Philosophers gather
Procrastinating through chatter
saying what's the point of doing anything
when nothing matters
Still waters run deep
Talk is cheap
By flapping the tongue,
what do they hope to achieve?

Yet a word is the origin
A word can move mountains
affect emotions
and lift up another
The tongue is a rudder
Like the ****** of a dagger
is a careless word uttered
A word given must be honoured

Endless toil and strenuous work to keep the lights on bright,
only to be disappointed when you find that everyone has light
Looking for something rarer you go on a quest of plight
Dig through soil straight to the core and find a treasure you might
Only to have thieves come in and steal it in the night,
so you mound defences build up walls and equip yourself to fight
Then you see with stones attached you're like a bird that cannot take flight
and like a dog the colours fade you only see black and white
Though they try to take your life completely out of spite,
there's something they cannot steal from you that's hidden from all sight,
to take your love they don't know how because they have no right
and though they howl and bark at you they really have no bite.

Go ahead and make your mark, the flame is already sparked
Gather with the other fires or go out in the dark

When you run from other people you're giving into sin
Because you ran from other souls your light is going dim

Seek forgiveness while there's time the hour's getting late
The people God put in your life are all tied to your fate

Turn from sin and turn from evil but pray for a soul's remission
No one has authority to hurt a soul without the LORD's permission

When the end of the earth comes, death will take all children of eve
But a spirit will breathe life into the graves and grant good souls reprieve

A new beginning will unfold for those who held their heads high
They will shine like the sun and spread their wings across the sky

But those who always ran from truth will learn they are unfit
Though they try to run again they fall into a pit

I don't mean to delve too far into the past
though sometimes I can't help myself
I remember a time quite long ago
when I was just a little boy
I wore a happy smile and bow
and was still so full of joy
I wasn't afraid of my own shadow
Trauma hadn't yet struck its blow

Then I waved those times goodbye
In exchange for what and why?
My mistakes make me shake
I cannot sleep, I lie awake
All my recent memories are of groaning
not exploring, but preserving

Nowadays I know too much
and do too little, I'm out of touch
bad memories have me petrified
I sleep with one eye open wide
Hand in bowl, spoon to mouth
I eat to make the pain abide
all I want do is hide
but I cannot let this slide

It stops me in my tracks
and gives me panic attacks
Darkness on my mind
keeps me in a bind
I'm not one of those people who
sees no evil, hears no evil
I feel evil
and am a target of the devil
The snake begins to rattle
Signals for a battle
It wants to eat up my resolve
Devour me like cattle
I don't expect applause
when fighting for my cause
I'm only trying to save myself
the way it always was
I failed everyone I love
and blamed everyone I hate
consumed revenge all I could
yet it would not satiate
I hope it's not too late
to change this gruelling fate
Those I love are gone
all I can do now is wait

This world is insanity
Their invention of gravity
It keeps you down
Until you bow to the ground
You're living a lie
They made you jump through hoops
But deep down inside
You know you can fly
And shatter the sky
But then you could never
Look back to say bye
How vain is the vanity
Of running in circles
Where pitfalls abound
Only to trip on a mound
You can walk on water
With faith you won't drown
You can do anything you desire
You don't have to frown
This envious society
That feasts upon piety
And fear - you know it's unsound
Yet you keep going round
And around and around
You worked all your life
By the sweat of your brow
You deserve finest garment
Yet prefer to be bound

There's not much to do
except take a curse
and make it better
I'll get better
Be a trend setter
and keep my word
to the letter
I keep hurting myself
Forsaking what's sure
in favour of
bad inner chatter
I want to be kind
Swearing or blessing
I'm choosing the latter
My tongue is a rudder
Steers the body
like a ship
I haven't forgotten her
If my words will be pure
then my blessing is sure
In saying what's good
I'm finding a cure

I see all my dreams
That I once dared to dream
Exist all around me
I made them real

I dreamed of being
Left all alone
Like a kid in a big house
To do what I want

I thought I'd keep going
But then I stopped
Got what I wanted
Then everything flopped

