I cant pretend that I am okay
With not seeing you and being with you for even a day
I felt more than I thought for you
It's unbearable and unsettling too
To have you so close but yet so far
It's hard to pretend that I am not hurt I can't lie
And be okay with the fact that I don't fit your idea
I get it we should do what's best for us it's only fair.
I know I have mountains to climb,
To be on a frequency I feel i need to be
All I ask for is time
I don't mean to make thing complicated and hard
With you I know I can play the part
All I ask is a chance to grow into what you need
This is my unapologetic plead.
I am not very good at selling myself
But I knew from the very first kiss
It's you I wanted to share the rest of my life with
I need you because my mind you enrich
That's why I can not I will not pack up and disappear
Consider your position and give this an ear
I know there is a lot to fear
Even Rome was not built in a year.
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 9:26 AM UTC
I have loved you and I don't know who you are
Nor your name
Or where you from
Or how far
It's been years that I have waited
To meet you
To see you for who you are
With each heart break
I sensed that you were close
With every tear
I felt how you cared
With each day that passed
I felt you near
I've loved you and I don't know who you are
Tell me..
Do you like walking in the rain
Or cuddling on Sunday morning
And pancakes covered in honey
Do you sing at the top of your lungs
Listening to Jeremy loops on the radio
"Down south" our favorite song.
Tell me..
When you think of love
Do you think of me too
Or am I just hoping for a fairytale.
Jun 15, 2019
Jun 15, 2019 at 6:15 PM UTC
Star cross lover
Where are you now
You are my addiction
My parallel vine
Born different
From a different time
A different place
A different town
world's apart
separated by love
My addiction
My unholy wine
You the wind that make my leaves dance
My nightmare to my unattainable plans
I am addicted to your
kiss
Breath taking
I am addicted to your
touch
Heart stopping
My star crossed lover
Two sides of a coin
We were born different
From a different time
Worlds apart
Set me free from my broken heart
You were forever meant to be mine.
Jun 6, 2019
Jun 6, 2019 at 3:59 PM UTC
Going through the emotions
I love you I love you not
She loves me she loves me not
Innocent flowers
Fallen victim to my cruel
Confusions
Are we friends or we not
Are we friends or we more
I wonder if friends
Say I love you like the way you do
Petals scattered around
My feet some drifting with the wind
Maybe you love me
Perhaps if I told you,
You would laugh
Just friends
She loves me she love me not
You love me you love me not
They are times when it seemed
That you do
The slight stolen glance
That stole more than it intended
My heart
When you smiled like a half moon
On twilight sky in the country side
My breath
With your sily laugh that whispered
Like sweet grass anchored on the mountain face
My doubts
When you speak your mind
With such passion and chaos
That challenged my sanity
Caught between my love for you
And our friendship
More than friends perhaps,
Or are we just friends
Unspoken words fill my mouth
Like grandma's cooking
At Chrisman dinners
Starved of oxygen
Unable to bring them to life.
She loves me she loves me not
Just friends
I hope not.
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 11:28 PM UTC
In the light of things
Life is precious
Limited to a few seconds
Which can feel like eternity
When disaster strikes
And suddenly you see things
In a different perspective
Suddenly it's not the materialistic
Things that matter most
Suddenly it's not the superficial reality
That looks beautiful
Suddenly it's not what society thinks
That counts
Suddenly you feel the little things
the little moments
of excitement
With every breath you take
You get to appreciate
Even the tiniest of things
Suddenly it's not about what you should be
Nor what you are said to be
As the silence creeps all around
Distant noises of sirens echoing
The tension of years of struggle
Lifted...
And from the wreckage
A new man emerges
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 9:09 AM UTC
At cross roads our love fell apart
The journey that took us here
Was filled with memorable moments
Moments that will forever be a part of us
The road we take from here
Leads us away from each other
It's distance and obstacles
Are completely unknown to us
At cross roads
Goodbye was never the easiest
Word to say
But here at cross roads
Our paths take a different direction
New moments and expériences
Await
At cross roads
Our love fell apart
Here ends the wonderful
memories we created
Here ends those long night chats
And never ending phone calls
Here we part ways to our new lives
At cross roads
We said goobye
But goodbye was never the easiest
Words to say
At cross roads
We part ways
To
One day meet again.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 12:02 PM UTC
After all that has happened
And the future that will never be
After the midnights calls
And long night chats
After that awkward first kiss
And Sunday morning sleep in's
After all the plans we had
And the those that will never be
After the heartbreak
And tears that stained our cheeks
After the love we had for each other
And still do
After all that we had
And all that we lost
After all we wanted
And all we didn't get
After all
We felt love
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 11:56 AM UTC
Am a stranger to my thoughts
Drifting apart like a sailor's sheet
Pushed by the wind that howels
On my Vacant stare
Without care
I navigate aimlessly into
Unknown plots that hold firm
My ability to comprehend
My own reasons.
I am a stranger to myself
Growing away from the principals
That hold root my morality
Astray from the steps that filled
My feet
Abandoning my own
Seeking in poisonous thoughts
Meaning to my derailed ways
That feed vigorously at my
Untainted soul.
I am the enemy of my own
A grenade held
Together by a thread of slik
Weaved to the core of my heart
By a stranger that I once.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 6:43 AM UTC
I have been watching the heavens
For a sign that your soul
Graces the earth
For a clue that your smile
Ignites the sky
For a while now
I have been listening to the echoes
That carry the wind
For a sound that booms
From the depths of your chest
A message that voices the
Whispers of your heart
For a while now
I have been looking through
Forest growth for a path
That leads to the tip of your finger
A road that leads to the shield
of your arms
A place to call home.
For a while now
I have wondered about your existences
The sheer sight of your face
the true essences of your love
And most frequently whether
I will ever know your name
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 11:27 AM UTC
I've lost you in the ambiguity of my words
The puns and metaphors
Tring to figure out my speech
The parts of you that were lost in translation
How can I piece together
A sentence that starts with you
And ends with us?
The words elude me like a deer a lion
I am at sixes and sevens..
Trying to define homophones
Twice this weak.
Logic walked away from me
On the eve of my flight
A flown fool filled with fuel of
Rage
Hate maybe.
Burning all that personified
The meaning of you
While
The truth of the irony is that,
You are all I write about.
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 10:16 AM UTC