4meyl - Hello Poetry

I'm getting awfully tired of being alone. It's getting colder and I'm lonely and I'm really really tired. I'm tired of being anxious about everything overthinking being left out. I guess I'm just too young to know myself and I'm tired of that too. I'm also tired of getting told that although I'm special I'm not quite special enough... but I guess that's my fault. I'm just so tired. Sorry.

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4meyl

Nov 23, 2015

Nov 23, 2015 at 12:16 PM UTC

abby752

Tired

I'm getting awfully tired of being alone. It's getting colder and I'm lonely and I'm really really tired. I'm tired of being anxious about everything overthinking being left out. I guess I'm just too young to know myself and I'm tired of that too. I'm also tired of getting told that although I'm special I'm not quite special enough... but I guess that's my fault. I'm just so tired. Sorry.

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she has told you everything about her past. Her family, her dad, her stepmom. She's been broken down enough in the past. You were the thing that built her back up. But now you were no longer be there for her. You were the thing that fall down her hopes. Do you know how much you mean to her?

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Nov 23, 2015

Nov 23, 2015 at 12:14 PM UTC

4meyl

#11

she has told you everything about her past. Her family, her dad, her stepmom. She's been broken down enough in the past. You were the thing that built her back up. But now you were no longer be there for her. You were the thing that fall down her hopes. Do you know how much you mean to her?

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Did it make you happy, when you saw all those tears streaming down her face?

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Nov 23, 2015

Nov 23, 2015 at 12:10 PM UTC

4meyl

#10

Did it make you happy, when you saw all those tears streaming down her face?

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How do I tell you how much you mean to me? How do I tell you not to leave me hanging?

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Oct 26, 2015

Oct 26, 2015 at 11:30 AM UTC

4meyl

#9

How do I tell you how much you mean to me? How do I tell you not to leave me hanging?

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I'm Still hanging in. I'm still hanging on. I'm Still fighting, im still here. Please. Don't give up.

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Oct 4, 2015

Oct 4, 2015 at 8:44 AM UTC

4meyl

#8

I'm Still hanging in. I'm still hanging on. I'm Still fighting, im still here. Please. Don't give up.

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How do I make you understand Understand what you mean to me How your words cut me How do I make you understand Understand that I don't know what I would do without you Even though your words cut me How do I make you understand Understand that I love you Even though I know you don't love me

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4meyl

Sep 17, 2015

Sep 17, 2015 at 8:38 AM UTC

just-me-3

Understand?

How do I make you understand Understand what you mean to me How your words cut me How do I make you understand Understand that I don't know what I would do without you Even though your words cut me How do I make you understand Understand that I love you Even though I know you don't love me

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even i myself don't understand some things as they come... even the actions and reactions i produce... i don't usually say things or comment on events or react on commotions... i act plain and casual... as if though i just don't care for anyone or anything at all... but i do... and when i start to recognize my feelings... they come and go as often as the wind blows... destroys the composure i have kept... and eats up everything i have set aside for... and ends up with nothing at all... there are people who don't open up that easily... there are people who don't give you a piece of them... there are people who don't give their trust to anyone... there are people who don't stay with you for long... and i was one of them... before... i enclosed myself... kept away from anyone... refrained from any relationship... played safe... avoided pain... then came a time i opened up... i shared... i gave whatever i can... i felt pain... i learned... i see things as they were never before... got open to ideas which i never thought had existed before... i became "normal", i guess... pain though is inevitable... the more you free yourself... the more you show who you are... the more you share what you've got... the more you care... the more you keep people close to your heart... the more know about others... the more attached you get... the deeper it hurts in the end... guess why i got so protective with myself in the beginning... i was afraid of getting hurt... afraid of the harsh and rude world outside... and the greatest fear i had all along... rejection... i covered up... got separated from what is real... ran away from the world... stayed with a few... and hid from the crowd...