Can't enjoy anything
Food tastes so bland
Can't make new friends
Monsters abound

I get tired around three
Then I get on my knees
And ask God please
Put me out of this misery

I was always a fighter
But now I'm less bold
Like a kid all over again
Just wanna do what I'm told

I don't want to rebel anymore
Want to submit to the LORD
Rekindle the fire
Before I turn cold

A spirit upon me
Won't let me stand
Spirit of falling
Like being choked by a hand
My stomach's a storm
My head is a fog
Took pride in obedience
No better than a dog
Now I'm off on my own
I smile and play nice
Though inside I'm dead
And colder than ice
Keep things to myself
It cannot be said
I bottle it up
My friends have all fled
Fear of the unknown
Has turned into dread
A windstorm is howling
I feel faint in the head
Smell something foul
And drop like lead
Lose control of my bowels
Wake up ****** and red
Sometimes on the floor
Sometimes in bed
Clean the stains with a towel
This cannot be said
So hard to talk about
I just swallow the pain
Reminisce about my life
Going down the drain
But I do not complain
Too proud to complain
Still somewhat sane
Too proud to complain

There's no room for love
in times of war
I've been fighting a conflict
since the dawn of my life
I always wanted to love
To have a relationship
To get to know their family
and for them to know mine
but evil kept me single
I was never jovial
Carefree and happy
In fact, I was the opposite
careful and unhappy
and under attack
I don't love myself
and no one loves me back
So I don't believe in love
The kind between man and woman
I only know God's love
when I pray to heaven
Not to make me a winner
but to have mercy on me, a sinner

Wishing the air in the city was cleaner
but the pollution is dense
Wishing my stomach was less irritated
but it signals for prudence
Wishing I got my *** kicked in school by teachers
instead of the students
Wishing maturity and grace had a higher place in society
instead of youthful insolence
Wishing truth was easier to find and grasp
instead of ignorance
Wishing my dad taught me structure and discipline
instead of patience
Wishing my godparents taught me about God
instead of their disappearance
Wishing my rebellious phase ended with time
and I could stop being tense
Wishing I could simply live my life
without all the nonsense

If you ain't good, you ain't interesting

We are abused but we know not guilt
We shoot to the sun, not to the ground
The hammer awaits us, but we don't shout
We are adorned flowers, thus we stick out
They tried to uproot us but we refuse to wilt
Tried to make us like they are, make us tilt
We have a problem with the way the world is bent
Our message has been written, wrapped and sent
They took our message and cross-examined it
Called us insane and tried to cure our insanity
Made us more manageable, an object to study
But they didn't see we are the corner stones of society
We are prophets the world sweeps under a rug
We get stabbed in the back each time we give a hug
The kind the world refuses to listen to
And gives us drugs to chew
If they could they would give us lobotomies
And electric shocks, like they did throughout history
Some say they are not ready
Not on our frequency
But in reality
They love lies and secrecy
For they are servants to money
Most of our parents were such
You must die to be free
Is that asking too much?

Rise of technology
is the downfall of morality
Choked by materialism
Witnessing the decline of society
Why am I afraid
of every unfamiliarity
Like a foreign parasite
is attacking my sanity
I want to live simply
Grow and be happy
but even the fools
are running circles around me
With their pomp and their money
While I sit and worry
I want to do something drastic
Without turning plastic

It's hard to go out
and make new friends
when you still haven't thrown away
the garbage of the past
How can you move on
when you still haven't given up
on the people who hurt you
Are people replaceable?
Let hell open up
and swallow the wicked
Leave only the good folks
A martyr's dream
for first they will **** us
As they abused us
While we pray to heaven
Not to refuse us

