AbnerRos - Hello Poetry

I am a God Conceit and ego aside, I would like to announce to all that doubt That I am a God My bones are rubble Debris floats around me I mock reality Lick my lips Salt my tongue Devour the sun I am a God Contorting my pain Into something tangible Remove my skin (A muddy coat) I’m a feline I scratch.

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Mar 3, 2022

Mar 3, 2022 at 10:48 PM UTC

AbnerRos

IF NOT GOD, WHAT OTHER WORD WOULD BE ADEQUATE IN DESCRIBING ME, BECAUSE NO NAME ALONE SEEMS TO STICK.

I am a God Conceit and ego aside, I would like to announce to all that doubt That I am a God My bones are rubble Debris floats around me I mock reality Lick my lips Salt my tongue Devour the sun I am a God Contorting my pain Into something tangible Remove my skin (A muddy coat) I’m a feline I scratch.

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When I go home and you’re not there The days won’t start the same The familiar smell of rain Makes it unfair Your life was intertwined with mine Yet I am cursed to remain And go on much the same In your absence I can’t bear citrus The garage frightens me Walking is marred. Why bother with this, I am mourning a death that has not arrived But still, pain contorts me Puppeteering A grateful final act – Time is on its side Make use of night, do not mourn Thanks to the now and the then Discourage the future Close your arms.

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Jan 12, 2022

Jan 12, 2022 at 4:30 AM UTC

AbnerRos

Dog

When I go home and you’re not there The days won’t start the same The familiar smell of rain Makes it unfair Your life was intertwined with mine Yet I am cursed to remain And go on much the same In your absence I can’t bear citrus The garage frightens me Walking is marred. Why bother with this, I am mourning a death that has not arrived But still, pain contorts me Puppeteering A grateful final act – Time is on its side Make use of night, do not mourn Thanks to the now and the then Discourage the future Close your arms.

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This is a game To see who laughs first while we stare at each other. It’s just a joke, you used to do it with your other friends. I can’t look at you without smiling, so its obvious I will lose but I Play because you look at only me for a few seconds and we Share that, and I crave it. It’s inevitable that I lose But I didn’t think that meant losing you too Sometimes, I still stare.

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Jan 12, 2022

Jan 12, 2022 at 4:16 AM UTC

AbnerRos

Dont smile at me

This is a game To see who laughs first while we stare at each other. It’s just a joke, you used to do it with your other friends. I can’t look at you without smiling, so its obvious I will lose but I Play because you look at only me for a few seconds and we Share that, and I crave it. It’s inevitable that I lose But I didn’t think that meant losing you too Sometimes, I still stare.

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guys I made a book! https://au.blurb.com/b/11021892-cherry-whine

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Jan 5, 2022

Jan 5, 2022 at 5:02 AM UTC

AbnerRos

cherry whine book

guys I made a book! https://au.blurb.com/b/11021892-cherry-whine

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A year since his death and I’m fine. I don’t mind formalities but Being backed into corners by crazy family is more than I can handle. Your aura has changed! It’s blue, know what that means? Oh, of course not. I never saw you as a writer but Psychology is a well-fitting hat. Are you happy? You look sad, Whys that? I’d be happy without this conversation. There’s no cold water left. I wake up and everyone is still here. The house is anxious The dog screams I say these things, but I know I am fine.

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Dec 5, 2021

Dec 5, 2021 at 7:35 AM UTC

AbnerRos

Untitled

A year since his death and I’m fine. I don’t mind formalities but Being backed into corners by crazy family is more than I can handle. Your aura has changed! It’s blue, know what that means? Oh, of course not. I never saw you as a writer but Psychology is a well-fitting hat. Are you happy? You look sad, Whys that? I’d be happy without this conversation. There’s no cold water left. I wake up and everyone is still here. The house is anxious The dog screams I say these things, but I know I am fine.

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I don't think I've had a single original experience. I can't seem to finish a book anymore I get halfway through one before I start another. I think my friends can't stand me. Work terrifies me. I can’t handle damage to my confidence Though it is already dangerously low. I live for weekends but struggle to leave my room to actually live. It’s reassuring to know that I’m just the same as most others No one likes their job or even reads at all. Maybe my friends don’t hate me and I’m wrong. I always wonder What my reflection looks like to others Since I struggle to see beyond the blur.

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Nov 26, 2021

Nov 26, 2021 at 7:53 AM UTC

AbnerRos

Untitled

I don't think I've had a single original experience. I can't seem to finish a book anymore I get halfway through one before I start another. I think my friends can't stand me. Work terrifies me. I can’t handle damage to my confidence Though it is already dangerously low. I live for weekends but struggle to leave my room to actually live. It’s reassuring to know that I’m just the same as most others No one likes their job or even reads at all. Maybe my friends don’t hate me and I’m wrong. I always wonder What my reflection looks like to others Since I struggle to see beyond the blur.

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Tomorrow I will wake just like today and Think of what I feared most Having now become more than Nightmare or dream It is in my hands or Perhaps on my back I’m a feline I scratch I want it off Marring me Far more than mere skin My spirit is ***** I want to wash it Seeing black run down my legs And hair frizz like a day so familiarly faded, Yesterday, I yearned.

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Nov 23, 2021

Nov 23, 2021 at 8:59 AM UTC

AbnerRos

Untitled

Tomorrow I will wake just like today and Think of what I feared most Having now become more than Nightmare or dream It is in my hands or Perhaps on my back I’m a feline I scratch I want it off Marring me Far more than mere skin My spirit is ***** I want to wash it Seeing black run down my legs And hair frizz like a day so familiarly faded, Yesterday, I yearned.

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We don’t really cook anymore It’s just easier now Not worrying about Pots and pans and knives and forks and napkins and Instead thinking about waking. If ever there was a right time, it would be now I die when you call them movies Insisting that they’re films One semester I studied it I know better than you. I surrender If I’m not the best why bother? I’m lonely but in an existential way I’m not simple I don’t just want. I complain I’m not the best now I liked hurting girls You know I’m well read? It doesn’t stop there I worry still Just about me. But also I’m still worried about what we’ll drink And what’s for dinner I think tomorrow is important but I'm starving.

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Nov 14, 2021

Nov 14, 2021 at 10:22 PM UTC

AbnerRos

Cherry Whine

We don’t really cook anymore It’s just easier now Not worrying about Pots and pans and knives and forks and napkins and Instead thinking about waking. If ever there was a right time, it would be now I die when you call them movies Insisting that they’re films One semester I studied it I know better than you. I surrender If I’m not the best why bother? I’m lonely but in an existential way I’m not simple I don’t just want. I complain I’m not the best now I liked hurting girls You know I’m well read? It doesn’t stop there I worry still Just about me. But also I’m still worried about what we’ll drink And what’s for dinner I think tomorrow is important but I'm starving.

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I think words disgust me But touch amuses me I get confused sometimes and Mix up what I think I think touch disgusts me And words amuse me But I never do know What I really mean.

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Nov 5, 2021

Nov 5, 2021 at 11:41 AM UTC

AbnerRos

Untitled

I think words disgust me But touch amuses me I get confused sometimes and Mix up what I think I think touch disgusts me And words amuse me But I never do know What I really mean.

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En route to the guillotine of my own construction I gaze at each glimmer from your earthy eyes and Cheers my own life in its final chapter – No longer wanting to mark the page.

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Sep 29, 2021

Sep 29, 2021 at 2:34 AM UTC

AbnerRos

Bookmark

En route to the guillotine of my own construction I gaze at each glimmer from your earthy eyes and Cheers my own life in its final chapter – No longer wanting to mark the page.

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