that’s like saying
sixty-degree water isn’t hot
just because it isn’t boiling,
and it isn’t cold either.
my body feels heavy
after
fifty-ton anchors
pulling my frozen limbs under.
and i don’t like the feeling.
and it’s so ******* cold
to breathe.
i had a thought today:
the world would go on
if i were gone.
no one would notice.
it was comforting—
no one would grieve.
no one.
but me.
it’s no fun, you know;
i would know.
nonsense,
breathed in too many chemicals,
droplets of poison,
in my mind.
people who know you
will be affected,
or at least, perhaps,
some of them,
whether you want to admit it or not.
well, i think
there’s a difference
between people knowing you
and loving you,
or perhaps knowing you
is a kind of love,
but it never is.
i thought
therapy could help me get over
my fear of death,
so I could—
well, you know...
death serves a sweet martini,
and I could use a drink,
’cause i can't see
past the past.
Oh, man,
it's
Happy Hour
Written: September 16-19, 2025
Published: September 19, 2025