I cannot change the past
The present is a gift
The future too is set in stone
Unbeknownst to human wit
The hour's gotten late
The noise is dying down
One minute I'm smiling wide
The next a downcast frown
Depends on the air's whim
The pressure and my sense
Sometimes it feels so thin
Other times it feels so dense
Whatever's on my mind
I just hope it's kind
To do evil is to slog and grind
Yet to do good appears blind
Now I'm here where I belong
It feels good to be at home
Where I dance like to a song
All day and all night long
I'm am utter slave to fate
Nothing else will sate
My rotten human pride
To fight it is to hate
The truth will set you free
The story was written long ago, you see
We are all just pawns
Another of the throng
We were meant for hardship
Meant to make mistakes
To whatever's meant for us we're drawn
The world's a stage, a play
People are unknowing actors
Those who deviate from the script flay
In pain for what they lack
Some to never get it back
For an outstanding performance
You receive a bonus
To live another day
Under the sun's rays
I am going with the flow
Trying not to strife
No choice but to do the right thing
Though it feels like such a lie
To the song of life I sing
One day I'll spread my wings
But for now I am open to tomorrow
Whatever it may bring

Oh blissful happiness,
upon whose paths only the innocent walk
until some evil spirit rends their hopes
and casts them off - where children dance
and the fool walks in a trance!
I have heard the devils talk
The way they ****** one into an act
and then mock without end,
and there's no going back!
They tell you about liberty, how you are free
until you bend and succumb to misery
Though wise, I was unable to discern
hypocrisy and the hypocrite
until recently, when I learned
they just want you to share their agonizing fate!
Oh mercy,
I thought no ill could come upon me,
and I would rise above any predicament
Woe is me!
How could I have known about the inner plague
that comes with every thought
of choosing instead of love, something worse
and doubting the laws of the universe!
By the time I saw, it was already too late
too much time has passed,
and vengeance had decided my fate
I seek revenge over mercy,
thus barring me from my own happy state
How quickly a happy heart can turn into hate,
and love into pain!
I want to retire to the womb from which I was born
from which I was torn, and pretend
to have not seen anything at all
I deny the ones I loved
and had compassion for - no more!
There's only bitterness left,
and no comforter in the world before me
for I reject simple joy and correction
for hard-hearted wrath against my oppressors

Another night
Another ******
One person defines
An entire gender
In my room I hide
I hate womankind
Yet how I long
To sleep
By your side
Eyes open wide
Spiritually blind
I just see your name
Reminds how I cried
In pain over our corpse
The day we both died
Now I must sigh
And utter goodbye

Cannot be mended
No one can fix it
Might as well be blended
To play games with the heart
Deserves a punishment hard
To take what was love
And simply discard
It hurts the daughters
It haunts the sons
Broken hearts
Spiritually done
The heart breaks but once
After that it's gone
Torn apart
Eternally wronged
But woe to the one
The breaker of hearts
The player of games
To hell they depart

My faith tells me to hold on
while at the same time to let go
My faith tells me to love my neighbour
yet most people will burn forever
My blackened heart is against these teachings
It burns hotter and hotter
I can't let control freaks command me
Or I'll be another sheep for the slaughter
I hate my sister and brother
I hate my father and mother
The world has nothing to offer
I hate this place
I hate this place
I don't belong
My flesh is weak but my spirit is strong
The world has it backwards
The soul is at the centre of the body
All these practitioners
Mental health doctors are liars
For they say the brain is at the command
When in fact it is the soul
I don't have a soul - I am one!
Though the soul rides on obedience
And these people are out of control

In silence I recall my name
I look down at my feet and grass
With hope not to fail
This crossroad I must pass
Where illusion and confusion reign
I look up in paleness
The rope my cross and nails
I used to be alive
Unburdened by the grave
I was one of the ocean's sails
Wind caressed my skin
Sunlight filled my eyes
So careless I used to be
Now I'm trying to control
Going against the flow
The wind rages against me
Trying to save my soul
It must be one of fate's ironies
They say I have to die to myself
To rise and be reborn
In death I lose myself
And then my sorrow ends

Sifting memories through a mesh
Trying to clean my mind like a litter box
Until all that remains is fresh
Still I haven't learned what to do
With the *** and the poo
I tried throwing my own crap at it
I tried swallowing it
I even tried to sit on it
No matter what I do I can't discard it
There is no trash bin that will erase it
I suppose I have to work with it

Taught to surrender
Forced to submit
By a raised hand
Threatening to hit
I wait and I wait
For someone to come
Tell me what to do
And call me dumb
I may have escaped
Times may have changed
But the mentality stayed
I live life numb
And play dead
Waiting for someone to come
To ruin my day
I pray and I pray
Ah Lord why
Am I attacked in the night
By visions and fright
Is it because during the day
I forget to walk in the light?
I feel disarmed
Yet still forced to fight
Enduring the strife
With an aching mind
And a knife in my back
For the horrors of sight
Which I witnessed in plight
Do grind me down
Yet I ain't blind
I'll be all right
For I am kind
And compassionate to others...

