In happier times

Together always, and also apart

Smiling on the outside, crying inside

Holding hands, mile high walls between us



In happier times

Joined by paper, by properties

By kids, by work, by bills,

By love, by hurt, by hate, by hurt



In happier times

Music throughout, wrong music but music

Watching tv, wrong shows, but together right?

Dinner together, one ate and one cooked cleaned served

Happier times??



And now – alone and yet not alone

Friends, family, strangers

Sometimes crying outside

But then .. smiling on the inside



No longer joined by paper, properties

Work, bills, love hurt hate hurt

No more bad music, no more wrestling

Dinner together – with kids and two goldfish

Finally –happier times

Nothing you said makes me happier
Not “I love you”
Not “I miss you”
Not the sweet words,
The secret language
You used with only
The girls filled with hate
Now I think, to this day
That nothing you say
Could ever make me happier

Nothing you said makes me happier
Not “Come over”
Not “Come closer”
Not the proofread lines,
Carefully exacted
For the time you just left
Me to wander, distracted
Alone in a crowd
We no longer interacted
That didn't make me happier

Nothing you said makes me happier
Not “We need a break”
Not “I'm moving away”
The looks that you gave
Or the way you berate,
Not even a whisper
Of lie and debate
Will make me happier
Than when you told me
“I'll be dead by forty.”

when we kissed there was a spark,
you kept my heart calm,
your smile was my art,
i was happier,

wondered about your scar,
i am broken and in parts,
remember when we watched the stars?
i was happier, way back with you,

ain't nobody hurt me like you do,
but i know nobody could love me like you,
promise i won't fade away, not because of you,
if you do find someone new,

because i was happier with you,
your sweet words echoing my mind,
and i will smile to hide all of my pain,
but you don't know that i was happier with only you,

baby, are you happier without me?
does that someone new kiss you like i did?
but if she leaves you like all the others,
just know i am waiting for you to come home to me.