When I feel so lost;
you never fail to find me.
don't forget that I love you always.
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 9:49 PM UTC
I don't know what I'm feeling
its weird
in my chest
my stomach
what's happening to me?
I'm scared.
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 9:44 PM UTC
why do i feel so wrong?
I feel out of place everywhere I go
even in my own home
always the daughter with the attitude
never asked why
just told to stop it
Why don't I recognize myself at night
sitting and the dark lonely void that is my bedroom
staring at some strange figure in the mirror
why am I never good enough at anything that matters
I can try all I want but in the end I fail
Why do I still try?
Because I cant be the other broken kid
the other let down
another burden
I'm merely a sack of stardust
floating around
observing
disguised as skin and bone
watching others be right
and I still can't be
anything but wrong
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 9:39 PM UTC
Change is a funny thing
people will tell others to change all of the time
and when they do, its a problem because
you shouldn't change for anyone except yourself
adults will tell kids to change the way they look at things
but when you do that;
the things we look at change
as kids the world looked big and bright
now it looks muted.
If you're sad all of the time that's what people say,
you just need to change
change your mindset
change the way you look at the world
but the way sad teenagers look at the world might just be real
It's scary and hard to think about the next day
because things can change so quickly overnight.
the key word here is change.
many people hate change even if it's good
change is an awful thing
change means death
parting ways
rules
development
adulthood
change is beautiful
blooming flowers in the spring
a change of scenery
changing your bedroom up
a new hair color
leaves turning colors in the fall
maybe if we all changed the way we looked at life,
the world with all of life inside of it would change too.
Apr 30
Apr 30, 2026 at 6:54 AM UTC
"What a terrible feeling to love someone and not be able to help them.
Actually ,I know exactly how that feels." - Violet Markey.
Apr 29
Apr 29, 2026 at 1:18 PM UTC
Nobody cares when you wake up with headaches everyday
Nobody cares about your stomach ache that wont go away
Nobody notices when eating becomes difficult
Nobody sees the restless nights
They only care when your grades start slipping
And your room becomes messy
but even then,
do they really ever care?
Apr 29
Apr 29, 2026 at 6:27 AM UTC
I have written many words for you,
My love
Birthday cards
Text messages
Words that I deeply regret
Letters that are kept hidden away,
I couldn't have you in the way that I wanted
Though my heart ached for some time
I know now,
Thats okay
I've written words of my feelings towards you
Disguised as words for something else
I've spent so long wishing for something
That was never meant to be
So many tears were wasted on
Someone who didn't want me
But its okay
I now know better
My love, it was ephemeral
Though the wishes for versions of us
Will haunt me forever
So as a final goodbye,
For the things that I felt
I have written one last poem
For you,
My love.
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 1:21 PM UTC
We are dreaming of tomorrow
A tomorrow of love
A tomorrow of life
The tomorrow that we are free in
The tomorrow where we aren't afraid
Wondering what happens next
The tomorrow that feels light
When our futures look bright
We dream of this tomorrow
But this tomorrow isn't coming
Tomorrow is the same as today
Dark and lonely
Today we are afraid
Afraid for what we dont know
Fearfull of what we do know
The future looks scary
The future looks dim
Thinking of what happens
When the world caves in
We are dreaming of tomorrow
But tomorrow is not coming
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 12:57 PM UTC
Grief is a funny feeling
especially when I'm grieving someone who is still alive
yesterday I hated you
the day before I was so mad at you that I oddly couldn't stop laughing
but today
right now
I cant seem to stop crying
I kind of miss you
but the you before everything happened
the you that I didn't loose
I wish I could have done something
anything
I know I was only fifteen
but there must have been something that I could have done or said
I miss you So much
I'm not sure when you stopped being the version of you that I once knew
Some days I wonder if she even existed
Grief is a funny feeling
It's something that I never understood before
I feel like It doesn't count as grief because you are still alive
yet all I seem to have left of you are the memories of us
the day on the beach is my favorite
wind in our hair
our matching hoodies that I will never wear again
you helped me get down to the sand because I had hurt my knee badly that same day
laughing at nothing
as my mom stood there taking photos of us
having the time of our lives
enjoying every single moment
I didn't know it then but
four months later I would help get you caught doing the thing that ruined us
I didn't do that to get you in trouble
I did that because I was worried
I needed you to stop
I wanted so badly to save you but just couldn't
I loved you
I couldn't help you
and that hurts
and I'm sorry
Apr 10
Apr 10, 2026 at 4:05 PM UTC
how can you save a person who doesn't want to be saved?
You can beg and plead but that never seemed to work
You can throw out dozens of resources but whether or not the person uses them is not under your control
You can choose to watch someone who you love hurt themselves, their future and everything and everyone around them;
or you could leave
leaving is the harder choice but staying is more painful
who knows how I would be doing if I had stayed.
they can call you selfish or cruel for leaving during their hard times
but they cant expect you to clean their life up for them, yourself.
when the dust settles
you can either help to sweep it up
or you can walk away, leaving that mess to someone else
and that is exactly what I chose to do.
I left the mess that I walked into for someone else
because you cannot save a person who doesn't want to be saved.
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 8:48 PM UTC