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17/M/United States
I write often when I have inspiration, I wish to inspire others. All my poems are experiences of mine or relating to them Please follow if you wish to read more and share the poems You can message me if you struggle with these feelings and Ill gladly talk
“Worry about yourself”
The wisest thing someone can say to another
Because you can’t help others if you are broken
Help yourself or everything you do is misspoken
You can’t expect to make other people happy if you are sad
That would mean that everything you think that’s good is bad
How do you expect others to follow you as an example
They would follow the same steps just to fall back quite ample
Jan 2, 2018
Jan 2, 2018 at 1:40 AM UTC
I feel my chest hurt like it’s going to cave in
I feel my heart start beating fast again
I can’t breathe
I can’t conceive
A single thought on my mind
Like it's on repeat and it grinds
What if she leaves me again
What if she cheats on me again
What if my mother passes
What if my whole life crashes
What if, what if, what if
I’m tired of “What if”
But i can’t control my thoughts
They have me in chains like i was bought
I am haunted by worries
If anxiety were stone I have an entire quarry
I do everything I can to not think about things
But when a worry crosses my mind it does with a bang
Like an explosion, you can’t just ignore it
Can’t just do nothing and just sit
So it eats me alive
Until i’m just a shadow of my former self
Jan 2, 2018
Jan 2, 2018 at 1:37 AM UTC
People are going to leave you alone
It’s just a part of becoming grown
Throughout life you lose things you love
Like you are drowning, struggling to keep your head above
But life is only as bad as one has had.
Someone only knows how they've been sad
They know how low it can be for them
How bad it been and how grim
Because it can only be as bad as what they have had happen
Some people have more problems that are over lappen
Some have it worse but not everyone has it equal
But it's life and we have it coequal
Jan 2, 2018
Jan 2, 2018 at 1:35 AM UTC
You will change
All this may seem strange
Losing people you thought loved you
But deep down inside you know it isn't true
You will learn lessons the hard way
There isn't a good way for say
But, maybe you will survive this
After all life is just a hit and miss
Some give up and take the easy way out
Others just get mad and scream and shout
Some like to pretend that nothing is wrong
Some may pretend to be strong
But everyone wears some sort of mask
Like they have some hidden task
That speaking out is forbidden
So they keep it all hidden
Overtime people will see through the cracks
See the colors you are seeping are black
Maybe no one will understand you
Not everything they will say is true
But one thing you can count on
And this is no con
There are people who care about you
Here is a clue
I’ve written poems to help you
I spoke out my deepest thoughts tis’ true
Others have taken entire careers to help you
Because there are many who want to help you
you just have to remove that mask and seek aid
Open the flood gates and cascade
Reach the light at the end of the tunnel
Jan 2, 2018
Jan 2, 2018 at 1:31 AM UTC
This is all so pointless
I’ve lost all interest
In experiencing life
All I feel is strife
I’ve lost so many I'm feeling down again
Now i'm falling off the deep end
Falling into nothing but pain and sorrow
Not wanting to wake up tomorrow
I have but one I care for
Among all the violence and gore
She stands out like a bright light
Blinding me until I lose my sight
In all the broken things I seen
Like that feeling you get when you are clean
It feels so obscene
But I can’t help but gleem
She overwhelms my darkness
She makes me ignorant with bliss
She brings me up when I feel down
She holds me and doesn't make a sound
Because sometimes the best advice
Is to just to listen not entice
Jan 2, 2018
Jan 2, 2018 at 1:27 AM UTC
What I would do to have security
To embrace the Trinity
To have the connection
To not have this misconception
What I would do to have a wife
To feel like everything is good in life
To have children calling my name
To hear my wife feel the same
What I would do to have money
To feel that sweet feeling like honey
To not worry about paying bills
To not have to be willing to ****
We all have something wanted
To feel it so close like we’re haunted
But you can have whatever you desire
Just work hard for what you admire
-CC
Dec 5, 2017
Dec 5, 2017 at 12:17 PM UTC
Flashes of light flood my mind at night
My eyes are closed but I retain my sight
I see how broken this world has become
I see how far i've fallen and become numb
