Set an alarm clock
so that I'll know
when to wake up
from my dream
of being with you.

She was waiting for him
He was too scared to tell her

5 years later

Chances has long gone
And memory happened.

I'm high from my train of thoughts
The thoughts, that's slowly killing me
And became the monster under my bed
For the past couple of years.

"Be careful. You'll drown if you go far."
Her friend said,
Not knowing that she has been drown
And already died
from her own thoughts.

My heart beating frantically
As I lay down in my bed
Never thought that I would still feel this way again
And I wanted to feel those toxics
flowing freely and burning me insides
And to hamper the pain
I am feeling right now
Rather than to feel those growing gap
between us over and over again.

The familiar feeling of burning sensation
flows through me
As I gulp down the alcohol
down my throat
With the thought of either forget you
or to remember every single thing about you
To either want to feel the feeling of love again
or being scared **** to feel the pain.

"I expected for the worst
and you never fail to disappoint me."
She said to herself as
he walked away again
and this time he never looked back.

"Hey. Stay still", she said to her tears
as the priest gives his last blessing
to the body laid in front of them
with the rest of her family.

Home? or *HOUSE?
Did I heard it right?
I'm scared its a yes.
Because I felt everything again.

I let the sun melt me
the moment you inverted
that bewitching eyes of yours

That jiffy makes my heart
pounding and longing
to get out of my rib cage

To have a glimpse
of a specimen
I used to love
and continue to keep up
the *adulation

How does it feel to be like home?
When  your home feels like a house?

Hating at first
Not getting into any attachment
No intention to love
Never been imagined to
But now, I am looking for your shadow
Your shadow your face mask
You used to wear day by day
A statement started
And I can't help it not getting any close to you
No matter how I tried my best
To let it burst for others
I just can't
Time, effort, my ingredients
To catch your attention
And give me some
As time slowly walked by
Your shadow leaves you
A current flows in you
Creating your own and conquering my own
And I find myself longing to be with
No second, no minute, no hour, no day passed that I don't dream
Now and then, everything has changed
Like me, you show no interest
Aback was the impact
It soothes within me
And functioned in my brain
That connects everything
You leave me broken just like the others did
From being strangers to totally strangers at all
And crying is all I can do