I'm terrified
I might fall
                      For you
I want to land and
I don't know
                       I will
You are perfect
In this moment
                            For me

Horoscopes are *******
Always were, always will be.
My fate was never decided by stars or monsters
Living in my head

And then one night the stars went dark
Leaving me alone with the monsters

Horoscopes are *******
But I'm still a Gemini
The twins
Outgoing and introverted
Lover of every bit of life
Lest it means I'm required to commit.

When the stars went dark
It was time to stop pretending
The stars didn't matter.

Breathe
                           Always
Breathe

Through dreams and nightmares
Joy and anger

Breathe
                               Just
Breathe

Let me tell you
a thing
or two
about Mothers.

Mothers love their children
Fiercely.

Mothers will tell you
all about
Their 18 year old son
or
college aged daughter.

Mothers will do this
while making out with
You
the 25 year old
They thought was cute
at the bar.

Wars burnt me
Out on everyone's problems.
"You promised."

I'm not a man of my word
I'm not supposed to be your hero
I'm not anyone's savior.

But I promised.

She followed me
From gray skies to gray skies
Timbered trees to dark forest.

The gray skies made her talk
The dark forest made her feel safe
The terror wasn't quite so terrible.

Because I promised.

One was a mistake
Two was being lonely
Three was when I hurt inside
Four wanted something to do
Five I don't even remember

I don't know what started all this
Mucking about.

I know it wasn't you.

Blue, blue, blue.

                              The eyes.

                                                    I could never
Forget her eyes.


                                                                 Or heart.