I need time to unwind

Where have I sinned, that this spirit of dread
has befallen my head, and made my bones shake?
I am robbed of peace, my eyes drip tears
yet no one will come to my aid
My foundation is bitter, my enemies all around
I am locked in my room, awaiting the end
For the evil that was done to me
has left a lasting impression
I cannot sleep at night, in the day I faint
for those who have shown me no mercy
are in a happy state
They plunder and take my blessing for themselves
My faith is a trophy upon their shelves
Hypocrisy reigns in the land
I am like a parentless child who rebelled against crime
People saw me as an obstacle to their schemes
They acted in wrath against me to further their dreams
No one shows kindness to one whose in peril
They tore me apart limb from limb
until there was nothing left for me to tell
Is this the inheritance of the one who longs for truth
Who chose love and kindness from youth?
Justice is on its knees praying for release
When will it arise to avenge my cries?
Vain! It's so vain how they move about
What do they hope to achieve
with endless vexation?
They destroy the meek in their goings
They steal and wreak havoc fully knowing
that what they do pins people to the ground
They destroy everyone who is not like them
To make war against such is to be sound

This world is a testing place
It prepares us for the life to come
There are no tears in heaven
Those who don't cry now are cursed
These aren't death throes but growing pains
Every time they used me as a stepping stone
Every time they betrayed me
I chose to extend peace back to them
I did not fight back
I am a stumbling block to their pride
Going from place to place receiving blows,
only to have God elevate me to a point
Where my uptick makes them squeal
And squirm like spoiled toddlers
I take no pleasure in it
There is a pain on my conscience
I could have done more to serve my maker
Yet to my credit
I chose blindness and death over evil
All these memories I have of being used
They **** me off enough to stick to the straight path
I am being tried and tested
Yet the heat of the furnace does not hurt me
I do not fear my own destruction
But what I might do in haste
To the oppressor
I struggle to forgive the evildoer in my heart
Though outwardly I forgive them instantly
The pain they caused is undeniable
At night I reflect upon it
I cannot sleep without reliving the past
Replaying their words in my mind
I'm glad I never caused a huge ripple
But dwelled in the shade until I was ready
Going from dark place to dark place
After all, we still live in the shadows

Backstabbers cheaters and liars
Backsliders traitors and backbiters
There's so many opportunists with opportunities
to cause someone's downfall to give them pleasure
To have fame and notoriety, they like that most
Their words are now heard from coast to coast
Echoing deep inland all the way to the shore
Deeds that never would have had a platform before
Men know how to throw down but to raise up they are unfit
How does one live in such a climate?
I always thought it was the duty of man
to give order and peace to the land
It seems serpents have infiltrated the masses now
To do evil they can but to do good they don't know how
We need to come together and hurl out the snakes
No matter the stakes, no matter what it takes
Or else justice will fall and things will get worse
And the people will groan under a dark curse

This city life is mentally toilsome
My mood shifts like a rocking pendulum
Working for ****** isn't fun
Fall in love with one and you're done
My eyes are bloodshot behind a locked door
What the world has to offer, doesn't cut it anymore
I use drugs to fill the gap in my soul
And to counteract the meds that make me sore
One minute I'm pacified, the next thirst for gore
I try not to succumb in this spiritual war
I implore you not to search for me, you will not find
I can't tell the truth without being unkind
The average person makes me want to go blind
Demons are feeding on my lobotomized mind
The same kind of demons that made these machines
The works of the hands have men on their knees
A stagnated society with feminist themes
It works for ******, who shouldn't lead
I serve no purpose, and feel no ease
I just want my own land and to eat fruit from trees

