anxiety refuses to let me sleep
I stay awake with the lights on, sitting upright and
my tears carry on weird and haunting melodies—
I would love to hear the soft sweet words, and hair pettings:
really, I'd like you to treat me that same way;
but for me to ask for your authoritative love is so taboo
so I've changed my style — for this, I can't be the same —
but Summer will change, and other days will Rise up,
and one day I will get the Love I want and Deserve:
hurry my love, hurry here: kiss away my lonely tears,
and hold me near when my heart gets blue:
hurry my love, hurry here: kiss away my childhood tears,
and hold me near when my halo gets blue
stories manifold, stirring the trees, and I'm so drowsy but my eyes refuse to close due to scary memories . . .