Do you know how it feels like to love and love and yet, you're never enough for the person? The fact that all of it is sincere and yet, the person don't choose you. Despite how much she hurts you and never treated you right, you still choose her. I was never an option, just a comfort zone you can come back to when you needed the particular words and affection.
Was my efforts not enough? What was i doing that wasn't enough? Was my love and sincerity not enough for you?
What exactly am i waiting for? Will you even give me a chance? You have never given me a chance but you always give her countless chances. Why?
You don't know how it feels like to go through this constant nightmare that I cant wake up from.
It hurts so much and tonight, my heart aches a little bit tonight.
You don't know what it's like.
Aug 2, 2017
Aug 2, 2017 at 9:58 AM UTC
I love you but you don't love me like that.
I love you but you love her.
I love you but you would choose her in a heartbeat.
I love you to the point where my heart aches every time i see you hurting.
I love you so much, I don't remember a time I loved someone so much.
I love you but you're not mine to keep.
And, it's hurting me inside. Every bone, every cell, every ***** in my body, it hurts.
I can't think straight.
I can't type this without crying.
I can't see you without wanting to cry because your happiness is with her, not me.
Can you feel my heart?
Obviously not.
It's hidden deep inside me and I really just want to tell you everything but you have enough on your plate and it shouldn't include me, my feelings.
It's okay, I'll handle my feelings on my own. I know i can. I've done this before. I'm good at hiding it. I'm good at acting like i'm okay.
I'm so sorry for ******* things up. I didn't mean to fall but I did somehow, somewhere. I'm sorry.
Feb 25, 2017
Feb 25, 2017 at 12:35 PM UTC
I see the galaxy in your eyes,
Your movements enchant me, like a spell
That smile could heal my wounds inside my heart
You don't even need to look at me but,
I am already grinning to myself just by your existence.
Only if you know.
Distant- That is what you are.
Why does it feels like you are pushing only me away?
You put your walls so high
And, im trying my best to break through it
I've tried climbing the walls but,
I end up falling with bruises all over me.
No matter how much i try to heal myself,
I realise the only way i recover is from your love.
Oct 11, 2016
Oct 11, 2016 at 12:14 PM UTC
Today is your birthday.
I don't know you personally but i wish i did.
I want to give you everything but who am i anyways?
I wish I can comfort you with words but we're not close.
All i could do was to pray.
Pray that God will take all the pain away from you.
My heart throbs to see such a beautiful human being suffer.
I want to tell you that everything will be okay in the end.
But how could i?
I wish you all the best always.
Mar 23, 2016
Mar 23, 2016 at 12:38 PM UTC
When you smile, i smile.
When you laugh, i cant help but laugh too.
When you get sad, i get sad too.
When you're in trouble, i get worried for you.
You're just a close friend to me yet i get all these feelings inside of me,
Jealousy when you talk to other girls,
Furious when you don't reply me
I told myself countless times that you're just a friend.
But are we really just friends or something more?
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 6:01 AM UTC
Bloodshot eyes but with a smile on her face
Trying to be strong
Trying to be happy
She build up a wall so high no one bothered
Seeing everyone around her smiling and laughing,
Going to concerts and hanging out together,
Leaving her alone in despair
Her family members act like everything is okay
But she very well know that her family isn't a family anymore
"Why are you so quiet? You should talk more!" Everyone said
Funny how when she start talking, no one listens
They think she is weird and boring
And they wondered why she is such a sad soul.
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 5:19 AM UTC
I wish i was interesting
I wish i could sing beautifully in front of my friends
I wish i know how to dance, be it ballet or hiphop
I wish i can be beautiful without even trying
I wish i wasn't so scared to speak for myself
I wish i could draw or perhaps paint
I wish i was fearless, not afraid to be whoever i want
I wish people love me, the way i love them
I wish i wasn't so clumsy, in life and love
I wish i am attractive enough for boys to notice me
I wish someone could give me a tight hug now
I wish i get to meet my soulmate soon
I wish my friends understand how hard my life is
I wish my family doesn't pressure me anymore
I wish for alot of things
But none of them came true.
Nov 28, 2013
Nov 28, 2013 at 12:54 PM UTC
I have to admit i do have friends
but why do i still feel left out?
They walk in pairs
leaving me alone, like a loner.
They talk among themselves and laugh,
All their inside jokes i wouldn't understand
I wish i could join in but i wouldn't make a difference
Every time i talk or make a joke,
they just smile pitifully at me.
Am i really pathetic?
I have to say I am envious of them.
How I long for someone to share my thoughts and problems with.
I guess I just have to depend on myself.
I guess I am really a wallflower.
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 4:42 AM UTC
Wallflower
No one notices me
or even tries to talk to me
they just smile at me, assuming im okay
i am used to being alone
but sometimes i wish someone would notice that im hurting so much inside
sometimes i wish someone includes me in their conversation
sometimes i wish my friends and family valued my opinion
sometimes i wish they actually care about me
my friends and family think i have it easy
but wait till you get into my life
my life is ****** up in so many ways.
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 4:36 AM UTC