The night is upon me, commence end of day reflection
Trying to sleep while thoughts swirl in my head
I've lived like a robot on autopilot
Resistant to change

The more I think, the more frustrated I get
Trying to remember but also forget
Why I'm alone in my bed
And where is the one who lives in my head

In the morning I'm happy
To have survived another night
And got some rest, feeling my best
But by golly I can't make the right decisions

For the things I promised at night to myself
Do not come to fruition in the dawning light
Every time I make plans it comes to naught
Maybe next week, maybe next month

The months turn to years, then decades and that's life
Funny I can't control anything including the present
I can't alter the future by myself
I cannot give clarity to my past when I'm all alone

Running amok, judging
Pointing out flaws as if I were helping
Building an empire by stepping on people
Choosing who to spare and who to cast down
I killed everyone and now I'm alone
Chased them all off, and proclaimed myself victor
It wasn't until the scene ended and I had a long rest
I closed my eyes and the horror sunk in
I saw all those people I redirected with words
They've all moved on while I stayed in place
The visions wouldn't stop, I heard my own voice
Being mocked and contradicted by my conscience
The people I hurt looked at me weird
I built my house on sand, but the foundation has shifted
The tables have turned and now I must suffer
To see those I tried to control ascending to greatness
Walking through doors that have long since shut for me
I can only peer through the window or climb a wall
Before being chased away like a thief

Seeing birds fly, they needn't a reason to live
They don't grieve about what they don't give
What do I call this weight on my back,
and if I were to stop, who would pick up the slack?
I need to work or the worms creep in
I cannot rest or rot seeps in
Turning in bed trying to ignore the pain
Controlling everything as sickness takes the reigns
Sometimes I wish I could let go
I wish things would fall into place on their own

There will come a time when life becomes undying
The lion will close his mouth and sleep in his den
The raven and the crow will be silent that day
For lack of prey the wolf will become thinner
For dinner he'll eat herbs and grass
It'll come to pass that the bear will rest with the doe
The flow of the river will quench their thirst
Their stomachs will burst not with food but with joy
And man will no longer employ weapons of war
Their girls and their boys will no longer weep
They will keep their parents close to their hearts
The darts and the bullets will no longer fly
The sky will sing and the earth will know rest
It will bless mankind with the tree of life
Strife will cease and good will be the wine
You and I will dine with our ancestors of old
This story is told and written, it is coming and sure
For those who endured through this fallen time
With hearts that remained pure

The wicked surround the righteous
Like tribesmen around a flame
To a song of joy they dance
All while in a trance
Sometimes they get too close
And learn a lesson dire
That evil's only for a moment
But the righteous live forever

The good walk in a line
Straight and narrow as she goes
Everyone wants to turn them aside
And ask them what they hold
Yet when they tell the truth
They refuse to hear what's told
For wisdom is too high for fools
Yet better than fine gold

The wicked surround the righteous
Like moths drawn to a lamp
They do not fear the Son
And aren't a target of the evil one
They like darkness more than light
They're like bugs under a rug
They mock and scorn the purer souls
Until God pulls the plug

There once was a raging inferno in my core
Over time it receded into a moderate blaze
Then a small fire
Now it's just a spark
It was hard when I had to douse my own flames
but God ensured I didn't end up a smoking ash heap

I wondered for a while
why I was unable to reignite my passion
even with gentle and gradual guidance
I had little drive or power
I've noticed how zeal can burn the people I loved
and turn their faces sour

Yet when I needed them most, they just stared
When I needed someone to stand up for me
They didn't dare -  for their minds were elsewhere
But my spark is still there
Waiting, dormant
For someone to love, for a reason to care

Bullies like to push people around
Their fantasy depends on it
And when it crumbles to the ground
they throw an awful fit
They try to mold their vision
To capture you and bind
Ignore it or show you don't care
and they appear out of nowhere to remind
They think they're kings and queens
who like to talk and scream
Intimidate and coerce the pawns
through dark, deceptive means
Yet morning always dawns
With the sun appears the rubble
I don't want to rip a fool
from their sleep or burst their bubble
Yet I refuse to let them feed on me
through my skin to my bone
So a warm corner to call my own
is really all I need
My wisdom and experience is for me
Not for someone who doesn't heed
So I will simply watch and learn
as the wicked bleed and burn

