This is how you know it hurts
your heart feels cut
eyes feel heavy
your tongue falls numb
that happy playlist makes you cry
This is how you know you messed up
the memories are polaroids of regrets
each time you think of them
you feel undressed
you see your secrets creeping from the ground,
ghosts that Will haunt you past this lifetime
to a decade where you unlearn what you learnt
They said you'll only live once
but you've lived a lifetime with tears held back
wondering how it would have been
if you never crossed that path.
If you just moved forward and never looked back
Now you ask yourself,
Was it better to have loved and lost
than never to have loved at all
Or, was it's better to have lost them
Just to find your soul.
_lost and found
/aine/
Mar 26, 2020
Mar 26, 2020 at 5:31 PM UTC
I thought about us tonight
I remembered your voice on the other end of the line,
3 hours never passed so fast ,
I still remember the promises of forever,
the sick joke you told but we never laughed together
I remember my laughter,
was reluctant to believe my own thoughts of maybe you were just like the others,
Remember? when I told you that this was never here to last but you told me that this is all you want
Remember? said this was going too fast & you assured me that I'll never ever get hurt
Remember? I still held scars from past hurts but blindly followed my heart as you told me that the heart wants what it wants
Remember? you called me your only girl while you held a cluster in your hands with high mighty disregard
Remember? laid myself out to you as an unholy sacrifice and you picked on each blemish like a predator on its prey
Remember ? the unanswered texts as you missed my calls purposely and I loosed my mind on whether you are fine or not
Remember? that last call when you said my name with in a dreary tone I wasn't accustomed to.
Remember, the unspoken words hanged between us like a noose waiting for a neck to tighten around to as you said the words: its not you , its me. And I felt the truth crush into me like a meteor crushing the solid ground
Remember? even after all that I still chased after you
Like an outcast finding a home I still came to you
Then you showed me what I really meant to you
And I swore to forget you as much as i once loved you
But here I am still learning how to unlove you.
There's a day you'll remember that someone once loved you .
Oct 22, 2019
Oct 22, 2019 at 4:14 PM UTC
blow me a kiss
Tell me you love me
pull me closer to your warmth
make me feel safer in your arms
tongue vested deeper in your vast
let me fall deeper in your love
please, do undress me
uncover me of all these layers .
layers of guilt and insecurities, things I built all at once
Burn down the fort that once was to create a love stronger than the sequoia , deeper than the sea, our very own utopia
let us be fire resistant escaping this world's deceptions
build a life together , be each others protection
even at this moment, as little as it can be
tell me you feel the same
till these fears fade to rest.
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 12:45 AM UTC
We struggle to die
Running right into life's trap
Racing with time ,
We want to grow up
No one to blame that's just us
We age and we differ
Our bones becoming weaker
Our skins lose the glimmer
Our teeth have no holder
We look back onto the days we were young and merrier
No one to blame that's just us
We seek home in holes
Love ,lust and betrayal
Cries, laughs days pass on
History writen ,they say it lives on
Legends writen over our dry bones
No one to blame that's just us
We can't see these wonders anymore
The sky no longer embraces our world
6 feet deep it feels stone cold
Our souls in rest in the world unknown
As the recite these words on our tombstone
There's No one to blame that's just us
©m_e_reidow
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 1:56 PM UTC
At Eighteen.
She was lost,
Bleeding from inside out
With wounds unhealed from her past,
But all they saw was her lustic smile.
She, a beautiful flower drowning in the deep-
Under the grasp of self destruct,
Silently, She called for help but they didn't listen.
All they chose to see was beauty
covering the ugly truth of her imperfect life,
They chose the lies because it was easy,
It is easy to think one is fine, after all
“It saves you the emotional energy they said"
While she sunk deeper into the deep,
a black hole called reality
She awaited for signs that someone noticed
both her pain and joy
But all they chose to see way the joy
Until sadness took that away
Through the unholy vessel called anxiety and,
Depression her ally
She finally lost her spark
And all they chose to see were her beautiful memories (Lies)
Covering yet another part of her ,
Her story and the battles she fought
All on her own
Jun 16, 2018
Jun 16, 2018 at 3:36 AM UTC
The sun never shines
it never rises on us
it always falls so dark
in this part of town
that light is not for us
We never smile so wide
the extravagance is not for us
our mouths are dry with thirst
and shut with hunger and hurt
there's never water for us
We do not hold tomorrow
the thought is stored away from us
that fate is not our own
we are told to go with the flow
even the future is not for us.
May 19, 2018
May 19, 2018 at 1:06 PM UTC
Can't sleep without it
can't live with it either
beautiful pleasure and guilt,
that lingers each time
I close my mouth, eyes wide. Shut
it's not that I love it
it loves me more than I have it
brings me close with it's claws
tears unfold while it goes
and I don't ,
I don't want to do this anymore .
silent prayers to the gods that I'd let it go
and mercies to my mother that she'd never get to know,
her little baby is no more.
All is left is shame ,flying high
with the hope
that no one ever knows
and that these walls forever more,
keep a secret or watch it all unfold.
Apr 3, 2018
Apr 3, 2018 at 4:44 AM UTC
I cry.
yes I do..
I am not a god
an immortal to all these hurts,
I get lost in the mist
of my own crowded eyes,
searching for reasons to all the emotions
every droplet a sign of my powerful heart,
that is able to love so much
and hurt so bad at the same time,
an angelic paradox of it's own
a testimony of his powerful love .
©m_e_reidow
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 12:07 PM UTC
As days moved forward
our bodies became one
the eyes led the ears
the ears led the tongue
the tongue traced the parts that were locked away from everyone,
and uttered words that awoke the skin
the skin brought a rush that moved mountains
pleasure not easily forgotten
and sent us straight into euphoria
and no one ,
No one could fantom the thought that
we were once strangers
because we were perfect strangers
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 11:37 AM UTC
we are fragments of a life
scribbled down on history
in regards of our mysteries
unsolved by societies
that seem to know everything
but loose their identities
when they face misfortunes,
minorities to majorities
loosing track of eternity
while dwelling on everything
that don't promote anything .
Like ashes we flew miles
to create our own sparks
once tamed by their eyes
and blocked by despise
but now turned into fires
burning down all their lies
and fleeing our beautiful marvelous psychics
into the unlimited skies
one more time
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 8:54 AM UTC