all my dreams are coming true
and some of it
thanks to you
Aug 14, 2023
Aug 14, 2023 at 9:24 PM UTC
we have a long,
long journey ahead of
us
whether we love it
or hate it
i'm ready for whatever
it is
as long as i
have you
by my side
Aug 5, 2017
Aug 5, 2017 at 11:21 PM UTC
well, im back
not on good terms, really.
this has been a week from hell- start to finish
i want to think this is temporary, you and i.
we talked about forever like it rolled off our tongue like spit
we planned next year -
we had all of it planned.
of course, that didn't last. this is, temporary right?
countless hours spent on your couch at night
searching for places to be free
and run away to
i wouldn't just say that to just anyone, michael
you are going to be the first one i have really
cried over and cried into my moms arms for
everything feels like pins and needles
every time we fought i felt daggers shoot through my heart and begged for the pain to eventually numb out
what the **** did it matter? this is what love is right?
love is when you stick through everything through thick and thin.
love is giving every last bite of your food you have left, even if it was the first thing you ate all day after a long shift.
love is rolling through the punches when you see a light at the end - but what is love when you run away when help is available?
i hope and pray this is a nightmare and I wake up soon,
because another minute without you hurts as much as the first minute.
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 10:38 PM UTC
the sun will always
set and rise --
but my mind is endless
it can't decide what weather
it wants to be today
well, yesterday it was sunny
even though it was cold and rainy
it was beautiful in my eyes
with my love, it's a montauk beach
day that's perfectly sunny and warm
drinking piña coladas
but god, when im not with him
it's just like yesterday's weather.
it's so cold, sad to be outside
maybe that's the weather today,
except no rain
it's just sad
Apr 2, 2017
Apr 2, 2017 at 9:51 PM UTC
i spend more nights
dreaming of us being
joined together in
holy matrimony more
than i spend sleeping
in white noise
Mar 2, 2017
Mar 2, 2017 at 11:41 PM UTC
i find myself lost
in your brown eyes
more often than i get
lost in my face paced mind
where everything gets lost in
translation
but you,
you make it so simple
through the traffic
that occurs in my
anxious little brain
ive never been too good
at expressing my emotions
other than loud bursts or
even being quiet.
but,
God - you're the only one
who understands it.
you dismissed my fears
and make me want to
be your wife some day
a sentence I never expected to write.
thank you.
Dec 31, 2016
Dec 31, 2016 at 2:40 AM UTC
there was a lot that
you left behind on that
dreaded day
i don't really recall
being truly sad when
you passed
but i recall 18 years
of mental rehab and
5 years of on going
drug addiction
i replaced you with
my fuse remains
short and i remain
happy within chaos
that's all i remember
when you left
i know, i know
i know im getting
better without you
but mom and i's
relationship remains
dangling from the
warpath you created
between your 3 kids
i just have a lot
of questions ill never
have answered. i don't
think i miss you, though.
i just wish you could've
fixed the bridges you
destroyed before you
left.
Nov 13, 2016
Nov 13, 2016 at 9:53 AM UTC
Summer came without you this year
The sun was so bright without you
but I wish it wasn't.
I'm watching the days grow a little shorter
and I'm searching for you in the moon
but all I see is two hundred and thirty days
of mixed signals and my skin fading through another woman in front of me
That you swore you had no emotions for
I guess I deserved that after asking you to open your heart up to me.
The word love is nonexistent to me since I found out it wasn't just me in your mind at night.
Aug 22, 2016
Aug 22, 2016 at 6:32 AM UTC