In a world of half-truths
Where everyone likes to argue
And prove themselves right
To win every fight
Life is a game to some
But I feel too dumb
To play like the devil
I'm not on their level
I avoid the bread of evil
To feast on holy gravel
For I have rocks in my gut
Stomach pain keeps me in a rut
I recall things I said
When I'm lying in bed
They said I rock the boat
So they threw me overboard
To sever the cord
Between me and the LORD
Now I'm sinking like lead
Nearly dead
I can feel the compression
But here's my confession
Though I've been tossed out to sea
And they celebrate victory over me
I've become more intelligent
My desire for truth is pertinent
On the inside I'm full of glee
And my soul is happy

She treats love like a carrot
As soon as you think you're within reach
She pulls away

She treats *** like a weapon
Ensures the shame will be yours
And you'll come crawling back on all fours

You are her stepping stone
You can give the world to her on a silver platter
You can give your life for hers and it won't matter

She is a spoiled daughter
A warmonger
She is the devil's laughter

If you survive her
You will learn to despise her
She is the spider and you're the fly in her web

I am drawn to those who suffer
I try to pull people from the fire
Often I get burned
But I learn

Why am I drawn to those who suffer?
I ponder
It's because hardship is for the good
In a world where people are often

Misunderstood

It helped me get through lonely nights
and gave me courage for a bit
It wasn't until I tried to quit
That's when I learned it bites

The way it fights
Can't turn your back
Always staring
Ready to attack

It's my fault
I should have more sense
I shouldn't have done what I did
Under the influence

I wasn't myself
Now I'm facing the pain
But I will learn to live again
I quit today

I am not afraid of my mortality
I have grown accustomed to shaming
All this dirt thrown at my face
I'm still praying for the best

My relationship with God is my greatest asset
I don't mind if you share my passion
Turn back today, obey, nobody can say
they have mapped their own future or fate

I'm afraid of the power God has given me
To have a mind that can see beyond what's in front of me
I really don't want to be seen until I'm ready
In the past I've hurt some people accidentally

My people used me as a stepping stone I confess
Yet time rolls on and things progress
I don't mind being the last to clean up the mess
I like being last, at the bottom, unnoticed

I used to carry a bundle of love in my hands
Now I have hatred seeping through my fingers
My filter is clogged and I can hardly contain
The rage within, I feel like puking it all up

But I'll get over it
When the time comes I will get back up
And prove that love is stronger than hate
Just as darkness never overcame the light

I will let go of what's not for me
I'll control what goes inside me
Then I will like the words that exit me
And with love inside I will be free

Hatred and love are similar emotions
Especially when the one you loved
Is the one you now fear
You tried to feed me to your dogs
And feast on my tears
But I fought your dogs and won

You blotted my sun
You could have told me the truth
That we weren't meant to share fate
You left me to figure it out
and pick up the pieces of my broken heart
on my own

My heart isn't stone
But my uptick is steady
While you gradually decrease
Into a faded memory
My compassion for you will cease
And I'll do nothing as you gasp, like you did to me

Morning to noon, evening to night
Each day is a new one in the concrete light
A light that notes and observes and writes down
All that we do; each smile and each frown

For each breath we exhale, each word we release
There's a legacy that follows, that will not cease
For all that we mock, and all that we preach
We will receive tenfold, from the force we beseech

Our words, when we talk,
stand on their own feet, and walk
Into the light, no matter how small
Where all are as one, or not at all.

