My thoughts tormenting me
Thinking of the worst to come
How long until I fall apart
Slowly losing myself
Discarding my hopes and dreams
Succumbing to the numbness
My worst fears tearing me apart
Soul crushed and mind bruised
Pondering on what I should do
Stuck in the void that is my mind

Wandering thoughts to pass the time
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i'm not being hurt
i'm not in any real pain

but i can't stop feeling this
hollowness

i think i'm broken or something.

she has no motivation
and feels nothing but
sadness
that made her scared
doctors said she needs
help
for what?
she asked herself
how was she going to take the
news?
she was told she was
depressed
depression was something that
her dad denied she had
she wants drugs or pills
to stop the feeling of emptiness
but they tell her she’s
too young
for the anti-depressants
that everyone gets
when they feel the way she
does
she wants to die
asking why she is still
alive?

did you
miss
feeling
like this
oh well, baby, i am back
hello,
i'm
here again
i've missed
haunting you
i've missed
the
darkness
inside
your head
i've missed
your
inner screaming
for
help
that
no one
can
ever
hear
i've missed
this
i
won't
go
away
not for a very long time
i
won't
leave
you
as some always do
i'll stay
for as long
as
you give me a reason to
i'll stay
because
i know
how
much
you love
having
me
around

What If one day
I Die
Would you cry for me?
Would you be happy that I'm gone?
Would you be free from the burden that I've caused?

Because to tell you honestly
I'm tired...I'm so... so tired of
Me being me
because being me is what you hate,
Its what stresses you out, and,
Its what you don't need in your life.

A burden, A mistake, A failure
Whatever I do... these words
are solid written in my face.
No amount of achievements,
accomplishments or solutions
can change your way of seeing me this way

Sad it may seem.
I can't change what you think of me
trust me, I tried, I tried so hard.