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Lexi Sep 17
You don’t want to die.
No.
You want happiness.

You want to wake up in the morning feeling alive with each breath that comes easily and weightless; You just want stop feeling like this is a nightmare you can’t wake up from.

The possibility of happiness manipulates you into thinking you can have it then, inconveniently at the most in opportune time reminds you that happiness is just not something you can have no matter how deep the yearning you have to submerge yourself in it; happiness is there, all around yet just out of reach so that you can see but never manage to have it.

You’re hopeless, alone in a cold darkness that suffocates you, leaving you breathless and isolated from others by past wounds that wont heal.

At times you’re overwhelmed, like a deer in headlights you can’t move; feeling paralyzed not knowing what to do, say, think, should you sit? Waiting until you “unfreeze”
you’re frozen in an attempt to pullaway from an invisible hand that has a tight grasp of your upper arm. Eventually it releases its hold allowing you to move once more leaving you to now wondering, lost on what to do .

Sometimes you’re trying to find reason to live, more reasons than your kids. If it weren’t for the kids you wouldn’t be here. You have tried so many times. But are left to fight for yourself. You’re all you can depend on in the end. Whenever that will be.
Uanne Sep 16
Today would have marked your 70th year,
A milestone bright, a day so dear.
I wonder often, in silent thought,
How we’d have celebrated, how joy would be sought.

As time goes on, the pain won’t fade,
Your love’s a comfort that’s never swayed.
Though you’re gone, you’re never far,
Your memory shines like the brightest star.

Every milestone brings your kindness near,
A gap you left that none can fill here.
My love for you remains ever bright,
Your love still guides me, even out of sight.
Dylan Sep 11
Place one hand on my shoulder
and guide my head under
You welcomed me to the world
so let me drown at your fault
Smile at me faintly as the waves
ripple over my eyes and fill my lungs
Like a babe being baptised
you hold the back of my skull
Now, not to keep me from drowning
but to show me your gentle touch
As my body erupts in panic, I flail
I feel your love
And for the slights you caused
I feel your sorrow
But I am too far gone, no longer
needing your hands to keep me afloat
Or to hold me under
2020 was a dark place, lately I feel myself returning to that place (to that mentality, and I feel her at the centre of my issues)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOTHER!!!!!!!!!  
always a place in my heart......
roses and mental thoughts
love and care..
Be Blessed always..
we got this....!
to my sistahs..
united we shall stand....
@inside the fences....
s.h.e_Is Eternal..
happy birthday wishes
Your the womb that carried these diamonds..
The shelter that harbored the extended mini cities...
The feet that traveled the valleys highs and lows....
and
your memories will always be what follows....
Today we embrace the hands that cooked, washed, scrubbed, and wrote the songs that'll never be forgotten..
The songs are your vocals.
we have listened to from birth and beyond..
Love you!!
From the daughters...
Abi Winder Sep 2
somedays,
i will make a cup of coffee
for my mum and i.
seek solace at the table
find comfort in each other's company.

these are the moments i need.

this is the sweet,
amongst the sour.
Morgan Howard Aug 30
Hyperventilating
Gasping for air
Lightheaded
My faint whispers
"Help me"
My bedroom door opens
My mother walks in
"Morgan"
Her annoyed tone is ringing
in my ears
I hear the door close again
She left me
I feel abandoned
And I lay there
All alone
More whispers escape my lips
"Why? Why? Why?"
I needed someone in that moment
I needed comfort
Yet all I feel is emptiness
This literally happened last night
TangerineBlu3 Aug 30
"Don't cry, child!
And you should really stop wearing all this black"
"Your sadness is illogical-
Oh, how about a nice new bag?"

"I know you think you're gay,
But I think you simply have yet to find the right man!"
"Don't be so dramatic, you know I want for you, only-
what we mothers- only can."

Well, mother-
I don't need your misguided love
Your assurances are idiotic
And your guilt-trips, once so potent, no longer bring me down  

So, please~
Please.
Do tell me again, there's still a span
Of space reserved for me
within thy deity's plan

See, I don't believe in fate
In the same way you cling to yours
I'm a nihilistic atheist, and your bigotry made me who I am
just to be clear, I'm not targeting anyone's religion or beliefs just the way they are weaponised by some. thank you :)
Reuben F Aug 26
I love you very much.
I see tears running down
Though your eyes shine
And it seems you're forgetful.

Luck pulled you out of a hat...
Destiny took you by the hand
And Life smiled upon you
As Time waited graciously.
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