And so it begins, the waterfall of tears
It's been years and it's no longer fears
that are making me stay, I feel enraged
Today's the day I hit the toad

I want you dead and out of my head
You hear me? Get out - OUT!
You ***** rotten sewer rat
I took a ****, it's you I shat

Vengeance, whether cold or hot
I will serve, and blot you out
I used to care, while you just mocked
Trying to help, was all for naught

The day I was born was the day of an accident
Parents never wanted me so they tried to destroy me
Yet at the same time ensured I was never free
Ganged up on me
Stood behind a wall I was too short to see
Then kicked me out at eighteen
To be torn apart by wolves
To ensure I fell, what was the point
Never had a place to call home
So full of nerves I couldn't break the ice with the girl I loved
And she loved me, what a pity
We could have had a beautiful life
All this time I lived in misery
They call me insane and make sure I'm drugged
Without the drugs I'd ******* **** all these bullies
For making this **** life even *******
How am I to live when devils surround?
Peace and love are nowhere to be found in this war
Nothing to live for, nowhere to be
No one to talk to, no one to see
Yet I tried to help others any way I could
I didn't want them to feel as low as me
So why am I targeted
Why must I fight Satan himself
And his armies of devils by the skin of my teeth?
Now comes the dark night of the soul
This is the closest to hell I've ever been
And I feel this way every day
I sigh and cry
Why do I try?
I don't want your money or fame
I don't want to play your stupid game
I'm alone and I no longer want to be
Please God put me out of my misery

They're gonna peel the truth out of you
and you cannot escape
It's not a question, you will betray
all the things your conscience wouldn't say

You will admit
All that you did
You wanted to play
While others replay

Your foul crimes in their hearts
Memories of your deeds won't depart
It's no use to pray
You did it to one you did it to God

For tribes and races
Borders and fences
Are wholly needed
Keep them separated
America is Babylon
***** of the ancients
Where history is erased
And truth is defaced
She places her children
On pedestals of fame
Then sends them to hell
Where they burn in flames
And she laughs
And shifts blame
America the great
To her its a game

Frozen and lost
Trapped on this road
They all said to move
and not to be slow
Now it's time to go
but where should I go
and why would I not
want to be where I was?
But time has a cost
it proves against all
the longer one stalls
the less one grows
and before you know
you're pinned to the floor
feeble and poor
asking for more
I continue to sit
where the wind doesn't blow
stagnant and alone
utterly thrown
Into a world where the light
is the glow of a computer screen
and the only hope
is the next hit of dopamine
Now what do I have
on this earth, in this place
Nothing to show
A complete disgrace
cause I went with the flow
to a world without rest
Now I'm stuck in this space
to clean up my mess

I used to trust people
and wear my heart on my sleeve
I still do these things
but it 's nothing more than a leap of faith

So I put on my blindfold
Stretch out my hand for peace
with a smile on my face
What do I achieve?

You sick ***** can't **** me
so you scheme
how can you destroy me
without sacrificing your dreams

You want to be reproached
You want me to hurt you
Teach you a lesson
So you feel something

If every one of you rats is a cockroach
holding a knife behind your back
gossiping and mocking when I'm not around
why should I open up?

You came uninvited
You made yourself at home
Made a chair of my back
and sat on your throne

And I have no defences
Except the almighty God
In whom I don't trust
It's why my anxiety is up

My head is a mess
My heart's in distress
I want to be motionless
To sink into the mattress
and dissolved into nothingness
I close my eyes and see blankness
Chaotic shapes and darkness
I see other people's happiness
and can't help but be thankless
for what I possess
but I'm learning to let it bother me less

Friends close, enemies closer;
they haunt my nights and days.
As much as I hate to admit it,
there's wisdom in this phrase.
A good person travels undetected,
they do not lie in wait.
They do not leave a mark on you
but leave you to your fate.
An evil person will try to latch onto you
like a parasite;
they bite and sting, they tear your wings
and keep you up at night.
You try to rip them out your chest,
and put the trophy on your shelf,
only to feel like you lost a better version of yourself.
A spiritual war we're in, there is no cure for it;
we're continually attacked and mocked and bit
These forces we can't outwit - only outlast.
Demonic armies with their hoards keep coming back for more
Sending people into our lives that shake us to our core.
When will it end? How will it end?
A question I often ask
What's the point of striving on
Should just wear a mask.
All the pressure on a human being
abused and crushed, to dust we return
from whence we came, crying again.
The tears burn, and yet we learn
there's nothing to do with evil but turn.