a friend, one of the closest to me
every secret i told you was gossiped around
i tried to ask you politely to stop
maybe i shouldnt have asked politely

im sorry if i left i never thought i was your light
leaving you was my decision and it wasnt right
i shouldve stayed for you and fight
now im alone without you by my side

i was blinded when i seeked for another
i deemed myself brave but i wasnt a fighter
i didnt fight for what truly mattered
im sure it will haunt me forever

i miss your smile that u disliked
i know i shouldve tried
now i regret that i wasnt satisfied
but now i have realized

l miss your eyes that was dark as night
it was always a beautiful sight
i depicted it as a gateway to you my light
but now its all dark which i know isnt right

my light please give me another chance
i know i left you not just once
now remembering it was twice
i promise ill never leave and wont make thrice

i know you're still in the dark
i also know coming back wont just be a walk in the park
but ill do everything for you to take me back
because i dont wanna go mister stark

i wasnt beside you by the edge
but as you fall of the ledge
i gurantee im at the bottom i pledge
this is not a story thats too farfetched

darkness surrounds you as you fall
ill be here throught sunshine and rainfall
i apologize for causing your downfall
but now im here and with you im ready to face it all

A hollow vase forged and crafted to function as a keeper
God only knows what was to be placed in the vessel
Made from dust and was molded by love
A perfect container to be filled with knowledge

At first a perfect family was imbued inside the vessel
Followed by lessons only a prodigy could handle
Slowly it was infused by different lessons from diverse people
The vessel was happy it was being filled finally fulfilling its purpose

Up until it was filled with waste and trash
The perfect family was emptied and was replaced by a broken one
Lessons from diverse people was slowly thrown away
The vessel that was once filled happiness was replaced by sadness

Continuously shattered throughout the years
now full of cuts on his wrists and a barely functioning heart
It could only imagine what he had once
a perfect idea of what he could've been if he only was a tad bit stronger

what was once promised to be kept on the top shelf
for safekeeping as he was the most valuable
was now hidden for it had become
a broken and shattered vessel hidden from everyone

It yearns for a purpose everyday, watching other vessels be filled up
with knowledge he dreamed for while he laid there being filled with trauma
the now cuts on the vessel were displayed as it was full of them
the owner could barely keep it intact but the vessel knew otherwise

It was close to breaking it was filled with knowledge and lessons from its past
memories that were supposed to be happy were replaced by haunting experiences
It could barely hang on it was filled to the brim by waste but it felt empty
a new line was made on the shattered vessel everyday as if it was a cut to display its pain

being filled was its purpose
but was the haunting memories enough for him
the horrible wisdom it has learn throughout the years
it all built up until he couldn't take it and he shattered

everyone was heartbroken about the vessel
full of what-ifs and promises they made to the vessel
regret filled the cabinet where it was once stored
everyone mourned at the finale but no one helped during the ******

my greatest downfall, the woman who brought me down
moments filled with promises for the two of us
poisoned my mind with lies expecting it would happen
loving you was the easy part and now forgetting you was the challenge

akoy isang lalaking hindi madasalin
hiniling sa diyos na ikay mapasakin
handa sa ano mang ating tahakin
pangako na ang lahat ay ating kakayanin

tulang puno ng pagmamahal nililikha
nagmula sa puso lahat ng mga salita
ngunit kaakibat ng salita ang gawa
kahit ano mangyari hindi magsasawa

handang magbago ang tulad kong tarantado
patunayan lang na hindi isang gago
sadyang mamahalin ka ng buong buo
mula nang ikay mahalin handang magbago

isang binibining kumbagay mala-sining
minimithing mapapunta sa aking piling
mapaano ibibigay lahat ng hiling
pangarap ikay katabi sa bawat gising

sa bawat kwento mo na puno ng pighati
gagawin ang lahat para ikay ngumiti
mga kwentuhan na umaabot ng gabi
ang pag-ibig sayo ay lalong tumitindi

marapatin na bigyan ng pagkakataon
pag-ibig sayo aabot habang panahon
akoy nagbago at handa ng patunayan
ikaw ang mahal mula noon hanggang ngayon

marami man kontra sa ating pagsasama
handa ng patunayan na ito ang tama
ang kasiyahan ay laging ipapadama
papalitan ng saya lahat ng drama

siguradong sayo ay hindi nagkamali
ikaw talaga ang minahal at pinili
mga oras na kasama ka di mapakali
akoy handang mag-antay sayo basta palli

tutuparin ang pangakong di ka sasaktan
ano man ang mangyari di kita iiwan
siguradong ikaw lang ang paglalaanan
ng tunay na pagmamahal magpakailanman

