I've run through flames for you
knowing I'd be scarred for years to come
but I savored it
the lick of the blaze torching my skin
just as your palms
blistering and radiant
grab ahold of me when
we're engulfed in each other's heat
inferno around me rages wildly
smoke luring tears from my eyes
yet your warmth is almost igniting
we were taught not to play with fire
unless we want to get burned
but how else am I going to feel
except if anguish is endured
Dec 28, 2017
Dec 28, 2017 at 11:16 AM UTC
is the curve of my chin in morning's light
the one you truly want to see?
am I who you want to be holding
in the latest hours of the night
your eyes say someone else has stolen your dreams
you tell me that's not true
but can I really blame you?
when jagged edges have wounded you so many times
and their corners probably aren't as sharp as mine
I've wiped your kisses from my lips
and shook off your hand and grasping fingertips
you deserve someone who doesn't always
leave you in the dark so
no I'm not enough and
I can't be what you need but
I pray that in them you find
what it is that you can't get from me
Dec 27, 2017
Dec 27, 2017 at 4:20 PM UTC
empty bottles litter the room
too many have passed your lips
lying bathed in darkness
eyes bloodshot with tomorrow's regrets
you hold my hand like an anchor
keeping you from drifting in this lonely sea
as 80 proof courses violently through your veins
I like to believe you chose me to be here with you anyways
silence surrounds us until you finally find peace
desperate to remain afloat even if only in your dreams
my breaths ebb and flow to the rhythm of your heartbeats
my restless nights without you I'll spend
thinking of times like these
so if only for this moment
right now you need me
an antidote that will save you from yourself
then that is what I'll be
even if you’re the drug
from which I need relief
Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 6:11 PM UTC
you looked at me in my eyes,
and there was no fear
of what you'd find.
you saw the ruin left behind;
the damage, and destruction,
the brokenness I tried to hide.
And I waited for you to run;
away from my shadows,
and into the sun.
But then you told me,
there's a special beauty to the night;
because only then can you see stars
and in the darkness
they've created their own light
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 1:06 PM UTC
I wanted to think that I was special to you;
that I was different than the rest.
fooled myself into somehow believing this,
and lived in a state of false happiness
But I was so used to being covered with your lies
that when it was over you left me bare
and my raw skin felt it all;
the pain, the sadness, and especially the fear
I've been searching for the truth ever since
hoping that I could finally find comfort there
but I don't even know what honesty looks like
because the face of sincerity has become so rare.
Jun 1, 2016
Jun 1, 2016 at 3:16 PM UTC
if you asked me how I am I'd say "fine"
but here I am still thinking of you
and a part of me hopes
that you still think of me too.
Mar 10, 2016
Mar 10, 2016 at 8:26 PM UTC
It's easier said than done;
to let someone go,
when all you want is to hold on.
Because the memories can't just be erased ,
of every moment between you.
And those feelings won't simply be replaced
by someone new.
But you know the only thing to do now,
is to leave behind what has fallen apart,
because the damage has gone way too far
to repair what's left of two broken hearts
Dec 21, 2015
Dec 21, 2015 at 2:21 PM UTC
here we go with this again
you say you're so sick of love songs
and I'm not listening
there's goodbye in my eyes
as it all falls down
your side of the bed grows colder
as I wait for you to please return my call
I know I can't make you love me,
but you mean that much to me
we're going in circles
and I'm running out of energy
The damage is done
and almost wasn't ever enough
so now we can't be friends
and I'm left dreaming with a broken heart
Nov 26, 2015
Nov 26, 2015 at 1:59 PM UTC
I believe you,
when you say that you're okay
after watching me leave
and not trying to make me stay
I believe you;
that you don't want me back
because silence speaks volumes
and it's quiet where you're at
I believe you,
because you don't act like you're in pain
but it hurts me just to breathe
and pretend you're not in my brain.
I believe you,
because you are once what I wanted
but you let this fire turn to ashes
and now I'm left with nothing
I believe you;
but, I really wish I didn't
because you look like you're doing fine
so I keep these feelings hidden
Nov 3, 2015
Nov 3, 2015 at 11:44 AM UTC
I find myself often struggling for air,
as I try to tread water on my own.
But this ocean goes deeper than I ever imagined,
and no one's ever taught me how to swim alone.
That was your job. You were supposed to show me how it's done.
Isn't that what you're for? To be the safety net until I'm ready?
Instead you watched me fighting to stay afloat .
Never my saving grace because your spirit's much too deadly.
I'm stuck stagnant in the deep end with no experience at all,
and memories of drowning are far too clear in my mind.
I refuse to move from the safe place I have found in this hell;
maybe I can fool myself into believing that "I'm fine"
If no one touches me, then I won't think about it too much;
I can almost forget all the moments your hands held me down.
And that every time you did, I forced my way back up to the top,
because I wanted you to see that I was worth keeping around.
I've barely survived the waves that tried to pull me under,
and the rapids that took me way off course for a while.
Now I'm little bit ruined with scars no one can see,
and sometimes I forget I know how to smile.
It's terrifying to be offered a hand now;
constantly thinking that they're going to let me slip away.
And I refuse to ever drown by the hands of another again;
so I remain on my own because you've convinced me it's safer this way
I'm still not sure if I matter enough yet;
so I can show you what's left of me, thanks to you.
I wonder what happened to the girl I would have became,
if only you had just taught me how to swim
like you were supposed to...
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 1:20 PM UTC