed
Mar 10, 2016
Mar 10, 2016 at 7:34 PM UTC
Come here child
Don't be afraid
I won't hurt you
I just take the pain
You've tried for so long
To forgive and forget
Its just too much at once
In your little head
The voices they creep
The tics they ridicule
The images inside
Your amazing twisting mind
All you ever say "why are you being so mean!? This who I am this is me"
I'm here now so come with me
We will take a walk in the summers breeze
You won't cry not anymore
You won't hide behind closed doors
Its all alright
Can't you see?
Its better this way
You're safe with me
"Looking at the reapers face
Knowing full well of his evil ways
I take his hand
He leads me down
Down down down
Deeper in the ground
As I see the last of the light
I picture the love of my life
I whisper into the dark night
I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being me"
I can't do it
Not on my own
He said he's helping
Helping me cope
I won't have to worry
I won't always cry
I won't remember the pain inside
I won't see your face
In the dead of night
Its just an illusion
A trick in my mind
I won't hear your voice
I won't miss your lips
I won't miss the way you held my hand
Come here child
Don't be afraid
I won't hurt you
I just take the pain
You've tried for so long
To forgive and forget
Now it's all over
Trust me my friend
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 10:57 PM UTC
I always wanted to marry a beautiful girl
Nighttime wedding under the stars
I love the stars so much
The way they shine so brightly
Even though they have died
I love to lay outside in the summer
Spring or fall and look up
At the stars shining above me
Wondering how far are they all
It would be a dream to be married underneath them
It would be a dream to visit Ireland for a honey moon
See my ancestors home
Irish through and through
That would a dream come true
To see the world with my wife by my side
To take my baby on journies far away
Watch as my child grows up with two moms
And know they have seen a variety of cultures
I want a life worth living
I dream of being okay
Craving to be happy
Dreaming of "One Day"
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 1:56 PM UTC
in a matter of moments
the world crumbling
falling to my knees
the unbearable pain,
the continual need
to cry
my strength,
it's fading
quickly
i can't hold
on anymore
Mar 8, 2016
Mar 8, 2016 at 10:58 PM UTC
i close my eyes
welcoming the darkness
drowning in hurt unbearable
bound and motionless
waiting for time to slow
and swallow me
here i lie covered
rooted in misery and despair
as a corpse waiting for burial
pleading silently for words
to will my spirits to lift
and set my sad soul free
i finally find my way through
after each fall i eventually rise
gracefully learning to cope
Mar 8, 2016
Mar 8, 2016 at 12:17 AM UTC
I'm so tired...
I'm tired of sleepless nights
In tired of hurting so badly
I'm tired of crying every single day
I'm tired of wanting to just cry
I'm tired of the pain
I'm tired of not saying I love you
I'm tired of not sleeping next to you
I'm tired of wanting to cut again
I haven't in 2 years but I need a release
I'm tired of wanting to drink every night
I'm tired of not having you
I'm so tired...
It's all killing me
Its all making it worse
I just want it to go away
I want it to stop
I'm so ******* tired of the pain!
Every broken piece of my heart finds a new way to break every **** day!
I'm tired of it!!
Mar 8, 2016
Mar 8, 2016 at 12:12 AM UTC
Depression hits when you least expect it
You can't stop it
You can't put it off
Its like your personal hell
It grabs a hold with a grip of death
It doesn't plan on letting go
It makes you think
Makes you remember
All the things you tried to forget forever
Its like a disease
Its feeling like you're nothing
Useless
Worthless waste of air
A souless body empty shell
Walking around like a zombie
You can't sleep
You can't eat
You can't even muster a real smile
Your laugh is hollow
Your voice breaks
You lay in bed
Under your blanket
Music up too loud
Trying to silence your thoughts
It doesn't help
Nothing seems to help
No one seems to understand
I don't talk
I don't sleep
Don't know how to smile anymore
I don't remember happiness
Mar 7, 2016
Mar 7, 2016 at 9:49 PM UTC
I want so bad to feel your lips on mine again
I want to feel your lips move against mine
Feel your hands pull me closer and touch my face
I need it.. I need to feel your touch again
I need to be wrapped in your arms when it's cold
I need the random hugs from behind and the surprise kisses
I wish I could feel that again
Mar 7, 2016
Mar 7, 2016 at 8:21 PM UTC