We tend to forget that there were once trees when we lay our heads to sleep.

I've been asleep for so long but I woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of the rain dissolving the soil  
every time I start to fall asleep again I feel slightly suffocated by my thoughts
and then I think of you
I think of you here
but the thing is that it scares me
all of the what ifs and the uncertainty of it all
you probably don't even want to see me

what would you think of me if i told you that i label the passing of years by what boy was breaking my heart at the time?

I guess I'm just going to have to be okay with being your sometimes.

So tell me dear, is it okay with you if I worry about you?
Do I have your consent to cry over you at 4 am in fear of losing you?
Do you mind if I let my anxiety boil in my veins just because I'm a little paranoid that you don't love me?
Do I have your permission to skeptisize our relationship?
Am I right?

Every time my heart gets broken it feels like the first time.

I don't say "hopefully" anymore because that implies that I have hope.