Numb to the selfish acts of humanity
How cruel we are to drive others to insanity
How politics have dominated nations morality
How people lose sight because of nationality
I’ve lost hope in purity
I’ve gained insecurity
No longer do I hold my head high with hope
No longer do I want to help people cope
But I am a fool
I let people use me like a tool
To make themselves feel better
And here she comes, i'm gonna let her
Because my passion is helping others
To give shelter and distribute cover
Even if it means killing myself inside
But these feelings are what I coincide
-CC
Dec 1, 2017
Dec 1, 2017 at 12:23 AM UTC
Breath in the trepidation
Sit on the couch with your contemplation
Light the cigarette
Instantly swim in regret
Inhale the poison that is killing you
Exhale the stress that overwhelms you
Get into an evil circle that you can’t escape
Piece yourself back together with tape
When you feel yourself fall apart
Just replace the part
By lighting another one
Like your you’re holding a gun
About to put it to your skull
All you have to do is just pull
But you don't do that yet
Your hands are wet with sweat
Something has you tied to this place
Someone keeps ahold of you like a brace
Keeps you from acting on impulse
Keeps you from your red avulse
Because no matter how far gone you become
No matter how much you feel dumb
Someone, somewhere will love you
They will give you something new
Something that gives you meaning
Something that takes the sadness in a cleaning
So you can wake up and smell the morning air
Something that will make you care
That something is life
it gets rid of your strife
Because we all have rough patches
Like its the last of your matches
But its gets better
Like a sudden change in the weather
So this is from me to you
Even I may love all of you too
Sep 1, 2017
Sep 1, 2017 at 9:56 AM UTC
Used, Abused, and Injured
Drink it all away until your words are slurred
Dig a blade into your skin
Until your blood starts to run thin
Shut every emotion off
When someone ask just scoff
Let every insecurity eat you alive
Until you have lost your will to survive
Overthink all little things
Until your chest hurts and stings
Black out in the shower
Pass out like a collapsing tower
Wake up weak and half dead
Where you can’t move like you’re full of lead
Wonder why no one wants you
Think about them as you turn blue
See your vision start to fade
Know your choice was just made
Leave behind the world that hates you
Its grey and white hue
Now you’re dead and there is no going back
All you see is black
Your funeral is held and people do go
People that love you start to show
Your friends from school
Your Family, people you barely knew
Because you thought you were alone
Like you just were sinking like stone
But you pushed people away
People never got you to sway
You never let them stay
Just shut them out of our day
They wanted to help you more than ever
But now they blame themselves.
When they found your body
Everyone bent over on one knee
Because they can’t breathe without you.
-CC
Aug 29, 2017
Aug 29, 2017 at 12:16 PM UTC
The memory of being in my car seat
Looking out the window at the summer heat
Dad behind the wheel long hair everywhere
Mom watching him with her weird stare
Sister next to me feeling the wind with her hand
those moments sure where grand
Made me feel like a normal kid
Just took my real life and put on a lid
I would do anything to have those again
Just to go back to where it all began
Before you left me alone
Before I sank like a stone
Falling into the black void
Leaving behind what I enjoyed
The feeling of tranquility
Feeling like I had stability
Then you went and took those pills
Guess you just wanted to feel the thrills
All the times I cried and begged you not to go
But every time I woke up you didn’t show
I wished on every star
That you would be here but its just another scar
I often wander what your voice sounded like
If you sounded like your friend mike
Mike must of meant more to you then me
Since he was the last one you went to see
I hate myself with a passion
I feel my life crashin’
I didn't get to say goodbye
Thinking about that always makes me sigh
Actually it makes me cry
Makes me want to die
But I wanted to make you proud
Stick out to you above the crowd
I would've done anything for your love
But you lick the silver spoon and scoot me back with a shove.
You finally did it one night
Maybe it was out of spite
Because you knew better
Now you'll never receive this letter
A motel room sofa was your resting place
Father like son is the up coming case
I have to get out of this place
So maybe ill try my first taste
Aug 26, 2017
Aug 26, 2017 at 8:59 PM UTC