ibibigay lahat ng iyong pangangailangan
mapa gamit o prutas maliban sa pakwan
susuportahan ka kahit anong larangan
ipaparamdam tunay na pagmamahalan

pinakaminahal marahil ay ikaw
kagandahan tilay mga perlas na hikaw
pagmasdan at marahil ikay masisilaw
iyong kausapin paniguradong siya'y
sabaw

marahil ito na ang aking huling saknong
handang maghintay sa sagot mo sa aking tanong
paumanhin sa tula kong usad pagong
paninidigan ko lahat hanggang sa kabaong

you sympathize with me when i was lonely
only to compare yourself to me
i felt that i was just overacting
but now i realize you were just selfish

i was always afraid of death
the uncertainty of where you would go
will it be eternal darkness or eternal happiness
ill know soon enough

i always hated chess, it bores the living **** out of me
same as playing outdoors, running around and lying on the ground
combined? that was giant chess and that's your dream date
and its 2:14 am and im browsing the web for a giant chess play area. ****.me.

the demons are out to get me
everyday they get the best of me
i wish someone could help me
please take me out of this misery

As my day is engulfed in darkness
I remove the mask that i display to everyone
The mask that covers the pain and sadness
Depicting the happiness that i long for

As i slowly sink to the river of despair
Losing all hope and signs of life
All i needed was a light to pull me out
A light to give me hope and make me smile once again

Every day was this until i met you
“My light!” I have found you and you have saved me
I always thought you were the one saving me
In this field of darkness i thought that you were my light and so i thought

The scars on your wrist, the darkness under your eyes, and the fake smiled you showed
It didnt take a nuclear physicist to understand you
That you arent just my light saving me rather
Im also your light pulling you out

Slowly and surely we were happy
Being happy isnt my wish but being with you is
Every single day you ask me if we can be happy
And i always respond “happy? That’s cliché lets be sad together

taking you for granted was my biggest regret
got tired of waiting and looked for someone else
wasted my life for people and took me months to realize
I had all what I need right infront of me.

sadness burdens us everyday through and through
having you made it a little bit better day by day
sadness never left rather it became a part of us
happy? thats cliche bub lets be sad together

Its one of those days that you'd rather cover yourself on sheets
Cry your heart till tears stop flowing
a normal albeit boring day for you
soon it'll all be over my love

you antagonized my emotions everytime
trying to add fuel to the fire
and the moment i burn someone
you're there saving the day

people ignore me until they need me
it felt great helping them until i realized
i took the jesus part way too seriously
and now its 3 pm and its time

i yearn the days of happiness sprawling
smiles around me spreading eternal joy
everyone deemed me to be the best
i was happy and contented

i helped u at your lowest
leaving the moment u were happy
now that i needed you my friend
im alone in this cold dark room

i miss the old days
smile had faded
friends had left
tears fallin

i was your go to friend, a temporary buddy
i remembered when u bullied me
now u act as if i was one of ure closest friends
it reminds me of how a mouse needed a dog to protect himself from the cat

Kamusta
tila wala na mga kislap ng iyong mata
marahil magmula ito ng iwan kita
mula ng akoy umalis araw araw na kong nagtaka

maari pa ba kitang tawaging sinta?
malamang ikay malungkot at nagdurusa
alam ko naman na tinuring kitang walang kwenta
at kahit anong hingi ko ng tawad ay di mo na ibibigay pa

magmula ng ikay aking sinira
palagi ka nalang malungkot at tulala
puro ako pagsisisi ngunit alam kong wala ng magagawa pa
iniwan ako sapagkat wala na akong tamang ginawa

tila ilusyon nalang gawa ng alak ang ating masasayang alaala
kahit anong aking gawing ikay di na muli makakasama
masyado ng madaming pighati ang iyong nadama
ang dating malakas at matayog na tao ay isa nalang memorya

patawad sa akin sarili para sa lahat ng nawala
magmula noon ay ikay nagdurusa
hayaan mo at akoy hindi na hihiling na ikay magbalik pa
maging masaya ka sana hanggang sa ating muling pagkikita

i rarely prayed
i always made it through with my sheer luck and wits
but that night, the night we stopped
i prayed with all my heart out that somehow he wouldnt let us fall apart.

i overslept
the day continued with me still sleeping
everyone did fine without me
maybe ill sleep more

i traded coal for silver but still was unsatisfied
silver was traded for gold but still i wasnt happy
it took me centuries even eras to realize
the coal would transform into a beautiful diamond

maybe im not alone
the demons their holding on
might as well befriend them
at the very least they wont leave me