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4meyl

Sep 17, 2015

Sep 17, 2015 at 8:38 AM UTC

the-ankh

some things you just don't understand

even i myself don't understand some things as they come... even the actions and reactions i produce... i don't usually say things or comment on events or react on commotions... i act plain and casual... as if though i just don't care for anyone or anything at all... but i do... and when i start to recognize my feelings... they come and go as often as the wind blows... destroys the composure i have kept... and eats up everything i have set aside for... and ends up with nothing at all... there are people who don't open up that easily... there are people who don't give you a piece of them... there are people who don't give their trust to anyone... there are people who don't stay with you for long... and i was one of them... before... i enclosed myself... kept away from anyone... refrained from any relationship... played safe... avoided pain... then came a time i opened up... i shared... i gave whatever i can... i felt pain... i learned... i see things as they were never before... got open to ideas which i never thought had existed before... i became "normal", i guess... pain though is inevitable... the more you free yourself... the more you show who you are... the more you share what you've got... the more you care... the more you keep people close to your heart... the more know about others... the more attached you get... the deeper it hurts in the end... guess why i got so protective with myself in the beginning... i was afraid of getting hurt... afraid of the harsh and rude world outside... and the greatest fear i had all along... rejection... i covered up... got separated from what is real... ran away from the world... stayed with a few... and hid from the crowd...

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It seems sometimes that depression has no cure, you just can't be happy and people call you immature. People just don't seem to realize that this won't go away overnight, the thoughts and feeling hold onto you so tight. People always think that everything's for attention, but what they don't realize is that it's like you are stuck in an invention. People just don't understand how this really feels, they think that calling 999 would make all of this heal. The truth is I am not the person I used to be, I used to be happy and energetic which you just can't see. I do my best to hold back and pretend, like everything's okay and this will mend. It's easy for people to say you'll get over it, but they don't realize that all you want to do is quit. You just can't bring yourself to think about the future, because in moments like these you count yourself as the loser. You can't sleep because you think about what happened, this is not at all as you imagined. But you know in your heart that you can get through this, all the bad things that happened you just need to dismiss. You just have to remember that your not the only person going through this struggle, you know that you will find the light at the end of the tunnel.

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4meyl

Sep 17, 2015

Sep 17, 2015 at 8:35 AM UTC

hoops11bl

You just don't understand!

It seems sometimes that depression has no cure, you just can't be happy and people call you immature. People just don't seem to realize that this won't go away overnight, the thoughts and feeling hold onto you so tight. People always think that everything's for attention, but what they don't realize is that it's like you are stuck in an invention. People just don't understand how this really feels, they think that calling 999 would make all of this heal. The truth is I am not the person I used to be, I used to be happy and energetic which you just can't see. I do my best to hold back and pretend, like everything's okay and this will mend. It's easy for people to say you'll get over it, but they don't realize that all you want to do is quit. You just can't bring yourself to think about the future, because in moments like these you count yourself as the loser. You can't sleep because you think about what happened, this is not at all as you imagined. But you know in your heart that you can get through this, all the bad things that happened you just need to dismiss. You just have to remember that your not the only person going through this struggle, you know that you will find the light at the end of the tunnel.

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I want to cry but I just sigh I thought it was something And now I see it was nothing You were sweet, amazing in fact And now I see it was all an act Now your words hurt me Actually, hurt me from the start But I didn't want to tell you Didn't want to break your heart Now I see you just broke mine I want to tell you everything I wanted to say I do till this day.. I was once sorry And now Are you?

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4meyl

Sep 17, 2015

Sep 17, 2015 at 8:17 AM UTC

elpasell

And Now...

I want to cry but I just sigh I thought it was something And now I see it was nothing You were sweet, amazing in fact And now I see it was all an act Now your words hurt me Actually, hurt me from the start But I didn't want to tell you Didn't want to break your heart Now I see you just broke mine I want to tell you everything I wanted to say I do till this day.. I was once sorry And now Are you?

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You, I see, everywhere. At college, far away, its you, i keep stare. Even, you, are not aware. I know, to you, I'm just a hologram, that made your eyes to glare. Sometimes, you even scare. For you, I'm just a piece of, your day and nightmare. If only, I dare. To declare. That, you, I care.

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4meyl

Sep 17, 2015

Sep 17, 2015 at 8:17 AM UTC

JudeJaden1987

Admirer

You, I see, everywhere. At college, far away, its you, i keep stare. Even, you, are not aware. I know, to you, I'm just a hologram, that made your eyes to glare. Sometimes, you even scare. For you, I'm just a piece of, your day and nightmare. If only, I dare. To declare. That, you, I care.

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