I...
I dearly miss you
Not because loving you brings me to life
Not because you made me smile a little brighter
Not because I once thought we were meant to be
All these things made me desire your company
But I unspokenly wanted all your attention
If I had asked, would you have accepted?
Or would my greed and insecurities
have driven you away?
You knew my insecurities about
my appearance
my family
my past
You took me as I was
But I never found a common ground with you
Keeping me in the dark about you
Your attention
Your Patience
Your composure
seemed to all be a facade
I wouldn't notice thunderstorm in the background
Of course, I notice
I always wanted you to be truly happy
A happiness that might not involve me
Sadly with a smile, correct myself
Will most definitely won't involve me
if I catch a glimpse
please let me smile and cry
Let me drunkly sing to
Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 9:18 PM UTC
You crawl into my heart
so that I can't let go
So that I can't forgive him
So that I continue to love-
No, so I can continue to obsess
over him
Almost every beautiful thing he said
Had you written all over it
Lies
Lies
And more lies
That I couldn't stop shedding tears
Cause for some reason
I knew
The cherished memories I want
Were all in the past
But the lines you planted
And the truth I saw
Were two very different things
I have yet to forgive him
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 9:08 PM UTC